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I Think Ima Blog But Like Ima Be a Lil Serious About It

He was out in the wilderness in a box with a glowing screen that gave him access to the zeitgeist the thing that the world wide web captured. You could spell it out out three ways but he had a deviant streak in him a centimeter wide there was nothing to him straight laced dude glasses rockin type from having done so much reading. You could find the world in his eyes and it was the kind of place you wished you could call your planet. You might find that there was a thing you could call your home but he had that ready for you and you just had to sit on the couch for a second to find it. Kind of guy that when you came over to his spot offered you some keebler elf cookies and some grape juice. You could smell home all around him and he has his computer on facebook so you knew he was from the future and it was something that changed when you were around him when you knew that he spent as much time in the mental health hospital as he had and you heard the stories of his use of the computer and you asked to see some evidence that he didn’t just surf porn on his computer and BLOW like 500 files of writing and 200 video files and like 400 self portraits and you were like oh so you just it’s like you just like you just like it’s just you and the computer most of the time and he’s like YEAH for the most part it’s just me and the computer and I’m typically trying to think of something to write, working on something to write trying to think of something to write not entirely certain what I would write but I think of things to write and then there is just the writing I think of while I’m writing it and that’s this writing this is the kind of writing I think writing should be writing that kind of writing I have the kind of writing that is my writing and my writing is my writing and I have the mental health acuity that is my writing and I write like I have writing to do and the writing that I do is is my writing and that’s my writing. I might blog. It’s immediate. It’s new.


Sometimes I think to myself that there is going to be a place I can find myself that is the self I am going to find and I am going to blog myself a person that is the person I am going to be and if I could find myself. I don’t know. What’s the point of a long cohesive 400 page long story when I can just let you know the premise and you can ruminate on that. If I sat here and thought of story ideas like there is this subreddit that’s dedicated to story ideas and if I could come up with story ideas and I don’t know. People that read books might not be up on publishing as much as people that write books. Just saying.

It’s the story of a caterpillar that experiences glory as it gets it’s dying wish which is to see the butterfly.

Future Facebook Post When Off Block

i don’t have the moral compass for corporate social media work like what you champion and what i am are disparate enough that from time to time i will get dinged for blue collar language on a white collar site i don’t take enterprise level language training classes so that i can be on the pinnacle of my business flow in a meeting of the minds in headquarters but like someone thought i was an angel once when i saved her from being raped by just sitting there and being there to scare her rapists away from her they were teenagers and i was in my 30’s so like your record of me is language in nature but this is just a song to me and it seems like it’s actually something to you

Dear Massachusetts Institute of Technology

hey i’m sorry … i wrote you because you were someone i randomly picked but i accidentally sent the email to you before it was finished.
Hey, I’m nicholas. I was just curious to know how to discern the value of this concept like should i just write a book on it or should i learn mathematics and try to prove this myself since it’s in my head? I live in Cincinnati and am super excited by this thought I had yesterday and decided to write a physics department.

I have an english literature degree and a background in technical work and i thought of the SPACE FORCE donald trump was talking about and i was like okay … so here’s the thing ..; i was sitting reading about space force when i was reminded of an ancient conversation i had back in like 1999 and it was the moment a woman named MANDY stated firmly it made sense to her that if you had a time machine on earth and you stepped into it and went back in time you would end up floating in space because we are always moving.

Because we are always moving if you tried to time travel in your direct location you would be going back in time to that location and there is no planet there or if you go into the future from your position on the planet nothing will be there as well.

So time travel on earth is not possible because the earth is in constant motion.
Last night I was like alright i know that now that mandy said something so i thought okay then it makes sense if that is true that you can travel through space and time travel is a matter of going where you want to be in time and getting in a rocket and traveling to the location you want to be in time. Like for lack of a better way of putting it if you could affix a door to a location in space voodoo mathematics explains it but i currently have a tangible narrative about how someone can travel to a point in space that has been discussed with an X,Y,Z coordinate that presents space with a navigation system and if you travel to a location you can travel to that time period the last time earth was there or you can travel to the future and land on earth when it’s at that position in the world of time travel.
I don’t know I know Space Force was recently discussed and that’s like a BRAND to me and anything I can do to discuss my plans for SPACE FORCE like I think of space as that which is not matter and if it is matter it’s not space like I would love to pour over journals that have to do with space and if Donald Trump’s SPACE FORCE was this idyllic thing that did just that explored space like if it was a think tank and a research concept and it may have a militaristic purpose as well but space force to me is about mastering space and like trying to achieve astonishing results studying space that thing that’s between things.
so yeah …
i’m terribly sorry i feel like i had a physics question so i wrote the physics department. i mostly view this as an office this thing i am standing on.
it’s what i do and i think i am pretty good at it.
nicholas lawson
ps i’m the victim of a 10 year academic career that typically surrounded itself with 202 studies for the most part like i am not erudite enough or comprised of much more than half truths but i don’t know can you discern what I am trying to say here and could you grade it please? I would be willing to mail you $25 if you would read this email and grade it.