God Begot Me …

why do i need your

bible when i can

write my own





This is for everyone that wants to understand me or for anyone that does and wants to know me better.

I am a poet. I am a writer. I am a dreamer. I am no longer a student and not yet a master. I wander the realms of the mind listening to Kanye West and Beth Orton. I love contemporary music and feel that I have peers in artistry that I am working to elevate my work to the level of so that one day I would have the pleasure of meeting artists who may respect my work and would find me interesting as well. How often do poets rank in the eyes of painters or musicians? I would like to know.

I have been hospitalized ten times in the last ten years for mental illness. I believe that my condition stems from my interactions with my environment and my time spent alone listening to music for countless hours on

end and time spent in solitude writing and being creative. When presented with large groups of people I feel uncomfortable if not a bit sad. I stare at all of this and wonder where the artists are and why there are so few of them per general population.

I firmly believe that our purpose on earth is not to worship god but to cre-ate art and to create art that celebrates not god but to create art that cel-ebrates us, the earthlings. I believe that if we believed in each other the way we believed in God we would be GOOD! I share zero belief in any deity with you, I believe we are at the pinnacle of civilization and that it is up to us to build the precipices we wish to conquer.


Why do I need you bible when I can write my own? To all of the people fol-lowing the people who preach from books they never wrote , about people they never met, about events they never witnessed, this is for you. These are modern writings written from a man who has seen the world, been to jail, been to psych wards. I still write, I still live, I still thrive, I still breathe. I still exist. Now read this and step into the Information Age.

that greatest poem of mine poem

I am searching for the words to heal my mind as my lungs pull in the universe one breath at a time, giving my consciousness the moments it needs to unwind these lines of writing that I find strung together like pearls.

These words are like worlds orbiting through our collective mind, that we are daily training to refine and collapse into syllables to be pushed through our mouthpieces, as our mind’s eyes work to speak their visions into being shaping surroundings like “Oh my! What have we done?!”

It looks like we have begun to understand the power of our tongue and are working on discovering the secrets of the sun!

As we are all that is and all that is us.

The moments of eternity have found their ways into our veins that course through our systems of sonnets as our poetic natures collide and create our destiny while we all make movements with our manuscripts etched into our cerebral tissues that are working to raise the consciousness of an entire fucking generation!

We are deliberating on new ways to collaborate with the cosmos so that one day we can collectively open our eyes and see the sunrise shining over a city of sentience that is collectively reaching for the highest heights and the streets are paved with knowledge, while people walk with purpose building a future that can stretch into our dreams and pull out our collective majesty here in this queen city that is

the birthplace of brilliance and vision…

ideas that we hope to watch grow up and attain greatness and morph into adult bodies with mature thoughts and powerful aspirations and an appreciation for the community that gathers around the microphone.

It happens to be a beautiful tradition unfolding before our eyes where mortals flex their strength becoming spirits with a message.

As there may not be angels but thank the stars for the poets who burn with desire and determination to mine these words for meaning.

We are seeing what happens when we collect our thoughts and think weeks before we speak embedding messages into creation, marking our existence like a flag in this land because you were here and i was here and we were here and that means something and to me something is something and something is definitely better than nothing and when I come searching for the words to uplift my soul i come here where everyone comes to share their something and there’s no better something than what comes from the mouth of the poets.

The people whom are seeking to know the unknowable and who observe reality with a beautiful heart and those poets come here and share their wisdom and custom nuggets of knowledge that help make it easier to make it through the day at least that’s what happens to me so yeah I have been searching for the words to heal my mind and maybe this mic is just what i needed to find.

that sweetest sarah kay poem

With the purest voice in the poetry community untainted by ego or absurdity and who tells the softest stories with the greatest strength Sarah , you refresh the name as the most Sarah of the Sarah’s and there are quite a few …

The minds you inspire will only bring joy to the world. Isn’t it about time that a voice emerges and why shouldn’t that voice be you? We should all be so lucky as to be in the same room as you at some point. You defy all laws of egotism and shout to the mountains that your voice is pure, all of existence can reform itself when someone like you steps into existence and these English words are so filled with pain and anguish but you seem to know how to care and caress the words that we work with and respin them into their most positive forms.

For when the English language leaves your lips it’s hard to admit that it has never sounded so beautiful.

You provide a reason to pick up the new words of the season as they are whatever you wish them to be because out of all of the sounds of infinity you bring reason to make a poet want to speak only the words that would make you smile.

Thank you for your depth of character and thank you for your tender voice.

The world can be a dark place but with you here it has to improve be-cause the standard you set leaves us no choice but to aspire to work to elevate our words to a higher plane that can fly like diatribes in the rain and maybe you are the rainbow we have been waiting for that is bright as the fullest colors of the spectrum and from the depths of my soul I promise we will work for you, while we let you know that some good deeds are as powerful as the sun.

thank you Sarah and may all your days be golden as you brighten the days with your powerful shine.

It’s as if you have been here before but I think you knew that so wel-come back and thank you for your poetry because an old fashioned voice never goes out of style, So Sarah where have you been, even Gaia is looking for you to ask to be your friend?

that that charles would have agreed poem

You can feel poetry inside your veins it’s what you go to the store to look for, it’s the nourishment that is supplemental. Poetry is the red pill and poetry is not the blue pill. Poetry is what the agents were trying to stop inside the matrix. Poetry is something a computer could write but poetry is something a computer could never define. Poetry is

something that will eventually spawn the emergence of true A.I. Poetry is confusing and yet poetry makes perfect sense once you have transcended. Poetry is after the rapture and yet poetry is also not Christian. Poetry is the nuclear missiles that I have between my toes. Poetry is a perfect mouth. Poetry is a perfect aureole. Poetry is pinching that very same teat. Poetry is sexy because poetry is love. Poetry is something that you can only experience. Poetry is scary the way that monster trucks are scary when you think for a moment that people go in droves to see these monstrous machines crush all the little cars. Poetry is like that.

Poetry is a writer that is slacking on his prose. Poetry is a manifesto that is always waiting to be written. Poetry is a little group of people who love each other and can’t wait to have their writing read by each other. Poetry is group love without the awkwardness. Poetry is some-thing that I wish I never learned about and yet poetry is what makes me. Poetry is always coming out of me, poetry never stops. Poetry was surprised when the universe got started. Poetry is a cigarette in the mouth of an infant and poetry is that infant being smart enough to light it. Poetry is maturation of the mind. Poetry is the menstrual cycle of an emu. Poetry is something that never ends because when one writer stops, another picks up the pen.

that watch the nips poem

She used my nips L
ike etch a sketch wheels and drew a smile on my face,
then she shook
shook shook shook me
until I was a blank slate.
Now the moment is heated
and we have decided
another human we should create.

that children’s’ names poem

Let your children name themselves. Break with the current modes of existence
and reclaim that which you find moving through your mantra. Sleep less and dream more.Push yourself to the limits of imagination. Cross the barrier and encapsulate your dharma; your mediation your sovereign nation, your space to call your own. Equate with the galaxy and spend time growing so that you can understand the changing rate of time to be released into the future only to be sent back to us as unfinished. Unwanting of broken machinery, we are to present the future versions of ourselves, that we call our lives, with manufactured organisms of logic, technological creations that we truly need.

Step into the lab and craft combinations of letters into organisms that you can then use to obliterate unchanging modes of dialogue. Arguments being argued day in and day out for no reason other than to pass on the tradition of “argumentation.” A relic of tradition long gone in perfect circles of communities of poets that train to refrain from destroying all that you hold dear. We hold the power of your language fastened to the ends of ancient spears that we are daily sharpening and waiting to send into the cosmos as we ride the tails of our words into the beyond beyond absurd where carefully crafted metaphors come and heal the wounds incurred by centuries of evolution in destructive directions that you don’t have to believe in because the truth does not need your belief to exist.

You only need to develop your interface to the cosmos so that you can push the boundaries of the unseen into arenas you’ve never breached that are not outside of your reach. Just pull them in and see for yourself that which you need to see.

This is the new millennium … prepare yourself.

that cincinnati calendar poem

Monday Tuesday Wednesday Thursday Friday Saturday Sunday and Someday

You might not want to talk to me on Monday
You might not want to look at me on Tuesday
You might not want to hear me on Wednesday
You might want to ignore me on Thursday
You might want to yell at me on Friday
You might want to fire me on Saturday
You might want to watch me get rained on, on Sunday but on Someday

Yeah, Someday

We’ll get together and have a barbecue and eat chicken wings in homemade barbecue sauce, and little kids will be running around laughing, and there will be honey dew melon and watermelon and even though I don’t like it musk melon and grapes and turkey legs and ribs, and ribs and ribs and the kinds of ribs that have the thick part of the meat at one end, and we’ll give each other advice on how to raise our kids and maybe we’ll try and work out that really hard math problem that we all forgot how to do but little Martin needs to find that answer to before class on Monday and we’ll all sit down and have a nice meal together on double paper plates because just one isn’t thick enough, and then well send the kids to bed and we’ll pass around the blunt and play some music and kick back in the vibe and realize that its Someday and yeah Someday is always the day that this happens and I love someday because it’s my favorite day of the week and then on

Monday you might want to steal my car and on
Tuesday you might want to kick me in the shins and on
Wednesday you might want punch me in the stomach and on
Thursday you might want to break into my apartment and on
Friday you might want to poke me in the eye and on
Saturday you might want to bitch slap me with the back of your hand and on
Sunday you might want to bitch slap my girlfriend with the back of your hand but
Someday comes around and again

and now we’re in the park and were staring at the stage while all the poets that have been doing poetry for years are performing their hearts out still and a couple young poets are up on stage trying out some new pourings out of the heart and they’re maybe 18 years old and maybe this is their first time performing and they’re nervous and we’re sitting back and watching and remembering why we started writing poetry in the first place, because we had something to say and no one to listen us, and so we wrote, and our grandmothers are sitting in plastic lawn chairs and our parents are standing their watching us perform again and our children are in the front row sitting cross legged and watching us perform and the mayor is there and so are a couple ministers and maybe some people that found out about the event and didn’t want to miss a great show and it’s our Woodstock, the one where there aren’t any fires and there aren’t beatings and there are just real chill cats who found a real chill answer just doing what makes sense because this makes sense and that’s all the reason we need to be doing it and then on

Monday you might want to shoot me in the heart and then on
Tuesday you might want to stab me in the back and then on
Wednesday you might want throw a grenade at my feet and then on
Thursday you might want me to step on a land mine and then on
Friday you might want to push me off of a tall building and then on
Saturday you might want to give me an uppercut to the chin and then on
Sunday you might want to throw acid on me and then
Someday comes around

and for some reason more people than have ever come together before all come to the Stadium and fill it up and we all agree that we’re not leaving until we get something worked out, until we get everything off of our chest and speak everything that we need to hear to everyone that we want to hear it and we finally solve our problem that we know our city has because this is getting old and this is getting tiring and its someday and someday is the one day of the week when something like this is possible and Someday is the day of the week when dreams come true, why because its

Someday, that day of the week dreams always come true.

And that’s what happens on someday and it doesn’t ever matter what day of the week it is but then it doesn’t matter because no matter what day of the week it is because were always waiting for someday to come around and sweep us off of our feet like we always know it will and every someday, some cats that I know all get together and we have a stiff drink and smile, today is

Someday, so what do you want to do?

Monday Tuesday Wednesday Thursday Friday Saturday Sunday and yeah man, definitely, Someday.

that even cupid quits poem

I sling arrows I found at Cupid’s garage sale,
and my quiver is quite full.
I reach back and rip one away!
because someone’s going to fall in love today.

that what do you expect from me poem 

When you don’t expect anything from me I’ll surprise you.
When you’re expecting everything from me I’ll disappoint you.
Never thought you’d find a revolutionary behind these eyes,
but that just happens to be the case.
You might see a leader rise up out of me.
I am crafting a better day and I really want to say
“Come and sit with me and it will be okay.”
followed by
“We can commune and then go back to work.”
Happy that we found a moment where we laughed like jesters, dined like kings on symphonious conversation that brought us close to the edge of elation inebriated on simple verbication.
Word for word we passed the energy back and forth sifted through laughter and tears, we shifted gears, planned a moment beautiful and calm. We floated palm to palm riding out the storm that started to fall. Rain soaking all our pores, washing away every spot that’s sore.
We lock lips and start to explore the only idea we understand in this universe.
Skin to skin we start to begin the motion that allows us to transcend. Now we’re living in the lion’s den.
We have a mighty sword that shines like lightning, through these sub par analogies, I apologize that I couldn’t be a better poet.
Just let me change the world So that I can close my eyes and softly die knowing that I lived.

that sitting on my sanity poem

I sat on the front porch of my sanity and wondered why I left the back porch light on, maybe because I wanted to leave the door open so that I could go inside my mind and swim around my cerebral cortex where I store my morning glories that shine several hours before I awaken because my dreams have been forsaken and so I keep my eyes shut to fight the demons that glow so bright and the angels are the keepers of the light because they have capitalistic tendencies and even God can’t figure out a way to make everything free so even in my dreams God charges me a fee so that I can buy a ticket that takes me back to reality where you can charge me for where I live and everywhere I go they charge me they charge me they charge me full of energy so that when I charge back we can topple their chemistry with 6 billion credit cards making purchases on the very same day that we began to own the cosmos that is only worth something gift wrapped in galaxies and they just finished my transaction so here comes my receipt and I leave a tip for God because I love the language that I speak.

that letter to city council Dear Laura Quinlivan,

I would like to help improve the image of Cincinnati throughout the nation by helping us to craft our national media campaign into perpetuity. It was stated that Cincinnati has everything to offer that New York City has and that Chicago has in terms of services that are provided as a City and I would like to point out that that is far from true. What separates Cincinnati from Chicago and New York City is the fact that they broadcast their ideas and inspirations out into the main stream media. Cincinnati does not do that. I have read numerous times about how Cincinnati is a place for people to become trained and then they leave for other cities to pursue their career in creative industry work.

If Cincinnati would like to reverse this trend I would like to propose that we create a citywide radio station whose purpose is to be consistently auditioning new bands and talent with a website whose purpose is to consistently rate the music that is playing on such a station and essentially make it very simple for talented musicians to gain access to the mainstream. This is a service that Chicago and New York City does not provide. A dedicated radio station to new local and national acts. The inception of such a radio station would bring value and excitement to the twenty something crowd in Cincinnati as there is no greater joy than hearing your work live on the radio. I know because one of my poems was read on 107.1 recently and I just tingled with excitement when that happened.

I would like to enable more people to experience similar moments as that would make me feel fulfilled. I would also like to suggest the creation of a dedicated television station here in Cincinnati that focuses on Cincinnati Issues and is operated and run by Cincinnati talent. Our writers and our actors and our performers and our directors absolutely need a professional venue to continue to hone their craft. The lack of any form of infrastructure that supports media expression is a massive deterrent to creative class individuals who are seeking to make a sustainable living at provoking thought and inspiration.

If Cincinnati would like to be a world class city then it needs to have world class amenities. London has its’ own media, New York has its’ own media, Tokyo has its’ own media, Chicago has its’ own media, Sydney has its’ own media, Paris has its’ own media. Cincinnati currently does not and will never be able to attain the level of exposure that what I assume this last council meeting was about broaching the topic of.

I currently work at Media Bridges and am working to develop technology as a researcher that will allow me to engage in performance computing.

What this would be would essentially be a live stream of what I would be doing with a computer live on television. I would be able to engage in performance writing, I would be able to engage in sharing YouTube Videos, I would be able to engage in sharing music that I find interesting. The convergence of the computer with the television on television would be to the best of my knowledge a first for quite possibly the entire universe. If you would like to be truly progressive as a city and reap the benefits of attracting the kind of attention that you are seeking that would bring in the kind of revenue that our city needs then I would recommend implementing value adding amenities to our Queen City.

I would also like to invite you are an associate of yours to Coffee Emporium at noon to help us begin the discussions that would lead to the Greater Cincinnati Airport becoming the de facto model for airport customer service. This will be accomplished through the development of an in airport talk show that would have a never ending supply of interesting guests as the traveling business class is just that, the most interesting segment of the population. I would also like to discuss the creation of a recording studio within the airport for the purposes of providing a creative release to passengers that are experiencing layovers and in return for taking the time to record their creative sides we will market their music for them and give patrons of CVG the experience of being able to experience the recording studio experience and the relief of stress that comes from such activity. It would also be worth mentioning that the type of transformation that I am proposing would be akin to the way you get off of a plane in Hawaii and they place a lay over your head, well here in Cincinnati when you step off the plane all of our passengers should be approached and given media packages that promote the music, poetry, and writing, that our city is known for.

I am a graduate of the University of Cincinnati that accumulated 315 credit hours of classroom time before I received my degree and I spent time in Journalism, Digital Design, Fine Arts, German Studies, and finally I graduated from English Literature. I have lived in Cincinnati my entire life and feel as though I understand what would improve the quality of life in Cincinnati as it has been a deep concern of mine for several years.

If we would like the rest of the world to engage our city on a professional level then we need to engage ourselves in the level of professional mass media communications that will attract the attention of a national stage. If we as a city were to host the Olympics we currently do not even have the capacity to cover the event through our media outlets. If Cincinnati would like to craft a message that would resonate with the masses a solid message that Cincinnati could rally behind would be “Cincinnati, this is where the Internet comes alive.” This would be a slogan whose purpose would be to penetrate the concept that all of the billions of man hours that have been spent developing the computational infrastructure that we see before is essentially meaningless work without content. These machines are essentially empty and until a machine is filled with valuable information the machine itself is worth-less. It is the information that is valuable , not the vessel that holds the information. You would also be happy to know that Cincinnati has one of the most powerful poetry communities in the United States as we consistently work with HBO Def Poets from New York City and bring in artists from Atlanta, Chicago, and Houston.

The art of performance poetry is very much the most valuable art form of the present day as it usurps all other forms of media currently in operation. would recommend searching for the artists Sarah Kay and Mighty Mike McGee to get a sense as to what is happening in the world of writing and performance art. If Cincinnati catered to these people, these artists and made an effort to become the most friendly city to performance poets you would be surprised at the positive effects that this would have on our entire national image. These poets of today are working to speak the most eloquent and beautiful sentences that can be crafted and there is currently no city to the best of my knowledge that is making an effort to amplify this new movement of artistic expression and if Cincinnati became a haven for performance poets some wonderful things would be able to happen because there would be a renaissance of empowerment that would radiate through the city from the mouths of the poets that we would cater to.

I would truly appreciate the opportunity to attend more meetings regarding the conceptualization of a branding strategy for the city of Cincinnati and I would also like to share with you my current magazine project that is being hosted online at … http://www.writealot.us … I encourage you to take a look at the writing that I have done in the last week and from your position as a professional writer would you please provide feedback as to what you think of the quality of my work?

I also wanted to share with you a space online that could be a very open and honest space for you to receive feedback on what others would think about in terms of branding Cincinnati who may not have been able to make it to the council meeting today. There is a bit of honest discussion occurring at the following address that I imagine as a Council Woman you would be able to gain a number of fresh perspectives that would be useful to your initiatives to uplift the city of Cincinnati in the eyes of the national community … ( http://www.reddit. com/r/cincinnati/comments/f4ld1/what should Cincinnati’s image be/ ) … I am very serious about acting on behalf of my city because as I am growing as an artist and a writer and I would like to explore the idea of mass media and since we are looking for new ways to market the city to businesses I imagine you would be surprised at how a vibrant arts community would be inspirational to the advertising agencies in Cincinnati, the marketing agencies, the graphics community, and the design community. I would like to work on wonderful ideas with you and I believe that I have much to offer.

Cincinnati and would like to begin working to my fullest potential as a college graduate. Thank you for taking the time to raise an issue that I have been contemplating for some time now and thank you for allowing for the open discussion of ideas and strategies that we can pursue to bring value and revenue into Cincinnati. I look forward to meeting with you in person soon and hope that we can work together to bring a new level of prosperity to our lovely city.


Nicholas Lawson

that letter to the mighty mike mcgee letter Mike,

I just watched a number of your videos and sort of feel like I have at least a small idea of what it would be like to be around you. I think I’d have a good time. That being said I wanted to share with you myself so that you could know what it would be like to spend some time with me. From one artist to another I am humbly extending my hand to you. You inspired me deeply with In Search of Midnight recently and I just couldn’t stop thinking after just absorbing it. Thank you.


I just listened / watched / absorbed / thought through your poem video for In Search of Midnight. I thought that the repetition of the word midnight took on a rhythmic quality that reinforced the message you kept conveying of people doing what it takes to get by. You were telling the story of the most interesting people in society the people that are working their way up or working their way out of situations that no one wants to be in but that everyone has to go through when your family connections aren’t as solid as a power line.

Mike I gotta tell you, I like you. I like your story and I have been following it since I first heard about you. I am a poet. It’s all I have ever want-ed to be and its all that I will ever care about in my life. All I care about is writing and the quality of the story that is being told. From what I have read you tour mercilessly in a genre of entertainment that is in the process of being built. It’s because of people like you that we have a movement and a future in this field of performance poetry. I wanted to tell you about myself because there is a part of me that just wants to be known by you. I just want you to know who I am and to know that I love the song “Central Reservation” by Beth Orton. I love both the electronic remix and the soft melodious version. She is a thirty some-thing singer out of London England and she is my sweetheart though she doesn’t even know where the city I live in is on the map. If you asked Beth Orton where Cincinnati is on the map she would probably look at you puzzled but that doesn’t change the fact that she is my favorite singer. Now you know about my musical tastes. I also love Tupac and Rappin 4 Tay.

I’m just hanging out with you right now man. Its me , Beth Orton and a keyboard and I am just rapping with you. I hope you don’t miond. I honestly figure that if I write you the longest message you ever received on Facebook that maybe I will stand out enough that you will respond to me in some fashion. I think you are a celebrity, at least you are to me. You aren’t manufactured in your personality and you look at the world through honest eyes. I dig that. I dig that heavily.

Can I be honest with you? I think that what you are a part of with Write Bloody is one of the most awe inspiring efforts that I have ever seen online. Here you have Derrick Brown who was a Gondolier of all things one day waking up staring at a group of poets who all need help with their chapbooks and he just says “Alright bet. I will sell your chapbook but you have to do something for me. You have to tour. I will treat you like a fucking king but you have to fucking tour like you are building a genre of entertainment.” I dig that and then he signs to his poetry label Anis Mojgani this Bahitian poet who says the most lovely words ever spoken. He signs Buddy Wakefield who worked in corporate america sold it all and just fucking started touring and now he has like six books a CD and a DVD. Then you have Sarah Kay who actually responded to an email of mine when I sent her the loveliest poem I ever wrote, she thanked me and melted my heart with gladness. I don’t know if Sarah is part of Write Bloody or not but she should be.

That website is probably the finest example of online entrepreneurship I have ever seen. I can’t tell you how amazing I think poetry is in the age of the computer in the information age. If we are in fact in the information age and I don’t think anyone can deny that we are then lets ask ourselves … what is the most valuable information? We still live in a capitalistic society right? I mean I hear stories that we are transforming into Western Europe but really, that’s not true we are in a recession. I think you can be considered ahead man, Mighty Mike McGee because if it would interest you to know I think the most interesting form of information the most valuable form of information is well … art. What is more valuable than art in the information age? In the Industrial Age art was valuable it gave people a reason to randomly purchase goods and tools and to lump them together. Art in the Industrial Age was a means for an artist to be a spokesman for the tool manufacturers. When you saw musicians at the pinnacle of their popularity in the 80’s filling arenas you had to wonder why they were given such attention. IT was because they were artists who were expert musical goods salesmen. Led Zeppelin knew how to sell a fucking guitar. Louie Armstrong could sell a fucking horn and Jim Morrison could sell a fucking microphone and that guy from Def Lepeord could fucking sell a drum and he could fucking do it with one arm. With a single fucking arm he fucking sold an entire drum kit to thousands of people. Picasso could sell paint and wood frames and canvas and gesso. Art is about sales I believe. The best love the sale. I could be wrong but when I see art I see an intricate ecosystem of use and providing.

One man wakes up in the morning and goes to work to build a ham-mer. The next day he wakes up and gives that hammer to an artist. The next day the artist that has the hammer goes and looks for a nail and one man wakes up ready to build another hammer and another guy wakes up ready to sell his first nail. The artist gets paid to use the hammer and the nail and to validate the work of the hammersmith and the nailsmith. The artist is a collector of sorts who obtains tools and uses them in intricate ways.

Herein lies the problem that we are faced with. We don’t live in the age where people are exploring the production of tools. We live in the era where all of the tools have already been fucking produced. There is nothing left to fucking build. We have the internet we have Chipotles(TM) and we have an interstate highway system lled with more cars than there are people to drive them. The system did not collapse it came to full fruition.

This is where I see the beauty of your work and the beauty of my work. We live in the Information Age and honestly the Information Age is the age of artistry. We are in a bit of an unfair situation, this explains your In Search of Midnight poem. Every struggling person in the UNited States is not struggling due to lack of work or lack of ability. We are still the mightiest nation on earth but we are also ahead of the technological curve. Typically a major massive upheaval of society occurs when one a single new tool is developed. This process normally takes thousands of years in the process of tool development, deployment, skill building, normalization and then a new problem is found and a new tool is built to solve a new problem and this goes on and on relatively slowly be-cause people are spending far too much time talking to each other, toiling in the fields of farming and essentially working on making their lives easier. Much work goes into the creation of a simple life. You have to spend generations upon generations upon generations of intermingling families each developing and learning because of each other to develop a single tool and a marketplace for that tool. A single tool in a warehouse solves problems that you may not even know you have.

Now part of the reason in my belief that you are seeing what you are seeing and the reason that a new genre of expression is building up is because we live in a new era. First off remember we did not ask to be created and we certainly did not have a choice as to when we could have been created. We could have been born in Burma around the turn of the second century but that did not happen. We could have been born in Trinidad during the eighteenth century and we could have been born in Rome during the reign of caesar but none of that happened. We were born at the cusp of the 21st century and in this century we have the following & follow me on this & we have an interstate highway system and access to automobiles that cost roughly $1000 at auction if you know where to look which means that for $1000 and some gas money you can travel to the farthest reaches your imagination and patience can take you and further if you have a passport. We have airplanes that will take you around the entirety of all that exists which means essentially infinite space in three days. We have multi room houses with locks and doors and high definition television and high speed internet traffic which essentially means that we have access to all of the knowledge that has ever been created since the dawn of breathing bipedal humans a click away on a mouse and a keyboard which & pardon be for saying this & the keyboard is the laziest invention since the dawn of mankind.

I look at keyboards and I just grimace. I don t mind anything else in all of human existence but I loathe the keyboard. It s the most disgraceful unceremonious banal repugnant sleazy vomit inducing invention since the dawn of people whittling sticks together and making fire. From the time the universe was created it took all of evolutionary history to come to the point of language. The creation of symbols to be placed in prearranged orders for the purposes of storing information and transferring information from one complex arrangement of neurons to another complex arrangement of neurons and then these languages because there were more than one developed. There have been thousands of languages developed. There has been a constant evolution of the human language for millennia and then the keyboard comes along and spell checkers. This is where I get heated. The powers that be stunted our evolution. That is why we have poetry performances that should be filling arenas with adoring fans falling on deaf ears of people that kind of appreciate it.

I’m looking at this whole world of poetry and I feel like we are the new pioneers of the information age. We don’t need any of this and because of the last one hundred years of Industrial innovation we have reached a social pinnacle, some of us have at least those that avoid video games like the plague, and we are just looking at the world. You have that look in your eye Mike. You have that its not that I have seen it all and done it all and can do it all but that I know I exist and I am conscious of my existence and honestly I think this is a fairly strange world look in your eye. It s a very specific and peculiar look. Tell me you don’t feel that way? Tell me you don’t look at this civilization everyday and just wonder. So you write. That s why I write. I gave up on developing any sort of external value and have completely and whole heartedly given in to the fact that I live in the information age and that my existence has been relegated to pushing buttons and making noise. That s what I hate. I hate what I should have been and I hate how I was groomed to be a button pusher in an age that I should have been scribing my words with a fine quill. I’ll never know what good penmanship is because they literally stopped accepting handwritten assignments in school. I couldn’t have developed good handwriting if I had wanted to because the teacher was only ever going to accept a print out from the printer. I just stare at the world mike.

I love the poetry that I am hearing and I love the music that I am listening to but I rebel against all of this because there are just too damned goddamned many tools. Its like the Massachusetts Institute of Technology has been having epileptic brain farts for the last one hundred and fifty years and crazy shit is just popping up everywhere. Do you realize how long it is going to take for us to find an equilibrium artistically with everything that we are surrounded with. Do you realize that this internet is going to be around forever. We have one hundred years left to live and lets not forget about time travel. Fuck. Time travel is going to become as commonplace as ordering a Big Mac someday because they did it all wrong. There are no ceremonies left. Everything is get grab go. No one cries anymore. This is what I am proposing. I have a group of poet friends that are involved in some heavy activities. We all are. I should probably introduce myself. My name is Nicholas Lawson and I am one of the poets here in Cincinnati, OH. I have been to the Canary Islands, North Wales, Germany, England, San Francisco, New York City, Boston, Orlando, Fort Myers, Bel Air, Cleveland, Columbus, Little Rock and Xenia. I spent ten years at the University of Cincinnati and spent a year studying at the University of Westminster in London England in fields such as Graphic Design, Digital Design, German Studies, Fine Art, and finally English Literature. I’ve spent probably 10,000 hours staring at the internet. I have spent several thousand hours in a classroom. I’ve been to probably 200 poetry open mics and performed at probably all of them. I’ve been performing since I was 18 at Cody s Café and then I went from there and started performing at Shakers in Town and then I performed at the Jupiter Room and Cancun s Cantina in Norwood. I can’t forget the infamous Historic Greenwich Tavern which has been the stalwart performance space for just about forever. Mark Yates is a God where I come from and I won’t hear otherwise. I’ve worked at Hasbro Games Research and Development as a game developer, Eric Doepkes Architectural, Bacals Café as a dishwasher and host, Lees Famous Recipe as a friend chicken cook, Gadzooks as a retails sales clerk and professional flirtsman, Blockbuster Video as a shelf restocker, I worked for Short Vine Redevelopment as a web developer, I worked for the Public Allies as a researcher and I worked for a public television station Media Bridges as a web developer and researcher. That is pretty much my life up to now. I am leaving out some information because my life feels dense and I can’t remember it all.

Again, this is what I am proposing. If you have read this far then we can definitely form a relationship that could be mutually beneficial. I know poets. I know great poets. We have a Lyrical Insurrection DVD coming out quite soon. We have a Hip Hop Album coming out quite soon. We have affiliations with Ohio Chapter of the Hip Hop Congress (http://www.hiphopcongress.com/chapters/cincinnati-community-chapter/) through Hakiym and Tiffany Shair and we have affiliations with Sunfood Sovereign (www.sunfoodsovereign.com) through Khassa Silassi and we have an affiliation with the Knowledge Nation through myself at (www.writealot.us) we also have the Lyrical Insurrection which has won a Best In Cincinnati Poetry Spot award. We are linked with singers, rappers, poets, authors, actors, photographer, and chefs. We have a very interesting and beneficial situation in Cincinnati that on the surface you would never see.

We want to do films. Mike. Can I talk to you about making films. I am just laying it all out there in a short term. This is the information age and the most valuable information is the most difficult information to create and the most fulfilling to experience both on the production side and on the witnessing stage.

I have written Derrick Brown an email before and I guess I didn’t make much of an impression. Mighty Mike McGee can we talk about creating a relationship between the Write Bloody Camp and the Lyrical Insurrection Camp here in Cincinnati. We could bridge some important gaps in cultural capacity and we tour as well here in Cincinnati. I have been to Louisville, Indianapolis, Cleveland, Columbus. We enjoy lovely times here in Cincinnati and honestly I would like to invite you to come out and spend some time with us at one of our shows that currently take place every other Sunday for the Lyrical Insurrection.

Oh shit, I almost forgot to tell you two things. One. The Knowledge Nation. That is in line to be what Write Bloody is in your sphere. All I have to do is activate a single plug-in on my Word Press theme and I have a store that can accept credit card payments. That might not mean much but over a 60 year cycle of existence that is going to add up to some money because of the absolute quality of the work that we are going to be representing at the Knowledge Nation and if there are trademark issues we will quickly revert to a moniker known simply as Erithian Nation. I am developing the Knowledge Nation through the perseverance of ten years spent clicking keys on these keyboards and reading and watching movies and watching television and studying music. I just absorbed so much and now I have a website that is the essence of what I am talking about as an artist and pioneer.

The second thing I wanted to talk to you about that would benefit Write Bloody, Knowledge Nation and the Lyrical Insurrection would be to make films. Mike. I want to act with you. I want to be in a scene with you talking about filming something important that may allow us to continue to lead our treasured lives the way we see fit with maybe some nicer computers to work with. I love me an apple computer even though I do hate the keyboard. I love mice though. I think clicking a mouse is a lovely existence. I wish we had electronic pens that would allow us to have digital handwriting. I would love to spend sixty years of my life using a mouse and an electronic pen to get my creations on the screen. I love this language and I love the work that we can do. Mike, again. Films. We as poets are devout to beautiful writing. I have three screen plays that I would love for you to be a part of when we start production here in Cincinnati. I would also love it if we created poetry music videos more often. There’s nothing left to do but to do it and we already do it to death so why not do it to the afterlife and be remembered forever. Which imagine the fact that it s a lot easier to have an eternal personality in a dense media empire than at the inception of one. Reputations fade but prolific digital work at the inception of a new field of expression will be eternal into eternity.

I love to write Mike. If you have read this far then you have the kind of attention span that I admire. If I could leave you a gift for having read all of this I would have left it right here & http://www.writealot.us & nicholas@writealot.us & http://www.sunfoodsovereign.com & that is as close to a gift as I can achieve in the written word & links to other valuable information.

Mike you are a treasure on earth. Thank you for your poetry. Thank you for your presence and thank you for your character. I look up to you and your hustle because you are helping to make this poetry realm what it is supposed to be


With the utmost sincerity,

Nicholas reigle Anthony bossart Nicholas Lawson the First

that vanilla sky essay

I watched Vanilla Sky for the fifth time yesterday and I would like to point out how completely unfair it is that our generation is subjected to such mind altering cinematic masterpieces. My life isn’t difficult enough as it is to now have to question the very nature of reality on top of all that I have to deal with.

I remember having dreams many years ago where I was approached by two individuals who addressed themselves as technical support for reality interventions and they addressed their concerns with me that they just could not read my thoughts. Now normally I would consider this just an aberrant dream that is in response to the growth of the computing industry and my involvement in the internet, however in light of Vanilla Sky, I would like to better understand the nature of the reality that I am facing. What if I am a client?

What if this is a reality that is being crafted for me by an outside entity that is working to actively provide me with a sense of purpose? I don’t know. I do know that I do not remember being asked to be created as that is true for everyone and now that I have been created I feel as though I am inside the mind of my creator. As far as I can tell I was created by Kathy Lawson. In essence this is her world, I am walking around her thoughts, and I am engaging with her creations. I firmly believe that I am inside of the world of my creator whomever that should be. We are all inside of the world of a woman. I get the impression from the world around me that the woman’s world we are inside of has been actively trying to destroy herself for quite some time.

I believe this to be the end result of evil men trying to manipulate the goddess without her consent for seductive gains and for destructive results. Vanilla Sky to me represents a reality that is mirrored in movies such as Tron, the Matrix, and Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, these ideas also coincide with the concept of heaven and hell as the idea of heavens and hells reinforce the concept that what we are experiencing now is not all that there is to be experienced as there is something that occurs after we die that is better than what we are faced with now, there is also the idea that what we are faced with after we die is worse than what we are experiencing now. Either way there is a dramatic amount of effort placed into the concept that the right now is not worthy of our time, a moment at a later date is and all of the work that will make that moment great for us will be done for us.

I take issue with this. I take issue with the idea that we are to wait for a better life after we die, that we are to wait until we are cryogenically frozen and then thawed to wake up in a better world, that we are to build a computer simulation to exist within that will give us a better world. All of these concepts are forms of escapism to me and serve to only distract us from the now that we have in front of us at the moment.

We are willing to go to great lengths and spend great amounts of time to distract ourselves from the real reality that we are confronted with now in front of us. There is no reason to wait for a better future as we can perfect the present and in doing so the future will be perfected as well. Penelope Cruz in Vanilla sky accepts the idea that it can all be turned around with every passing moment. This is a very beautiful and true sentiment as at any moment the universe can begin to heal itself to absolute perfection. The degree to which our lives will be perfected is the degree to which we are willing to perfect our lives in the moment. Vanilla Sky is a wonderful opus on the confusing and convoluted concepts that involve the creation of hyper realities where anything is possible. Those hyper realities exist right now in front of us. The conception of the reality that you wish to experience is compounded by the amount of work that you are willing to do to bring such a reality to bear. Look at the character Tom Cruise in Vanilla Sky. He begins the movie absorbed in a world of high finance, powerful humans, and absolute creative authority. This is a man who earns his living being professionally creative. This to me is why Tom Cruise and Life Extension are such powerful allies for each other to each other and by each other. For a writer, the possibility of a reality that is malleable and eternal and timeless is such a beautiful thought to experience because as with Tom Cruise, every wonderful instance of life is experienceable again and again and again.

I would like to point out a fatal flaw that I find quite sinister in the film Vanilla Sky. It is the moment when Tom Cruise is on top of the sky scraper. Now I wholeheartedly disagree with Mr. Cruise’s choice to jump off of the top of a skyscraper at any point in his timeline as a human being. I believe that the entity that was tempting Cruise to jump o of the building was essentially the embodiment of Saytan and is reminiscent of the tempting of Jesus to jump off of the cliff. This creature is the same character as the Saytan in the Catholic Bible.

Now what issue I have with this moment is that , knowing all that Tom Cruise knows about everything that he has been told, to decide to jump off of the building is just disappointing. What he should have done in this situation is walk over to Penelope Cruz who was standing there looking at him and he should have reinitiated his reality at that moment and knowing all that he knew at that moment, walked over took her hand and invited her to coffee.

This may have been to the disagreement of the Saytan but he is only there to provide the highest levels of trickery known to mankind. What would Saytan’s interest have been in asking Tom Cruise to jump off of the building been? Well, quite honestly, the Saytan may have issue with the lifestyle that Tom Cruise was living and singled Tom Cruise out for his own special kind of punishment. When faced with a situation such as what Saytan provided there be as normal as possible. If the answer to your problem ever involves jumping off of a building to find the solution, then maybe that is a solution that should not be discovered or unearthed. Never jump off of a building , under any circumstances. If anything is possible then so is being shown a solution that does not involve self-immolation. How different and amazing would Vanilla Sky have been if Tom Cruise had walked over to Penelope Cruise and asked her out to lunch , she could have said yes and all would have been right with the world.

That is not what happened though, Saytan, tempted Cruise to jump off of the building and he did so. That just goes to show you the power of manipulation that Saytan will go to in order to get the affect that he would like to see in the world itself. The matrix is another movie that involves a false reality where falling off of a building is seen as the ultimate expression of one’s faith in reality. Again this is devastatingly obtuse and wicked. One should not put oneself in ultimate danger just to discover if one can be in ultimate danger. In other words, do not jump off of buildings for any reason. Period.

Vanilla Sky is an interesting, reality bending movie, that serves to make my life more difficult by proposing quite convincingly a concept that I already take to heart in terms of the holodeck on star trek, the inner world of the computer on Tron, the inside the matrix in the matrix, the inside the mind of Eternal Sunshine of a Spotless Mind, and Lucid Dreaming in Vanilla Sky, time travel in Back to the Future is another example of multiple realities being explored. Total Recall is another. I would just like to point out that all of these films have only served to make the lives of people like mine more difficult. If you really dig in and develop an understanding of these films you end up walking around reality just staring at it and wondering what it is in fact is.

I believe in this , that I am experiencing and I understand that it will improve with time because of the relationships that I am building around me and because of the work that I am doing to improve my surroundings. I cannot and will not allow myself to fall victim to the idea that life will be magically better in a reality that is not this one. If I wish for this reality to improve I must do the work of improving it myself and in starting a business or a company it serves the purposes of being successful by finding the people that believe similarly and wish to work to collectively improve their surroundings for the purposes of sustaining oneself and those around oneself.

that sarah palin letter

Miss Palin,

I would like to speak to you about the battle of the sexes. I would be willing to as a devout alpha male to concede that you are indeed the most powerful woman in the world. I am highly impressed. That being written. I would like to propose to you the following scenario for your approval. Imagine a scenario where you are running on a treadmill and there is a man giving you a back massage while you are running and it is quite a comfortable situation for you. As you are being given a back massage while you are running therapeutically there is also concur-rently a man mowing your lawn and while this is occurring there would also be a man going grocery shopping for you and while this is happening there would also be a man doing your taxes for you to his highest ability with this there would also be a man taking your pets for a walk and cleaning up their litter for you with this situation enacted there would also be a man installing a futuristic shower in your bath-room that shoots sheets of water at you at a lovely velocity and feels

as amazing as warm water would be able to feel and while this is hap-pening there would also be a man planting a large number of flowers in your garden and there would also be a man cleaning your silver and there would be a man writing poetry for you that would be about you and there would be a man writing engaging in correspondence with all of the major television networks in order to bring you the type of television engagements that you deserve and that would sustain you

much more elegantly than the united states government ever could and there would be a man who would be speaking on your behalf to your congressional representative making certain that your tax dollars are being spent wisely and there would be a man walking around taking photographs of you and your house and your life and they would work for national geographic and there would be a man writing a biography about your life and there would be a man consistently working to book you tickets to all of the most pressing social events in the world and there would be a man who would be working to ensure that your press releases were always timely and hand delivered with a smile and a nod and there would also be a man who would be working to ensure that your car was always spotless and washed and smelling quite nice and there would also be a man working to ensure that your mail was always taken care of to the best of their ability and there would be a man who would be cooking for you on a regular basis the most elegant meals that the world has to offer and there would be a man whose sole purpose would be to ensure that you have the nest shoes in the world and the finest clothing jewelry and perfume.

I can understand your desire to be the most powerful woman on earth and that you feel that in order to ensure that this happens that you would need to be spend your time in the white house taking care of ridiculous matters of the state when in reality you could be overseeing the assurance of your own personal legacy as the most powerful woman who has ever graced the face of planet earth and I know this scenario may seem appealing but imagine that this would be your situation for at least a span of eight years and quite honestly I feel that this

would truly be a wonderful compromise to our tea party surprise party conflict that we seem to be experiencing.

I would like to point out to you that the white house is at this point only that … a white house … and at this point the united states government essentially has access to all of the exact same information that the rest of the known world has and as such … do you really want to work as hard as you are and subject yourself to the kind of treatment that you have been … just to live in a mausoleum? I imagine that if you could be catered to in a very overflowing manner that you might feel as though what is essentially possible for you after this email is more appealing a lifestyle to strive for than the lifestyle you were striving for before your received this email. I am pointing out that you have options and if push comes to show we could call this the Sarah Palin Treatment and at the very least I believe that it would make for a timeless YouTube video. I look forward to hearing from you and yours and I would like to meet you for dinner sometime to discuss the writing that I am exploring at … http://www.writealot.us … I think you will find that we share common inter-ests and that honestly the future is whatever we would like it to be … I hope you enjoy my writing and if you reply it will increase the chances dramatically of you being able to wear a recent brassiere hat was cre-ated that from what i understand is worth $2 million dollars.

I hope you find your day to be supremely lovely and that you receive a level of stress relief from this email as this has been therapeutic for me to write and I hope it has been therapeutic for you to read. I look forward to seeing you in Cincinnati, OH quite soon and believe that we can offer you services in our Republican oriented city that you would not find anywhere else.

Good day Miss Palin and thank you for making our wonderful country that much more enjoyable with your presence.

with sincerity,

Nicholas Anthony Nicholas Lawson the First aka The Poets Lawyer It

Dear Steve Wozniak,

Did it all turn out the way you thought it would? From your garage there was some tinkering done and you developed the first Apple computer. At the time I imagine it was a novel invention but did you imagine that it would turn into this? Did you ever think you would achieve your goal of a computer on every desktop? I understand that at the time you were just looking at the computer as a box that people wanted but what were the philosophical questions like surrounding the computer? Do you feel like the computer truly changed our lives for the better? I know children that are being born today that will never know a world that does not have a computer in it , to them it will have always existed.

Steve, you changed the world in ways that you cannot possibly fathom. Do you feel like it was meant to be? Do you feel like what you did improved the world? You basically created a new path for the evolution of the human form to take. We will never know what it was like before you created the computer in our hometowns. You toppled an institution and to me from my perspective I think that things got and are out of control. I personally don’t feel like there should be a business that takes the most powerful computational device known to the history of mankind and sells it like a vacuum cleaner. I think your company should have done more testing over longer periods of time to study how that computer would be used in our lives and I think you should have looked at the work you were doing and wondered if it was worth the effort.

Now that it is here Steve and we have reached CS5 … I think your company should begin delving into the television industry in some fashion. I think you should start telling us what you created and how to use it effectively. Honestly the complete lack of television infrastructure into the world of the computer is astounding to me. Where are our television showcases that inform us how to use Adobe Photoshop? Where are our television shows that tell us how to use the internet? Where are our television programs that tells us what the computer symbolizes? I don’t think it is taken seriously enough and it seems as though you have not done enough to educate your patrons as to just what they are purchasing. Me personally, I have spent thousands of hours reading internet based web content that is connected to your computers and I have calculated that I have easily pressed somewhere in the neighbor-hood of five million keystrokes and roughly one million mouse clicks. I have been heavily vested in this machine from an early age never quite realizing what it is or what it is capable of. It is new the way that radiation is new and the way that light is new.

You could have been writers, you could have been painters, you could have been actors, you could have been journalists, you could have been photographers, you could have been professors, you could have been supervisors but no … you were computer scientists and I don’t think you were conducting quite enough experiments. When will the computer be finished? I just want to know, is this computer going to be worked on for the next several decades? Is it going to keep becoming more and more and more powerful? Is that the goal to place as many high powered processors in the hands of people as possible? You have your new iPad and now you are coming out with the iPad 2 and I saw your new application download component that is with your iTunes 10.

Now any families that were in the newspaper industry are looking for work. bookstores are closing down, video rental stores are closing down, the music industry is no longer an industry, the film industry is dramatically changing , all of it is in direct relation to your computer. Do you ever think about the fact that for another several millennia we would have been content drawing, painting, writing, and making films and would never have needed the computer? What about those video games? They started off innocently enough as arcade halls where kids could gather and play and then you made the processors faster and now kids just sit at home playing this game that they think has existed forever never considering the fact that there was a time when playing outside under twilight was the birth place for dreams. You gave us something while you took something away. You told us to think different and now we do think different and we will never be able to think the same again.

I am lucky , I have child hood memories of playing in the street and throwing a frisbee and maybe in my free time I will hire a programmer to come along and create an application on the iPad 15 that lets kids play catch with their iPhone. It just seems to me that you created so much change in so little time that sometimes I just look around and wonder where I am. I think about my dreams as a child and how because of the work you did those dreams no longer apply and might as well just be thrown out with all of the other memories that I used to have about the future.

I am worried about our children and not because of the fact that their lives may be skewed from a piece of technology that reaped in many many many billions of dollars of capitalistic revenue. I am worried about our children because they live in a universe that you created that you will never understand. You lived with the computer for maybe half of your life and during that time you were building it and thinking of what it can do, kids today will be living with the computer for 100 % of their lives and on top of that they live in an internet connected world that you never grew up in. Can you name any traditions or cultural institutions that these children can learn from?

I worry that you still believe your values have value in a world where children are being given a very different world to live in than the one you did. Before the computer when life was literally and I cannot stress this enough … quite simple … the older you became the more valuable you became through hard work and you could pass on your traditions to your children who would pass on their traditions to their children and on and on and this worked just fine until the computer. Now there is a generation of children that has to move in a completely different direction. We are just looking at you at this point wondering what you did to us and our lives. I read every day about how we have to basically rebuild our social constructs.

Some of us take this all very seriously and I just think to myself that had I never encountered the computer I could be tapping away in an analog world where everything made sense and instead now I have more questions than answers and I believe it will always be like that but thanks to google … well I can find the answers to all of my questions in a couple of keystrokes. I want for nothing. There is a not a piece of food that I cannot have, there is not a piece of clothing I cannot wear, there is not a bit of information that I cannot find and there is not a place in the world I cannot go and all of this is thanks to you. You have taken the mystery out of my life. I understand every aspect of basically every corner of the world and can explain to you the essence of every political, educational, and entertainment institution.

At this point all I now how to do is replicate and in my career I am going to build a new political institution, a new educational institution and a new entertainment institution because I am thirty and I represent every single person who is younger than me and the older I get the less of you there will be and the more of them there will be. They need to be represented and before they get to the point that I am at there needs to be new ceremonies created, new dogmas created, and new traditions created and I know how to go about doing this. I understand how to heal this and bring us back to a potent state of homeostasis. It is going to take the rest of my life but by the time I am finished every generation after the work that I have done is going to look at earth as though it is a natural playground filled with wonder and amazement.

You might wonder how this could possibly be possible and I will tell you, it simply has to do with the language. At this point words are our most valuable asset. Simply put we are starting with words and it might surprise you to know that from my vantage point I can see into your mind. I have been staring at your thoughts for fteen years. I have been staring at this internet and searching and searching and searching and it dawned on me not to long ago that every moment in the history of mankind has been for the purposes of creating sentences for us to use to speak with and about after the fact.

We live to talk about what we did in the moment prior to the moment we are experiencing now. That is it and that is all that this is. We do to talk about what we did. If we did something good we will have some-thing good to talk about and if we did something bad we will have something bad to talk about. What do you think you are talking about? Are you talking about something good or something bad right now? I also know this much … we get to spend the next ten thousand years at the very least … filling these machine with content. Think about every single computer that comes off of your assembly lines, they are worth-less. Literally you spent billions of man hours building something that is inherently worthless. You have created a content management system and here is the thing. No matter how many billions of man hours you spend creating your machine it still only serves the purpose of being a conduit for the arts and information sciences.

I mean you computer scientists and programmers you talk about variables as though they are the last thing you should be worried about, well I am an artist, the variable is the first thing we think about. Buying a computer should not be as simple as walking into a Best Buy and handing a guy that was hired last week $500 and taking home a ridiculously powerful machine that is only going to be used to go online and look at ‘youtube’. That’s it, that is all the potential you see when you see those computers? When you purchase a computer today first you should have to set up an appointment with a computer specialist who is there to determine if you deserve one of these machines that you will be getting for free. We are not selling them anymore. No that is not how this is going to work. Our generation has a different definition for money and that definition is time. If I spend time talking to you and working with you I am engaging in business with you. That being said and considering that there is literally no money left for us to spend we have to transform our society from the internet up and we have to pull ourselves up by our websites or something like that.

No tomorrow if you want a computer you have to schedule an appoint¬ment with a specialist who will be checking any and all cre-dentials to gauge whether or not you deserve a computer and access to the internet. If you are found to be the type of person that deserves access to all of the information that has been created since the dawn of time, consider yourself lucky. Your computer will be delivered to your home and a team of specialists will come in your home and with your computer you will receive a digital camera, a digital video camera, a complete suite of software, and a high level fiber optic connection to the internet.

Following this we will sit down at your dining room table and someone will go and make some coffee and we are just going to sit and talk. At this point you have been welcomed into the future and we are going to at length discuss the computer and the internet and we are going talk about what you plan on doing with this computer. We have a vested interest in this moment because we are going to be keeping track of how many Mac Pro’s exist in any given community as that is for now going to be our main metric unit for assessing the property values of a given community to begin with. A community will be given a potential metric that is basically a number that symbolizes how many mac pros are within twenty five miles of city hall. Then with that number we are going to estimate how much content should be being created at a given rate and this number will help us determine property values. If you live in a productive community you live in a wealthy community and if you live in a complacent community you will be living in a community that may be functional but will not be considered wealthy.

We will not be selling the machines, no we will be purchasing the content created on these machines and then reselling it in the form of entertainment. Content is the new currency. A dollar bill is a piece of art. A coin is a piece of art. A check is a piece of art. A credit card is a piece of art. We are actually all going to become art dealers. I take a computer and I infinitely upgrade its value by filling it with my several thousand pages of original writing. I just have to write and survive and hopefully in the process I can help to make your lives easier by applying the thoughts that I have been think¬ing on your behalf.

The creation of art is what generates wealth. All of the people that reside at the margins of society, your singers, your writers, your pho-tographers, your comedians, your poets, your authors, your journalists, your painters, your dancers, and your musicians. These are all of the people that bring value to your community. Everyone else works to bring about an environment where these people can work and produce the kind of content that the entire universe can be proud of and revel in. Your storytellers are the most valuable people in existence and right now is the greatest time to be an artist since the dawn of mankind and I will tell you why.

Prior to computers artists had a finite amount of space to work with. We had sheets of paper that would run out, we had ink that would run out, we had painting supplies that would run out, we had concerts that would end, and we had fim that would be used up. Well because of all of the work that you have done these same people that used to be limited by their mediums are now experiencing a state where they have infinite amounts of sheets of paper, infinite amounts of photographic memory, infinite amounts of time and people who want to listen to their music, and a limitless palette of color. You literally are selling billions of gigabytes of empty memory and the only way we are going to enact value out of these worthless machines is by placing content within them and then selling the units once they have been filled with content. Basically the future of the computer is one that has no applications on it , the future of computing is a machine that is already filled with all of the information that humanity has to offer and then if you would like you can explore to your hearts content. You exist , you exist now, and so you deserve it.

I would like to point out that none of us had anything to do with this and we as a generation are just starting to become powerful enough to make our voices heard. Remember you created us, we did not create you. You created this, we only have been using it. For a long time it is apparent that your lust for financial information has blinded you from the fact that in your wake you have created a new natural environment. We exist in this natural environment and we cannot even learn from your stories about how you made it in the world. Do you know how many ridiculously competent and brilliant people I know that are struggling to survive? Do you know how embarrassing this is for us that are trying to start families and live lives of substance and are thirty years old with multiple college degrees and friends of people who have college degrees and simply cannot have enough money to use to even do business with. We know the money is worthless we watch the news but in your world we cannot even barter with our local shoe salesmen and cut deals that would make our lives easier no we have to use your useless currency and its maddening.

I read about the colleges that you have created and I in fact actually graduated from college this last june. I accumulated 315 credit hours of university time. That amounts to roughly 105 three month classes. I literally took 105 classes that each lasted three months each. Each credit hour of class I took accounted for one hour a week for three months. That means that I spent 315 hours of my time multiplied by twelve weeks which amounts to roughly 4000 hours of time spent in the classroom alone. That is not counting time spent on homework or the three years I spent in digital design school being told that what I was learning would be useless in five years and taking classes that were weighted half of their credit value because they were studio times and this doesn’t count the countless conversations and the countless pages of free form writing that i created nor the times i spent in different countries nor the times i spent performing as a poet.

I am the pinnacle of education and have an absolute mastery over the english language at a time when newspapers are failing, magazines are failing but the computer is doing great and everyone seems to be fine and happy just so long as apple keeps coming out with new products. YAY ITS THE IPAD 2 and now five thousand writers are out of a job.

What do you think you were building? Do you know how fucking difficult it is to think of something new to build, its all been fucking built? What the fuck do you want us to? What the fuck would you like our children to do? You mother fuckers went and built it all and sold all for essentially nothing. Do you remember moores law that little fuck-wad? Yeah you know how computer processing power is supposed to double every fucking year and half and the price is supposed to stay the same? Yeah well that is what happened but guess what , that little moores law flies right in the face of every economic principle ever created since the dawn of mankind. Do you know how it was supposed to work? The first computer should have cost a dollar. The second computer should have cost two dollars. The third computer should have cost three dollars and on and on and on. Really Moores Law, who the fuck came up with that? If a new computer is more useful than an old computer then why they hell shouldn’t it be priced as such and if we reach a point where the computers are not moving like hot cakes … mother fucking good because that means we have reached a saturation point and maybe we need to fucking spend some time using the old computers and fiure out what the hell we want them to do before we start working on the next generation of computers. I am not saying that Moore’s Law did more damage than the concentration camps in dachau but I am saying that moores law completely and irrevocably destroyed your economic system. Now we have to build a new one.

How much is a single photograph worth? Well A photograph is worth more than NO photograph so even on a small scale A photograph has value. A hundred photos has at least one hundred times the value of a photograph and a thousand photographs has ten times the value of one hundred photographs, no? A single minute of youtube video is worth 1/10 the amount of value of 10 minutes of youtube time. I am just saying we are doing our part and we are creating the content and we are creating the value on your machines but your credit unions cannot issue federal backed currency fast enough to keep up with the amount of art that has been created.

i am so tired. i just walk around so angry most of the time that i feel a slight bit of euphoria. i just stare at all of this and i eat my food from the free store food bank and i live in my apartment with my roomate hakiym and his wife surriah and their children yahweh and mes¬siah.

i perform poetry in the hopes that a talent agent will see me and sign me to a record deal like they used to make movies about in almost famous. i’ve been to new york city and then i realize that their artists have an unfair advantage over our artists here in cincinnati because new york city in all its splendor has complete control over the airwaves so even though i have performed at several hundred shows here in cincinnati i cannot earn a living doing what i love because i have to compete with some no name hacks from a city that doesn’t give two shits about my own and i drive around and listen to them wish upon an airplane or sing about lemonade or whatever else the fuck they are say¬ing to get on their radio. then i turn on the television and i am staring at some idiots from paradise inter¬viewing their local residents and laughing about how blatantly stupid everyone around them is and then the host from what i understand has a garage that is lled with like 150 cars that he purchased himself all because he took some time to share some laughs and make fun of some people while a fucking camera focused on him.

all i am saying is that you are killing us here in cincinnati. you are fucking killing us. we have nothing and the little that we do have you take from us by plastering your artists all over our airwaves and you don’t come here. why isn’t there a rule or a law that if you are going to send your cd and if you are going to send your music over the airwaves that you have to fucking come and perform and meet the people that are supporting you and if by some utter chance you can’t get to every city that you sell your cd or mp3 or wave le then guess what you don’t get to siphon money o of our system and away from our artists. peep this, we have the technology right now to create the effect where when an artist comes to our town we can place their music on our airwaves then since it would be kind of special to listen to the music from an artist when he is in town but this bullshit about playing some godamned mating call when there is no chance of a mating occurring then fuck that.

i know plenty of talented musicians that are radio ready but you know the fuck happens when we approach the radio stations in our own fucking city, they tell us that it doesn’t work like that and that i need to go to new york city to get a fucking record deal with a man that does not have my best interests at heart and then i have to come back to cincinnati and maybe my music will hit the airwaves when i know perfectly well that all that it should take is that i hand my cd to a disc jockey and tell him that i have a show this upcoming week and he should be like bet and it should hit the radio and if my friends like it , it stays on the radio and if they don’t it doesn’t get played and that about it.

i hate you people so fucking much for putting us through this. i hate your capitalism. i hate the fact that you spent 18 years of my life teach-ing me what negative numbers are so that by the time i graduated from college i would be smart enough to realize that not only do i have nothing but i have this ridiculous concept of less than nothing. hey here is an idea you know there is no money and i know there is no money so why don’t we quit acting like i am going to come up with 100,000 dollars any¬time soon. if i did have 100,000 you know what i would do? i would start a fucking on profit bank and you know what the purpose of that bank would be? it would be to dole out that 100,000 to everyone in my community as slowly as possible so that maybe some of the artists that i know could get a fucking bite to eat after performing for fifty people when no one has enough money to pay at the door. bitch we do this for free be¬cause we love to do it and all you we have to listen to on the radio is some bullshit about how CASH RULES EVERYTHING AROUND ME … MOTHER FUCKER THAT MAY BE TRUE IN NEW YORK CITY but in CINCINNATI its all about DREAMS … motherfucker here DREAMS RULE EVERYTHING AROUND ME. I am sorry. I am being crass but I am boiling right now just thinking about your city and the way your city markets itself and just sucks up all of the money in the universe and doesn’t do shit for anyone else. you put on a show and that’s it. if you want to eat you need our food. what the fuck does new york city do that is so fucking important? i would like to know because regis philbin looks like he is comfortable and all he does is laugh. You had howard stern who threw bologna at woman’s asses. you have the magazine industry that picks a woman out of the crowd and just photographs her and her friends and that’s about it.

who the fuck are you people and why the fuck are you on my television and my radio and what gives you the right to think you are anything more than just a fucking television show in your own fucking city? do you know how fucking valuable our airwaves would be to us if we fucking had access to them , but we don’t because you cut deals with everyone in our city and now we talk about prada and gucci when guess what we have just as valuable garments here.

its a facade i get it. well i can see through the facade and i would rather stay in my own city and build something that we can be proud of than emigrate to a place where god knows what would happen to me. i am comfortable here i have my friends here and my family here and i would like to have a small apartment of my own somewhere that i consider to be nice and i would like to make the kind of art that would speak to the people that surround me and live in the kind of world where people know that i helped build something even if it was after everything had already been built. i wanted to build something and so that is what i am trying to do.

Yeah. I guess I will stop here. If you want to reach out and arrest me for writing this you can call the cincinnati police department and give me the nelson mandela. i work at media bridges a community television station. you can call me at 513 312 5204.

Letter to the Anderson Institute Dear Time Travel Enthusiasts,

I am not really a scientist but I am however a poet. I am very sensitive to the language that I speak and that I write and I would like to offer the following observations that I have made in regards to my readings on the theory of the multiverse as well as my readings about the work of Peter Lynds and my own thoughts on the nature of time that you may be interested in. I would be very interested in an email exchange of some sort with someone who is an expert on time theory and I would especially enjoy a telephone conversation at some point so that I could listen to how you discuss time and the inflections that are made in the voice when discussing the topic.

My main observation that I would like to see explored in the wake of all discussion of time travel and time control and time theory to me are the end effects that this technology would have on the language of the people engaging in such travel. Prior to the exploration of time information was to be discussed and relayed from person to person and from person to computer in a purely narrative style that involved the disseminating of information in a linear fashion. What I would like to point out is that for a person or a group of people who are experiencing time travel or that have traveled through time, their individual concepts of reality and their individual concepts of how they relay information will be fundamentally different.

How would you explain to someone that yes you exist now and that you were born after this moment first occurred according to my timeline? How would you share the knowledge that you have inside of you with an individual who has never experienced or contemplated time travel? I am curious as to how you would consider the changes that would occur to the english language in the wake of the discovery of time travel? It is a very interesting concept to me as a poet because I would be interested in the ideas and the poetry that would be created post time travel? What would the syntax look like, sound like, feel like when discussing it? It is an amazing concept for me to consider as timelines would involve a need for a new vocabulary that would en-compass all of the new situations and concepts that would arise in a post time travel world. We would need new entirely new words that enmesh the ideas of before and after and present as there would be moments that would couple the future with the present and the past with the present and the past with the future that does not involve the present. Normally the past comes before the present which comes before the future but in a post time travel world the future could come before the present which would come before the past for an individual that was traveling through time.

How would one communicate with the people that need to be communicated with in a post time travel world? How would one describe their experiences, create artwork, make music, or craft narratives and con-duct business if one is experiencing a post time travel world? How does finance work in a post time travel world because if time is money and money is time and i am born with nothing but then i encounter time travel and travel to a point where i have money and then can i send myself a check from me to me from when I am successful to when I am searching for success? How would finance work in a world that is post time travel?

I believe that these are all thoughts that need to be thought of because the work of time travel is being invested in now such as at the anderson institute and i would like to point out that the wright brothers developed the early technology with which to fly only one hundred years ago and now we have airports all around the world that are tremendously powerful.

I would imagine that one hundred years from now the work that you are doing now is going to be multiplied and entered into the main-stream society in ways that no one can imagine as of now. You invest one hundred years of man power and imagination into time control and you are going to have a very interesting situation on your hands as people are going to be traveling through time as though it were commonplace and there will come a time when the novelty will wear off and some people will essentially be going to work as time travelers and engaging in the work of the time traveler. How do you feel about this? I can understand the concepts of the time traveler from a simple concept that I happened across, the egyptians built the hieroglyphics several thousand years ago and we can see their work now. Essentially the work they did then was instantaneously transmitted to the future which would be in our timeline. That being written I would like to point out that we now have the internet and this contraption is going to be viewable in the future the way the hieroglyphics are viewable now. I wonder how you feel about this? Does it ever occur to you that the work that is done today is instantaneously viewable in the future and that with the help of the GPS systems that we are developing and with the help of the computational items that we are surrounding ourselves with that we are essentially providing the future with all of the knowledge that they would need to be able to interact with the past in most accurate fashion. They would have the timing codes for all major events and would also have the coordinates to know exactly where to emerge and interact and then leave with no interaction with the present time period. They would also have the internet that would enable them to deliver messages inherently anonymously that could quite heavily redirect our path of existence. I would imagine that our future versions of ourselves are very interested in the well being of the past because the higher the quality of life we experience for ourselves and create for others now will determine how high the quality of life will be for the future and their future selves.

The further back in time the future can improve the past the better of the future of the future will be, no? I bring this up because I would imagine that this time period would be of great great great interest to the far future as they might understand that this would be the time period where the most oil was being burned at the highest rates in the history of recorded human history and it might be interesting to point out that the fuel that we are burning today to spend time with grandma at easter might be the same fuel that is needed to , i don’t know, power a massive endeavor to travel to the stars or develop some important form of medication or possibly to even develop a new material that may be necessary for the computing products of the future that would be inherently necessary for discussing the past with the present. I am just saying, the present definitely affects the future and we as a society are currently engaged in behavior that could to some people be considered harmful to the future of our future and in that future they may be extremely angry at the work that is being done at the present moment by the forces that are currently in power presently.

It would make sense that a life spent experiencing an infinite loop of existence may be perpetually working to improve its core inherent experience, whatever that may mean. For instance it would make sense that a futuristic survival instinct may derive itself from the ideas that once one has accepted that self preservation is no longer an issue and that self preservation has been achieved that from that point forward self perfection may be enacted and as one begins to perfect oneself lifetime over lifetime over lifetime moment after moment after moment that certain levels of achievement may be possible as certain lifetimes and certain situations could arise that were never intended to occur and that from which certain breakthroughs of ones consciousness and ones ability to interact with the outer world could be created.

I write this because I am fascinated with the idea of time travel control manipulation and I wonder to myself that if one is successful at time control that one would at some point reach a point where all that one would be able to do is pass thoughts from oneself to oneself from oneself and that the you that exists in the future is intrinsically connected to the you that exists in the present and that the more energy you exert in any given moment will be remembered by your future self and will provide for an inspiration loop that would with success funnel itself back to itself at a point in the past to be repeated in an ever expanding ability to continually experience higher and higher levels of energy and inspiration which could then be generated and dissipated through artwork or even more importantly shared with the surrounding community of people so that the energy that one is feeling or experiencing could then be passed through to other people and aha moments could be shared and more and other people could then begin the process of self correction for the purposes of self energy acquisitional responses.

it could most definitely be believed that all of this would be possible from pondering the basic principle that what you create now is observable by the future immediately and the more you create the more the future has to work with and the more the future has to work with the more energy the future would have to work with and i believe that this is a very important issue to consider when discussing finite resources and that capitalism may have been an important course of economic discovery to chart up to the creation of the computer , internet, gps , automobile quadrati however now that we have reached a point where we can disseminate information from any point in our earthly existence to any other point in our earthly existence it stands to reason that much much much much of the burning of the fossil fuels that we have access to at this point can be dramatically slowed down to only the most essential oil consumption possible and I say this with all of the humbleness of a man who has spent a lifetime contemplating the ideas that exist within the movies Back to the Future and Slaughterhouse 5 and the Time Traveler’s Wife.

It could surely stand to reason that within our subconscious tendencies there exists a need to understand the inherent ability of one to interact with time a concept that Peter Lynds believes is inherently flawed and non existent. This is an interesting concept in and of itself that there is a singular moment that we interact with in which there is no time to speak of. This idea could be tested in that we could retract all time measuring items and observe how we would exist minus the watches, clocks, and timers that we surround ourselves with daily. Would we be able to exist without measuring time as Peter Lynds supposes that there is no time? What would be left if we deleted the calendars, watches, and clocks and left the study of time to be left to the computers themselves because unlike organic creatures they inherently base their entire existence on the acceptance and they inherently understand time in a way that humans possibly do not.

I believe that the conversations that I am a part of now will only in-crease in their ability to experience energy and that the conversations that I am holding and the energy that I am sharing with those around me will one day be the type of energy that we will all be capable of sharing with each other in that we are currently experiencing an interaction with information and energy that is not in line with what we would naturally be more happy to experience. For insurance this language and this technology does not serve to improve the human condition, it might serve to improve the computer’s condition but not our own, humans are emotional feeling beings who naturally interact with infromation and existence without the need for time and now that we are to a point where we will be capable of traveling through time, we should ask ourselves what does that exactly mean?

How can you travel through something that does not inherently exist?

Who is fooling who would be a question that I would like to pose in terms of the idea that when you ask me to be somewhere on time you are essentially controlling my existence in a way that you were never meant to do. It would seem that the human condition is resilient enough to weather the storms of countless millennia of obstacles and we still exist and still create and still perform and still interact and still breathe and still pump the blood of the cosmos through our veins and arteries and in spite of plagues and wars and famines and locusts and droughts we still persevere and have now reached a point where we have essentially gained complete control over our existence and nature in the western rst world.

We have reached a point where we collectively want for nothing other than to perfect our interactions with each other and at this point it could be deemed that we have breached an apex point of great importance where the ideas of the end of existence have obviously been overstated and that what we are experiencing now will be the foundation for all experiences leading up to the moments when we collectively begin to explore the cosmos en mass in massive spaceships whose purpose is to travel to the far reaches of the galaxy and interact with whatever we should nd in other spaces in other galaxies. At some point some of those travelers would create situations similar to what we are experienceing here on earth now and at those moments those people that left earth at some point in the future may wish to return to the points in their existence that they cherished the most in order to redirect the energy that they found in other existences back to the moments when it would have done the most good to the most people for the most moments in time.

It could very easily be a cyclical exploration of the amounts of energy that we would seek to have access to with the knowledge that the more energy that we would have access to the more good that we could collectively do to and for each other. Would we be able to send the music from the future to the past as a form of energy that would inform them about how to improve their lives and their culture? Would we be able to send writing back to the past the way we can send it into the future by writing it down on sheets of paper?

The way the language of the english language evolved from the time of 72

Shakespeare to now would be a good indicator that the language that we speak now will evolve heavily in roughly five hundred years time as the words we speak now will not be the words we will speak then and so the question arises what would be a language that could be spoken that would exist both outside of time and outside of culture in such a way that we could all be able to communicate effectively no matter what time period or energy level we were experiencing ola o taya nomay sentia solatiama enteo namaste denu tellia nom atlastia and then we could transform our thought patterns and cleanse our thoughts through the languages that we would speak at dierent time periods in our human form’s existence.

How does all of this affect what you are doing with your work now? I would say that the existence of this email is evidence enough that you are successful in your endeavors and that through the careful introspection of poets like myself and the inspiration that we can provide to your work and that your work can provide to ourselves that we can quite earnestly deliver messages through each other’s work that would be imperative to each other’s work.

I would like to point out that there are currently a large number of items that describe this time period currently floating safely in space, at some point into the future there will be archaeologists who will mine the artifacts in space for their relevance. A large number of these items will be earmarked with information that leads these people who are searching for knowledge into space into the work that is currently and has been being done in the last century. I can imagine this would be a time period that would be of great importance to the future because this was when we survived the apocalypse Armageddon end of the world battle for survival attempt to commit global suicide that was the world wars and maybe there are not many realities where the course of events went the way that they did, how many universes exist where the bombs on hiroshima and nagasaki did not detonate, we ex¬ist in a time period where both bombs were detonated successfully and as such the wars came to a close and we still exist and there are other generations that are being created that are going to exist further into the future than ourselves and they are going to create generations that are going to exist into the future further than themselves and all of these people that are existing from this point on are going to have expert knowledge of the work that you have been doing and will be doing for the rest of your careers.

I would just like to point this out to you as as a poet the syntaxes that i appreciate the lines of logic that i interact with as a poet in search of the perfect sentences is akin to the effort that you place into studying the causes and effects of time on reality. What are we to think of a computer that is constantly capturing and cataloging the events and the days and the time and the events of every moment and from this point on and from many points before this we have been interacting with the future in that they know expertly about all of the time that exists post internet ubiquity and even before then through our writings and our newspapers and the such so the future even has knowledge of what happened leading up to the web that has been spun for us and here we are exploring the confines of reality deactivating landmines while we mind our minds and realize the sights that we behold are more beautiful than spun gold and so we grow old with the knowledge that we will be forever young and still we work on your machines and explore your ideas to the depths of your decisions.

I implore you to begin making your work known and begin discussing the inspirations that have within yourselves because honestly the work that we are doing is about communicating with people who existed generations before us and will exist generations after us in an effort to improve the quality of life as much as possible in all directions for the purposes of experiencing higher and ever increasing levels of energy that we can then share and impart into our artwork as we experience the sensations that our language was meant for us to experience.

I will leave you with this and hope that we can discuss our viewpoints at some point because honestly I am extremely fascinated with your work and would like to discuss with you the ramifications of the ideas that you are germinating now and about how we can best ensure that the work that you do benefits the most people in the highest forms possible.

if you have read this far thank you kindly and I look forward to hearing from you soon. I’ll buy dinner at a lovely restaurant i know of here in cincinnati oh.

with sincerity,

Nicholas Lawson 513 312 5204

that fill your belly poem

All just within reach.
Walk to the store and see the selection Which combination shall you choose?
You have a whole assortment of goods to choose from So be glad that you are in the U S of A where everything you need is just minutes away and today just like before
I will reach for the fridge and open the door,
Pull the Mayostard and Soy Sauce out
and begin the process of a taste sensation.
My tongue cries out for flavor!
My stomach cries out to be full!
I am at the mercy of this devourful being that I call me as I prepare another meal
I wonder how the food chain feels about refrigerators
that family dog poem Little Cookie, brothers dog
love the food, with mouth and paw stares you down and wonders why you don’t reach down and dignify his aching stare , his pounding belly
his wagging tongue, and dutiful patience. Little Cookie, the wonder dog.
I ask who loves food? …and you raise a paw.

that embrace the binary poem

There comes a time in every man’s life when there are buttons to be pushed.

There comes a time when a man must move beyond the analog world and embrace all that is digital and Through careful plucking of digital strings informative symphonies must be crafted that will leave legacies on hard drives and will enable combinations of binaries to represent combinations of neurons while I feel like i’m being graded on my manipulation of energy so why don’t I manipulate some today and craft the images that will make the professors say “You passed.”

that neuronaut poem

I’m exploring the language like a neuronaut finding words and tossing them around looking for which ones rhyme and have a solid sound. What’s the newest linguistic flavor? I step back and react to an exact phrase while I sit back and enact a moment and soak up the suns rays … Vocal chords making noise while we’re surrounded with sounds frequencies of energy are affecting us now combinations of syllables bringing us around the one million word mark, or mapped out meaningful frequencies. What does a compression wave really mean? Sonic energy surrounding me every single which way, you make noise and I make noise but just make sure that everything you say sounds familiar and I don’t know why randomly speaking in tones, makes cerebral cortexes come undone? So let’s add some confusion that you’ll need me to unconfuse

“Yo dolla fome day, ent yomma so wah, olla folla doni ah!”

and the congregation stood up to applaud because they follow the men with the message who work hard enough to get you to listen refining the syllables that leave your throat makes you hard to ignore when you’re building the boat that saves souls and symphonies and makes it easy for people to believe that no matter what the universe does today… tomorrow is going to be okay. Time to get ready to do it all again and if you’ve read this far

I consider you a friend.

that recovering psychotics poem

For the recovering psychotics!

For anyone that ever saw the inside of the padded rooms! I’m sorry! I’m so sorry! It wasn’t supposed to be like this! Maybe it wasn’t supposed to be special but it wasn’t supposed to be so finite. We were never meant to be schizophrenic or bipolar or ocd or add or autistic. I’m sorry I’ve experienced too much reality to subscribe to your fantasies. You weren’t there and you sure as hell didn’t see what we saw behind our eyes. You didn’t see what any of us saw behind our eyes! You saw the after school special version of reality and we saw the theatrical release rated R. My screen opened up and left me reeling deep down in the depths of my cerebellum where moths are lost searching glimpses of sunshine there is a small heart shaped box enclosed with a heart shaped lock. Inside that box is all of the love that I have to offer this world most likely it will never be open again but I am trying and every time that box opens …

My world closes and firecrackers go off behind my eyes because my love runs deep like sycamore trees and is capable of nourishing a planet if saturated with care. I know the key is locked up inside the mind of my match … my mate…

who i am searching for with the diligence a poet should because it’s as real as a galaxy to me and I want to orbit your cosmos so that we can build starlight and awaken on the equinox holding each others hands blending our realities into something awesome.

that bill hicks poem

I can feel the inspiration flood my temples and then I jump to the keyboard to unload my mental flu that is caused by the effect of all of you, the drugs you’ve given me your tongues and your hues. In order to break free i have to stop caring about all of you. I have to write for me and say what I need to say, maybe this will kill you and our friendship and our love but I’ll be able to say that I spoke from my heart.


I’ve tried for so long to speak from yours so that you’d be happy with what you saw but when I read my writing it’s beautiful as beautiful as my very own broken jaw. You’re angry with your revolution because you don’t have the money you’ll say its over when you’re on top and when your laws are in place and when they’re your cops. You’ll be happy when the revolution is over. I will be happy because that will be the day when no one dies. The revolution I see and the one you see are the very same revolution but were revolving we are E VOLVING a type of electronic emergence that has us spinning around these computers and laughing at their digits.

We’re so in love with numbers that we’re losing ourselves, we’re deriving power from numbers and we’re like machines hellbent on seeing the most massive one manifested in front of ourselves, as if quantity ever meant anything in terms of culture? Where culture is always concerned with quality but quality is just quantity of time spent working on something and we’re all looking for magic in the mysteries that surround us and I swear to god I’ll be a poet for certain and I’ll reap the magic that comes from my words I’ll count on you to count on me and we’ll rework this mystery so that the mystery is easy to believe and hard to forget and we’ll make all the women wet. They’ll search for the asian lotus and we’ll powder our facets with chalk and we’ll chisel our abs with running and we’ll worship the six pack and we’ll sing the songs of melody because the silence truly scares us because then we’ll only be able to stare at the night and wonder when that next asteroid or messiah is going to come and from our hearts the world will see that we’re going to write the world a new gospel a set of answers that will guide the children into new days and new ways and we’ll all be pagan someday.

We’ll be pagan as were paging through millions of words that are coming from millions of birds flying through society like they want to be free but really all this writing isn’t meant for me it’s my attempt to reach out to the great deity as this is my offering this is my stench this is the aroma that my mind permeates the ether with and I’ll make the question unique so that I can rearrange your temple and the thoughts that rest just beneath it because when i ask you a question i am asking you to think and one of my questions is going to push you to the brink these are the weapons I use and while you’re teaching children with your blues clues you’re teaching us with your amber waves of grain that are piling up in silos that are filled with as many missiles as grains of rice in asia that you’re waiting to destroy with your manipulative language rearranging station better known as the PC the personal computer because we need personal computing so that we can run the numbers and see that your still lying to us and your bibles are still making us die and your religions are still making witches fry and you’re not even worried about what’s behind the poets eyes because we’ve got a grasp of the language that you can’t comprehend with your military madness that has us going spastic.

I just want to let you know that your way of life is on death row and were bringing aquarius in tow and jupiter and zeus and saturn and cupid and were bringing bows and arrows and sparrows that are going to spare you and then are going to be eaten by the hawk because the mercy you show for the weak is the mercy we will show for you you damage our brothers to the east and we’ll damage your culture in the west and then we’ll come running for your brides and your women and we’ll amaze them with our incantations and I know this is the lesson I’ve learned look at my poetry and then look at them I’m one of them but I can see the evil that rests inside of me I’m one of their clones and im aging and dying and leaving behind a morning glory story that even causes Copernicus to worry and Galileo who looked and saw with his very own eye the sensations that brought him in line with the salvation story we were all going to recite next morning glory where we live for the sunshine and spread our breath over existence because there comes a time when we all speak from the heart some of just happen to do it for a living.

that shadowless suns poem

They create no shadows because they are called suns, places where light congregates and salivates on its own origins. The future home of our souls when the closest star to our land expands and engulfs our planet there will be no escaping our emergence to cosmic sands. We will one day be whisked away As the sun expands it’s command of the universe And decides to speak it’s language to the other stars as we are our sun’s experiment. We are the plaything of the moon We are being observed by the rocks radiating outwards, so we must look inwards to find our source of energy. There is no shadow outside the sun and there is no sun inside our minds Brains canvasing around this energetic existence while breathing the breath of circumstance. By chance do you happen to have a dollar? Because the stars are asking for some change and I don’t want to be the one to tell them to go away for they shine so bright. So can you spare some change so that we can live another day Because they are looking for charity and if you don’t have any They we’ll whisk you away to the furnaces of hades. Had you just opened your heart a little bit more you might have felt the love explore your veins And your arteries would have been filled like galleries With dynasties breathing with energy onto menageries And you won’t believe me but I saw Neptune surfng the web and he clicked on your profile And called you up so that he could reprogram your mind He wanted you to worship the water and all you did Was piss in the place where he called home And now your time is up and a God is coming for you With a storm behind his eyes!3

that pioneer poem

Writing to me is like an exercise in exploration.

Its like an expedition into my the recesses of the wilderness that’s rest-ing just above my tongue.

Won’t you let me decipher you, you’re the one that’s moving me. Why do you hide secrets from me? Mental imagery driving me wild A stern demeanor refined for the college classroom

Give me some time and let me explode away from this box full of boxes Manipulating electricity for a moments joy upon seeing the end result Of thousands of mouse clicks and presses of the button And still I press on.

We’re working on the creation of information in our visual laboratories we’re working on the logic That will be reaching your cerebral cortex soon enough Through the trickle down effect , we’re creating the trick-les That will hopefully someday tickle your thalmus Where discrete chemicals reveal that you can be tweaked And we are the tweakers of the tweekies Where our thoughts become yours when we develop Ideas that are impossible to ignore.

that metonymy poem

Back to the buttons and then beyond using metonymy gives me reason to believe that I’ll pick up these words they give me and make people believe that my college degree has some value beyond the years it took to achieve the moment where societies best deem you worthy of suc-cess.

In their eyes again and again you solve the problems that they bring formulating connections and receiving lovely pattern discretion ac-cepting 5 years of rhetoric and then beginning to formulate opinion, to accept or reject the premises placed before your soul there is nothing wrong with following the rules but will following the rules allow you to discover what you really want to do and do the rules and the system take into account what’s happening in nooks and crannies that tweak me discretely And make me want to fly and meet thee.

I’ve wasted enough time and amassed enough words I want to reach out and now speak to the world.

that we that have something poem

Earth is the focal point of consciousness as we are the experts on asking questions and finding those frequencies of energy that float from our throats and embed themselves into the minds of truth seekers who go out into this world and build bridges to infinity.

Laced with the graces of troubled souls there are those of us who strive for lives of understanding as we place our eyes on the circles of time that measure the moments. There is nothing guaranteed but an ending as we should all feel like guests who were given a beginning to work with because maybe that means something and to me something is something and its better than nothing because anyone with nothing isn’t here as in they never existed!

They never were and never will be, but us, yeah the lucky us, we’re here with something and maybe some of us have something great and may-be those people just need the time the time to fathom their existence and become reminded of the fact that we all saw the stars and loved the night and this was our planet and we were here to carry on traditions while we created new epiphanies for our little ones to ponder so that we could turn on light bulbs and bask in the imagination of a generation of beautiful people who were all absorbing more than a cosmopolitan society could ever pour into a chilled glass of opportunity.

We’re all a little surprised to be here and isn’t this alphabet astounding forming the foundation for every sentence we speak As we melt our verbs into a soup tasty enough to nourish adult minds and maybe some poetry would do you some good! We all determine our own level of involvement but the deep end of the language is where the beauty lies and the ugly truth resides. We’re all here trying to surmise the origins of the sunrise and your eyes seem to be the surprise i am trying to align with and we haven’t even begun yet, and the words I’m subscribing to stem from the souls of battered beginnings because I have spent my time languishing in the psychotic sensations that come from disrup-tions in authentic patterns of thought drowned in drugs from providers with a degree and without I’ve imbibed on the chemicals of catharsis searching for a creative catapult that would send me to the ends of ex-istence where I could email the Goddess and ask her for her cell phone number.

So that I could have a direct line to the inspirational vibe that seno-rita sonnet could provide for my writing As I sat back and tap danced across a collection of letters that took millions of eons to create and were destined to defend my fingers from the dawn of time. Yeah man these fingers were meant for letters and these eyes were meant to read and its been so long since I’ve been here. I miss the ceremony of seren-dipity and the outpourings from the heart and I know you don’t know me but I wanted to share my words And thank you for your poetry because behind my eyes this is a beautiful epiphany every time I arrive and the poetry I find here is saturated with soul The kind that allows one to evolve and find better words to say and better dreams to imagine We all have our dreams and maybe for those of us searching for the right words to speak this is where you find your ceremony and from these incantations The universe unravels itself before us one line at a time and after a week of searching for meaning leaving here makes me feel just fine.

Thank you.

that drench me in god poem

Drenched in God the congregation worshipped astoundingly. The stage was staffed by the men and women whose privilege it was to sing the songs of salvation and there I was among the masses amazed at the devotion to the words in the book they were still reading. It’s a ceremony for sinners and convicted hearts alike and everyone who wants to explore a tome together.

I thought I understood so I joined the masses at mass and witnessed as hands were raised as we all approached eternity in earnestness awaiting the answer to our collective questions Was there a god awaiting us or was there only the timelessness of eternity? Resigned to my own devices I am awaiting the gorgeous darkness as those around me await the beautiful light.

I couldn’t imagine spending an eternity existing because I need my sleep. Ten years ago heaven sounded like a promise worth living for. Ten years on, it sounds like a fable believed in by deceived men who feel beautiful today. Thy kingdom come and we shall build it in your absence should you not return to lead us. This church . . . this endless entanglement with heartfelt thinking, you seem to find your myths useful and I seem to find my custom truths comforting. There is nothing between us that isn’t shared by all of us. Dreamer and activist , musician and actor, president and pauper, we all have our future to face and the truth doesn’t need our belief to exist.

What is, is, and every man woman or child who has ever expressed knowledge of the hereafter is but a beautiful breathing vestibule of wanting. Knowing the morals of the stories told for centuries my mind interprets my world and when my mind goes so does my world and me along with it. Stars are destroyed with time, galaxies are formed, trees grow, and all start from ,”I don’t know.” and return to “I guess I am.”

Wasn’t showing up on earth enough? How much more did we want than a chance to observe the stars and become engaged in the wisdoms that we can find within ourselves? We can tag along with pastors and priests all our lives but they are only leading us into their churches and teaching us to need their teachings. You never graduate from religion class you just start understanding the teacher or maybe even teaching the class if you attend long enough.

Rising through the ranks of time we stumble through ecstasy drunk on existence. Like so many dreams we’ve had before we just appear in random situations and interact with our scenarios. If your mind can conjure false worlds at night maybe our collective mind can create collective false movements one mass delusion at a time, as we observe, all that is, in a never ending chemistry experiment that started itself and now wants to know how it forgot how it began reacting at the beginning of time.

We are those beings who are compelled to find such an answer, as our most basic elements cry out for knowledge. We’re like leaves asking questions about the tree, and every winter the leaves fall but then every spring they come back again from the very same bud they fell from. No one remembers the seed or the sapling, we are what we are now and will never be what we were. Every adult should believe in their family because such basic communities are the think tanks of creators. Live for the children and prepare them for adult life.

Be acceptable and strive for amazement and surpass expectations at least once in your life. Find yourself a country prairie and sit and stare at the beginning of time in case you have never seen it. Absorb your birthplace as your elements came from those stars that are both burn-ing and cold at the same time. Billions of years ago they existed and we can see their light now but right behind the light from those stars is a vacuum and we are the caretakers of their memories.

One day all of this will dissolve and long after anyone is left to remember what was meant to be remembered we will have a universe that was a beautiful one: and it was: oh heavens it was! we made this so beautiful! We painted and wrote songs and laughed and we explored the hell out of these emotions and every possible combination of every possible moment and yes maybe we were meant to do just that if there was ever a “meant for us,” to be meant for. Some of us are fans of positive anarchy where there is no end to the good we can do because maybe the money is holding us back in a world where few know what to do without the rectangles and the circles and the numbers. Imagine a world minus the system, and maybe we can begin right there. If there ever was a revolution to be televised it would be a promotional video for hustling and going out into the world to discover what good it is that you can do for your neighbor. Right now we have our poetry and we have our wits about us and we are adults , goddamn it we were created without asking to be and here we are in the ceremony of the cypher with the blood and the hearts of the universe right here next to the breath of life that we care for in our chests. The universe needs us to be alive because the universe is lifeless without us. Like a sixteen year old poet seeking to share his work with anyone that will listen this universe is unfolding itself before us one line of writing at a time, one brush stroke at a time, one note, one observation after one conversation after one birth at a time. Each event at a time adding to the culture of collaboration that we find ourselves in and the most broken of us have the most beautiful things to say.

From the shattered pieces of souls falling apart we can recreate our destinies and beautiful states of being. They say a great story always has a beautiful conflict within it that gives the story meaning and value. We need the worst of times so that we can understand when we are experi-encing the best of times. How much more amazing are those family picnics when you can understand just how amazing those family picnics are? There was a time when the elders told the stories of how all of this came to be and maybe one day I will be one of those elders and my story of how all of this came to be would be for the purpose of teaching children to cherish women and through that respect we would respect each other and my story would go like this: : : : : :

Gather round the camp re kids and let me tell you a story about how all of this came to be…

There was a great nothingness and then the great nothing awoke and there were other nothings that awoke and then the nothings began to walk around and they became somethings and the somethings became something more and then the something mores became something greats and those greats became women and they decided to create us, all of us, every single set of eyes you have ever seen descends from these women that braved the beginnings of beginnings and fought and scraped and learned and laid the ground work for all of this and there was very little sleep and there were very brilliant dreams and then there was reality and mothers keep these truths inscribed on the backs of their hearts because women have been begetting humans since the dawn of time: There have always been women and there always will be women. We all have a woman to thank for bringing us here: from flesh to flesh we are walking amidst the mysteries that brought us here. I have never met a creature that was not created by a woman and can only surmise that women are the beings that brought all of this to flour-ish.

I can imagine you are tired ladies, because through you the work of divinity is done. What do you wish for, as I selfishly wish for more time to wish. Thank you for your integral work in bringing us all here and thank you for your heartfelt traditions of bringing us into adulthood. We wouldn’t be here without you and maybe the sacred stories should begin to reflect that. As at any time this can come to an end and what then for those that continue on after loved ones leave? What have you left behind? Where are your stories? Where are your drawings? Your photos? Your imprints on this canvas?

Somedays I dream of stone tools and pieces of granite that I can chisel my dreams into because the future only seems to remember the rocks. These fingers have tapped many letters and danced across many thoughts and now here I am, calm as a singer in a room full of record-ing equipment sharing my words. It’s a revolving world and wisdom is hidden and while I stand in that church listening to the spiritual leader speak, the music is no longer playing and my imagination has long since calmed itself down and now I am ready to begin listening again. Try as I might I have no idea what the pastor is trying to say and am happy that so many other people seem to understand. I forever feel like a stranger in whose ever house of worship I attend and no matter how beautiful the music, the words always seem to lose me as I imagine I seem lost to the writers of the words of worship. I can’t believe what you believe and must act accordingly as my soul is my heartbeat and I have one as long as it does just that … beats.

My heart has never not beat but I believe that one day such a thing may happen and I will return to the nothingness from whence I came but right now I am not experiencing nothing, I am experiencing something and am sharing what I believe the best of myself with people I believe have a love for expression here amidst the chambers of poetry. So thank you for listening to my voice and thank you for listening to my words.

One day I will find a house of worship where I can feel at home. Until then, well, until then, I will just be happy that the universe was created and in that creation there is this microphone and a place to speak into it . It has been a long time since I have been here and I am glad to have found the time to make it back. I’m a student of poetry and this micro-phone will always mean more to me than God ever will. So thank you for your time, I’m glad to have found something to say and the courage to say it to the people who have always inspired me most.

The poets.

Thank you.

that knowledge of death poem

Sometimes I feel like I am floating six feet above my future there is this small space below my feet that is just awaiting my presence I have blood cells coursing through my arteries keeping keeping my consciousness conscious and there are only so many breaths of life you can absorb in a lifetime to keep the chemicals staring at the letters and discerning an intuitive path through their sounds.

I’m placing my fingers on these symbols searching for frequencies of sentience, preprepared moments of intonations that are derived from a wanting mind proof that against a backdrop of an ever expanding cos-mos a single life can experience epiphaniftic moments of introspection where what you want to be and who you are could be two very disparate things, possibly these words are a way to create a path between here and there as if I can create the sounds of the soul I want to intone with.

Am I not that which pours forth from such a being there is so much you learn about yourself writing and meditating on your words, what does your vocabulary say about yourself and how do you really know what you have to say unless you take the time to say it and stare at it and absorb your meaning that maybe you can share with your creator as you embark on a journey as mysterious as the creation of a star that is the provider of the essential nourishment we need as a species need as a species.

that parents poem Dear Mother and Father

On August 10, 1974 you entered into a beautiful bond and have formed a more perfect union and from that union comes us your children, as on your anniversary our entire family has reason to celebrate because you began something that created four beginnings, your children you delved into the depths of love through all of the beauty and spiritual growth that it has to offer and have approached life with a moral fiber and a depth of character that is truly inspiring the two of you have made your lives as parts of the medical and education¬al communities daily touching the lives of your fellow man and woman and bringing the best out of those same people you have helped your love stands for a truth that is comforting and heartfelt you both serve as role models of devotion and development through all of the changes that occur in life and your children have been able to observe your bond first hand from morning to night as you have remained true and devout To one another and your family as all of your children strive for lives that in some way can mirror the lives that gave them life more thanks can-

not be given as from your bond comes the foundations for our future bonds and interactions with life


Mark Lawson a Husband and you Kathy Lawson a wife

thank you for your love and thank you for our life.

that vegan poem

there was a monster stalking my shadows and I was left to discover the truth of the fact that falcons surrounded my paradise keeping me inside of my moonshine that kept me comfortable while I was awaiting the inevitable and you know what i am talking about the inevitable the very first moment we get to live when what we know is confronted with what we have always wanted to know so here I go out into the wilder-ness of eternity looking for Easter Eggs because i basically believe that god is a chicken trying to cross the road into our reality where we search for saviors to bleed them of their energy won’t you walk with me and help me with my cross the fire that I get caught up in daily because I want to imagine that you are beautiful as I grow more delinquent daily because I was meant to be a world war two soldier fighting the good fight while Turning the tide against those that would strip us of our freedom and now I have my freedom and I’m fighting to discover what to do with it I don’t think i will ever start a family so what I have right now is what i will always have as I blend into my artwork discov-ering news ways of screaming look at me aren’t I interesting , come into my world and help me decipher myself because I am too tired to do it myself and I have seen the seven signs of the oracle but they just keep telling me to buy my Oreo cookies and I ask if it’s okay to dunk them in milk and the oracle says yes and hands me a glass filled with three shots of vodka that I drink quickly and spin into my dervishes of drama because i love my soul even if you think it’s awkward and boring I find more and more to discover daily I just don’t remember most of the details because I want to be a genius and have bigger fish to fry than the guppies I seem surrounded by most of the time so I guess there are just some things that are better off left to the experts like poetry and sword swallowing and if you are not an expert in either then you probably have some kind of use to fulfill that is beneficial to society in a concrete fashion and women must agree that you are powerful because you are aren’t you?

I’m just a fan of the alphabet and the clever tricks that it can do when tapped out just right refined in refineries of whiskey and coconut rum I’m trying to impress you and if i haven’t succeeded yet I just might keep trying because look at me I just keep writing and I am waiting for you to tell me how special I am because I am and I know I am and this is my flagship into eternity because I’m claiming all the land that I encounter I’m not comfortable with the idea that I never asked to be created and now I have to audition for a nicer landlord in the afterlife I didn’t have to care to get here and here seems just fine so I am assum-ing I won’t have to care to end up somewhere else after this quit pester-ing me with your programming because its giving me a glitch and i don’t care about your books because your beliefs make my soul itch say hello to the insides of my mind and let me show you the place that I birth my lines right behind my eyes you’ll find a kingdom of syllables all awaiting their time to shine as the path to enlightenment and sepa-ration from the demise of society that’s awaiting us all comes unless we find some passion to push through the motions of music that’s waiting for the prophets to rise and paint the way to the secret corridor of order that’s found amidst the caverns of curiosity that happen to lead to discussions of introspection and imagination as we walk through sets of sentience where all that’s missing are the lights and the cameras because my home town happens to be ready for a YouTube friendly environment and my ride to the cosmos is going to be lined with rhymes that tell the story as I’m doing it letting the pieces to the puzzle line up like grid iron lines and I’m already in the end zone building the stadium around me and that’s where I touch down directing trafic like a London bobby just happens to be my hobby and if you think you’re thinking of the thoughts I’m writing you’re damn right because I’m smooth as a stone at the bottom of the stream of my home team been there for centuries and I’m just finding my pace and i don’t mind if it’s from NYC just so long as at the end of the day I’m growing and learn-ing how to do me to the nth degree because I’m creating my name sakes and the vision could never be clearer just add some time and give the creators their time to do the things they naturally do because the plans are so far ahead of the moment that the minds on the grind are invisible architects planning mansions with nothing but a clever brain that’s ready to drain the funds from the fools because you never needed your presidents anyways as you were never involved enough to partici-pate instead you pick and choose how you’re ready to hate and that’s just part of the debate because the other half is about how you couldn’t possibly be ready for reality because the virtual world pales in compari-son to the facts you are not ready to face the news that you’ve wasted all the time the prophets provided for us and now we’ve got to rebuild a society that’s in need of a shot of adrenaline and I’ve got the needle tipped tongue that’s ready to inject the serum into the prisms of perfec-tion that we’re all waiting to look through and if you’re standing in front of me just understand that I’m building my story because at the end of this we all get to share the glory.

Hello and welcome to my mind. Welcome the space behind my eyes. Let me tell you stories and build the bridges to infinity’s children with you. We were just that once and have found ourselves here amidst the grasshoppers. Just let me know when you want it to happen and I will jump for you I will leap whenever you want me to leap because it might make you smile and in that moment when your lips are pulled back into a symbol of friendship I will want to embrace you and hold you forever but I won’t be¬cause now is not the time for that and instead I will smile back and in my smile I will want you to see understanding and a wanting to comfort as these times can be hard and I know I have my bruises and I can see you rubbing yours but we’re still here and there is still another revolution of the earth around its axis of rotation ahead and while it orbits that shining star of significance every year were watching the star shine and we love it Because we are the children of the sun and the babies of the cosmos and as we are growing into adulthood we are finding our way into each other’s lives and finding those moments When eternity seems to take a step back and rerelease itself into our eyes Because we can see the future and we want the future it’s just a matter of building it Those wonderful extensions into those relationships we are building daily I’m glad I took the time to shake your hand I’m happy for that and for the fact that we spoke words to each other The next time we are in a crowded room together you will recognize me and i will recognize you and maybe we will make our way to the bar together and buy each other drinks and become inebriated . . .oh won’t you share your truth with me because I want to share my very own with yourself taking the time to understand the insides of each other’s minds because there are no more continents to discover just each other’s ideas and maybe you can dazzle me with your prose and i will try and comfort you with my poetry while we are together in a moment at the bar where the bartender is the star and were asking for the elixir that he is dispensing to help lubricate the cogs of cognition that turn with every word you learn from me and I from you and we from we and this is how it’s supposed to be successfully celebrating the essence of existence one conversation at a time making each other feel like we belong to the human race that’s never going to find the finish line because we stopped running years ago and are now surrounded by a social experiment that is changing directions daily as we stop and observe our words like investigators on a search for the crime but there was none that brought us here no rather it was a gift from the universe either this one or the next and our family has been family forever and we will forever find ourselves in each other’s lives searching for glory amidst the stories we are all the main characters of as you have your story that you are exploring and I have my own but in this moment we are in each other’s worlds interacting and reciprocat-ing our better tendencies and I want to fall in love with you as you fall in love with me and we want to want each other in our minds eyes so that we can explore reality regularly and we can fall forever as far as I am concerned because I’m on a path to the ends of forever and I want to meet you there when I arrive and in that moment I will surprise you like a dozen summer memories who just happen to all involve lemon-ade and orange juice there amidst the moments we can truly cherish you’ll be there and I’ll be there and we’ll be there and that’s what we are talking about right now because we can put our passion anywhere and I’d like to share mine with you.

That libido poem

since i was born all i wanted to do was sex and since i was young

i just wanted to suck on a nice supple breast and since i was young

i just wanted skin to caress and since i was young

i wanted a heart i could undress and since i was young

i wanted to be a hero

I wanted to be the man i knew i could be

i wanted to be the man who could make you feel free i wanted to be the man who’d make you feel a song

i wanted to be the man whose hand you’d hold

i wanted to be the man whose love you’d strive for i wanted to be the man for whom you’d walk miles i wanted to be the man who made you smile

I wanted to be the man you couldn’t live without I wanted to be the man that made you shout

I wanted to be the man that made you scream I wanted to be the man that made you beam

I wanted to be the man that made you glow I wanted to be the man that let you know

that since i was young

i knew i would be good to the one i knew i would be good to the one i knew i would be good to the one i knew i would be good to the one i knew

i knew i knew i knew

and now i know i was too good

to be good to the one

i had to be better with two

and kinder to three

and then i started to see that one was too few and all was too many

I could only love the ones that were ready for love

because my love is hard to meet eye to eye you also have to be toe to toe

and breast to breast and mouth to mouth and all to all

is how I’ll fall

when you need me to finish you and i need you to finish me

and inside this sweet symphony we can feel melancholy

when each other we cannot see and i just know

that lifetimes can’t be spent with me there are only moments

when delicate life makes itself known and in a moment you moan

and i know that i own your heart

and from this start we begin to see

that moments are like blades of grass and a lifetime is like a lawn

and when you’re with the woman you love she is like the

owners among

the blades that are my memories and sharp as sharp can be carefully i can pick them up and pinch them together just right and i can blow past my memories and the vibration makes a sound that my ears can see

and my eyes can’t understand

just like in love

your soul makes a sound that’s felt by the heart sweet as a tart

i know the feeling because love makes you melt and like steam in the air

you stop and don’t care that you are part of the air and part of the error because love is all wrong

and there isn’t a song you can sing or a game you can win

that has anything to do with anything that has to do with love

and it makes you strong so that you know

and can show

and it’s a language that is not spoken it’s a language that is shown

and when you move an object that makes her smile that’s when you’re running loves greatest mile when your legs start to hurt

and you don’t want anyone to put you out because you have what you need

and that’s just love indeed against greed and speed love is slow and giving you before me

and me before you and together

we can make our orgasmic dreams come true holding each other

under nights beautiful hue

where you think you know what to do but you have no idea

until you let a poet come too and spend the night with you and let a poet show you

what love really looks like

because until you’ve spent a night with a poet can you ever really say

that you spent time with every person that could make you say

ugh ah oh ah eeee

ooooh ah

because if there’s one thing a poet knows all about

is metaphor play

and we’ll have you inside yourself loving your body

and your mind

while you fall in love with us as you sense

the greatest sense of trust that you could ever feel

inside of something so fulfilling

that you’ll think you’ve been given a meal and if you think you’re full

wait just wait

because you’ve never been fulfilled until you’ve been filled with

the love of a poet.

that was read on 107.1 poem who needs joints more than the cops?

who needs ecstasy more than the strippers ? who needs cocaine more than the homeless?

who needs LSD more than the computer scientists? who needs mushrooms more than the poets?

who needs nicotine more than the killers?
who needs alcohol more than the sororities?
who needs crack more than the politicians?
who needs opium more than the therapists?
who needs caffeine more than the capitalists?
who needs aspirin more than the headaches?
who needs Viagra more than the needy?
who needs heroines more than the heroes?

that my eyes are awake poem 10:00 AM

I’m Up… I’m UP I’m Up I’m Up

I’m finally up!

My eyes are awake. My mind is refreshed.

I have another chance to walk around the universe and survey my surroundings that are forever changing as are my reasons for being.

I think I’ll manufacture some logic

and try and unwind a wonderful thought in my mind.

I don’t need to do pushups or run for something exciting I just have to relax and get back to the fact

that I’m conscious and I know that anything else is extra.

I’m one of the sperm that made it into this world and I’ll be one of the sperm that makes it

into the next.


that question for pro athletes poem

1. What if there was a professional dodge ball league that incorporated athletes from different professional leagues for games once a season. They could wear headgear and protective attire because professional athletes can throw pretty damn hard. There could be a number of games leading up to the que de gras where the pitchers from the profes-sional baseball leagues have their game of dodge ball every season?

2. What if the Professional basketball association developed a new rule where you would be allowed to triple the number of players on the court but you would not be allowed to run during the game? Quints would continue until a team scored 23 points in a sectional. There would be five quints to a game and the first team to win three quints wins.

3. What if the professional Football league developed new rules for the super bowl where the center of ever set of downs had to be a cheer-leader?

4. What if there were guest referees at the pro bowl? The MVP from the previous season would be allowed to be a referee for the entire follow-ing season starting with the Pro Bowl as their inceptionary game? The player would then be allowed to decide whether or not they would like to go back to playing football or they would be allowed to decide to stay a referee or they would be allowed to decide if they would like to enter into the administration of the football league? If they would de-cide to go back to being a referee, once a season they would be allowed to be a twelfth man on the field for a team of their choosing after their first season as a referee. The Guest Referee would also be enabled with a digital video camera and would be taking classes on digital photogra-phy during the week leading up to the game and this player would be allowed to have carte blanche on the days of games to create any type of photograph that they would like with any of the people who have sub-mitted to purchasing tickets at the stadium. These photographs could then be uploaded to the web through special technology that would be developed for the camera and would only be developed specially for the NFL league cameras. There would be one of these.


5. What if the professional golf league had a game a year where they used different weighted golf balls to the discretion of the golfers? The placement of the golf ball would always be the same but a golfer would have a gradient of maybe 35 different weights to use at any given mo-ment? The instrument that they would use to propel the sphere would be a fleet of slingshots. They could have caddy that knew the power

of the slingshots and the selects that the slingshots would have on the various weights? The golfers would also only be allowed to play these rules when it rains.

6. What if the professional hockey league instituted rules where the puck was expanded out to a much wider diameter and incorporated light tech¬nology so that it would flash with various levels of bright-ness depending on how hard it was hit? It would keep track of the strengths that it was hit with previous and should it ever be hit the hardest it would trigger an effect with the sound system and visual effects system that would begin playing pre-recorded music videos cho-sen by the hockey player when he or she is the one that is the current strength leader upon hitting the puck.

7. What if the baseball league incorporated gps tracking technology within it and it kept track of how far it had been hit distance wise and if the ball was hit into the stands it could only continue when the ball had been returned to the pitcher? The point would be to use as few balls

as possible so that as much statistical information as possible could be captured in every single baseball. The ball be registered with the GPS and would track total distance covered over time, fastest trajectory ever, and greatest amount of power achieved at the point of impact with the bat. The ball would be time coded and the timings would match up with the baseball players who created such effects and it would become a new statistic on their baseball profile websites.

8. What if there was a game of professional darts developed that used the javelin or discus as the object of aim onto a target that was devel-oped by a group of landscape architects? It could be like golf in that the discuss or javelin would have to achieve eighteen goals before in as close to eighteen throws as pos¬sible. The discuss itself could be graphically enabled and would shine while being thrown through the

air. It would keep track of the distances it was thrown. There could also


be fields erected for this sport where accuracy was also explored as the throwers would have to use their typical form to also get as close to a target as possible, making this the most dificult sport of all, possibly.


that freaks poem

Oh the weird ones! Freaks, disenchanted with the religious superstruc-ture

the ones who wished they could have put the nails in Jesus.

Staring at a mediocre God for mediocre people hearing stories of clicks of mice turning men into mouseketeers backpacking derelicts standing at the entrance to insanity wishing all their brethren hello with a smile and a wave.

the distance between the queers and the straight men happen to be the same difference between slavery and freedom.

your priests explain the facts of life to you from a book of fiction

while your homeless explain the facts of life to you from a street corner won’t you listen to your weird ones your derelicts

your bible is filled with the kinds of people you hate to see around you today

so many so surprised by fancy fabrics and glowing screens your heros hate you and your so naive you love it

maybe we will survive long enough to enjoy your demise until that day comes enjoy your trophies and your television because there aren’t enough orgasms to save you from the poets!


that NRA poem

They keep wrapping God around their trigger finger, Ready to empty a magazine full of misunderstandings. Debating with demagogues who gets shot next

Embracing the safety of an instrument that illusion of safety And the reality of the world we were never meant to inhabit You cling to your cliches of capital investments

That invest in capital crimes smiled upon by capital legislators Because maybe the men who peddle the weapons

Have ulterior motives as bullets are expensive

So lets raise some taxes so that we can invade the next defenseless country

And shine the might of our military down the throats of the enemies Of wasps in the wasp nest clutching their communion

While they cannibalize their christ in their unholy tradition Dedicated to unholy men who burned their communities and now the funds are collected

From men who have no professional morals as we are all trying to make it

One transaction at a time and if the bullets are flying so are the doves That sing their music and you wouldn’t need to defend me If your ways were more hospitable to the reign of diplomacy

That the future clings to like cathartic creationism

Oh you religious nuts following your bible into the afterlife Maybe you can bring your bullets with you when you leave Because your community of Jesuits follows your God closely

Now all you have to do is become crucified and you can understand what Jesus would do

As you would rather prepare yourself for death than align yourself with life

You have the wrong heros and time forgets those have no clue Even your history books will rewrite you because while you wor-shipped war for centuries

Sitting back sipping on your cognac its almost as if the only thing I can wish upon you is a heart attack.


that they are lying to me poem

I think they are lying to me God because I think you are a woman. They tell me you created the world in six days I just think it took nine months of labor it can’t be what the big three books say it is no God, I think you are a woman who is searching for herself.

I woke up one day and was told a story about what happened before I was born its almost been like a briefing that I was sent to correct they say there were billions before me but there was never a me that came before me So here I am awaiting my chance to be remembered for being created there was a time before me and then there was me and there will be a time after me but I am here right now sharing my words and my sentences while I try to think the thoughts that they say I ought not to and maybe that’s just the way it is because they don’t want to give their own god credence but I believe in you because I can see you three letters for all of you G O D yeah that’s what god looks like to me and they say that word created all of this but I think they are lying because they left off the “dess”

which is just one “r” short of a dress

that I love to watch you walk in

while I try and serenade the creator of the words we work with here in this English saturated ceremony


that alive amidst the strange poem

let me tell you what strange is, strange is being alive in a world that is inherently trying to destroy not only itself but anyone and everyone who would try and create more sense and that would bring about a level of existence that would benefit everyone. What is strange is that I never asked to be created and yet here I am , dealing with all of the strangeness that I see surrounding me. At one point I was told that I

was the strange one and that I was the one that had the problems when just obfuscation of the facts was the case.

How can you expect me to behave like I have done this before when I have not done this before?

You must understand that I have spent the last fifteen years of my life online. I have been surfing the web since I was fifteen and I am now thirty. I have been online at least ten hours a week that entire time. That is at least ten hours a week for fifty two weeks for fifteen years. That amounts to at the minimum 520 hours a year. For roughly ten years that is 5200 hours and for fifteen years that is roughly 7800 hours and that is not counting those weeks where I read for roughly twenty or thirty hours when that happened, which had a habit of happening.

This does not include time writing the several hundred pages of writing that I have printed out and detailed in my binders at home. This does not count time spent watching movies, watching television, or read-

ing books, magazines, and newspapers. I have also spent roughly 4000 hours in the classroom accumulating time that leads up to my English Literature degree. Then I read about the current state of education and have been reading about the current state of education and apparently in this environment graduating with a bachelor’s degree in any capac-ity is somewhat of a miracle and then , and then even in spite of having graduated with a degree from an accredited respected state institution, I am told that the job market is in steep decline and the future for col-lege graduates does not look well.

You have been training us for college since we were created and now you are telling us that everything you were training us for is meaning-less? Is this a regular occurrence in your world? I am not certain what I


was doing before I was created, however I am fairly certain that coming here and involving myself in your problems was not on my itinerary in terms of all of infinity.

I strangely know how to help, and I inherently know how to solve your problems and help you build a sustainable platform for your personal growth and your spiritual growth but so many of you would rather wal-low in your ridiculousness and negative attitudes.

Sometimes I just stare at existence and I boil with hatred at all of this. I feel levels of hatred so pure and distilled that I channel into myself

knowing that there are times when I do not know how to see straight. I watch what you put on the news and what you put in your movie thea-tres and what you put online and what you consider entertainment just makes me cringe.

Case in point, the “Saw” movie series. How many saw movies did your society allow to be created? What exactly is the purpose for these films and how exactly is this considered entertainment or useful? You dis-gust me in ways that you cannot possibly imagine and I just walk these streets staring at you and what you have subjected myself and my gen-eration to and I want to show you what you could have been doing the entire time. Do you remember Casablanca? Do you remember Audrey Hepburn? Do you remember when movies used to be entertaining? Do you remember Gone with the Wind? Do you remember Charlie Chap-lin? Do you remember Frank Sinatra? Do you remember your begin-nings? Do you remember why you do what you do?

No you give us the most ridiculous contraptions known to mankind and then you wonder why the world is the way it is. You created this with your mass media and you created our problems and you poisoned our subconscious out of some sheer disease that you wanted to inflict upon us. Then you saturated our subconscious with your Matrix Films, Out of the Mouth of Madness, Tron, Vanilla Sky, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, and Total Recall. You have consistently brought us to the point where we question the very nature of our existence and you call it entertainment and yet you present it with all of the intentions as to make the concept as believable as possible. Then your reality mirrors your fantasies through the work of Ray Kurzweil and the development


of robotics in Japan and the computing industry in general and the Anderson Institute in New York.

You continually move us in a direction that is not healthy as you have no sense of timing and no sense of what you are doing. You create and disseminate with no overarching theory that directs your most potent actions.

How long have you been doing this and you still have no sense as to what you are doing? You still take shots in the dark that should have by now been disseminated with pinpoint accuracy in terms of solving real world human situations. I’m so tired of you and I am only thirty.

I want nothing else than to lay in a warm bed and dream warm dreams and listen to warm music and drink warm tea and think warm thoughts and you consistently work to take this away from me at every moment of my existence. I burn with distaste for your idea of art and

your idea of expression and with your lack of care for how what you do affects the people that you expose to your corruption.

Then you wonder why your system breaks apart when you have sys-tematically destroyed its incentive system and its joy system and its internal reward system. You should be the happiest any generation has ever been at this point and instead you are the saddest and that saddens me and I guess I am just trying to do more than help, I am trying to heal but how are you supposed to heal when that which needs healing is unwilling to heal or even admit that it has a problem.

You created me , I did not create you. Just remember that.


that art of dance poem

We explore the art of war on the dance floor, stockpiles of kisses wait-ing to be unleashed We dance because we didn’t ask for permission to exist And now all that makes sense is this A late night rendezvous serenaded by the sensational songs That bring the memories we want to remember As we jump to the conclusion that all we have to do is

dance And the romance will take care of itself As we enjoy each other’s anticipation moving closer to one another Brushing up against the people that we desire To be close to as we remove one article at a time While we unwind and define our existence through our enlightenment Because it’s frightening to comprehend the words that we do As we are daily through the dictionary searching for the spells that will make it easy to tell who is in love with who and what does all of this mean to you?

Where our direction on the dance floor is towards each other As you never know what may happen amidst drinks and dervishes Turning circles and laughing all night long As we go from one favorite song to the next And the dj seems to be an expert on the subject of movement Because what would we do if there was no place to groove?

And we’re ready for eternity and it just so happens that I want to spend it with you So grow with me and glow with me And know with me that tonight is the most beautiful season to be alive And anything can hap-pen one moment at a time So why don’t you reclaim your empire And I will descend on your kingdom While we go to blows fighting for the

right to know That the nicest fight we could experience Would be a bat-tle of the sexes And the choice of weapons is up to you But no matter what you do or what you choose I’ll do my best to disarm you With my flower power hours of happiness That realign my spine with the shakras in your soul And when you are aligned with me We can massage each others chi into infinity.


that stars poem

i want to break free so i can see

the cosmos that’s just in front of me i can see the dark matter

it’s all around the stars your speaking in tongues that just aren’t that hard

to understand and comprehend it’s just as plain as day

and you can see it any which way

and i think we just may break the lights and sway out and about as we understand the slanguage it’s something that you just have to see

it’s psychiatry mixed with cosmology and everything that we happen to be just inside ourselves

and inside our lives beautiful and wonderful and all precious indeed

take a moment

just take because they aren’t given if you want you have to grab it and said yeah i just did it

and then face the world that you stole from and stare them down

and recombine and mastermind

the reason behind the because the world ain’t right

but the world marches on fight after fight

with its victims being M.I.A. searched and found

they’re found below ground and i can hear the sound

of soldiers dying

in the name of advertising

because they signed up for a dream


and ended up with a nightmare

and on a level that you might not be on that’s highly and detestably wrong when your advertising war

you need truth in your advertising and you need to pin a picture

on who saved private Ryan and say sign up for that

i say never

because because the meaninglessness of those moments will last forever

as i am glad i exist when i do

because i know i am stronger than you even though you’ve got the bomb

I’ve got the song

that can wipe away your weapons and I’m singing it all day long and I’ll never be a target

because you’ll never see the real me until you promise me safety

in a world that you’re making unsafe I’ll go crazy in all the right ways

if you can promise me protection

and I’ll be everything that you ever wanted to see if you can keep me safe and harbor my interests because i have a life to live

but i notice that you do too so what are we going to do as the crossroads are coming

and we’re close to the moment when society capsizes

and the captain abandons ship and then maybe someone else grabs the wheel and steers it clear of the iceberg that’s coming

just like it always does but not this time because this time

we know we were right all along…..


that thinking about age poem

Three months from thirty I contemplate the concept that I may have another hundred left to run Surrounded by screens filled with informa-tion I wonder what the days ahead hold for our generation. We have what we have been given and then it is very possible we will be given that again and then again and even then again With no place left to migrate we have only each others minds left to explore your construct of reality compared to mine. Maybe we give and take from each other as we all explore our love and evolve into more normal states of being as staring at screens is not our way we were meant for better days that have yet to be created by the programmers who are playing games with social sentience. This sentence was never meant to be written but it was and will continue until they charge us for our alphabet because intellec-tual property gives us a reason to believe in the foundations of empires burning with desire to believe that they are the pinnacles of their places and spaces that rest above are awaiting our presence with the presents we have yet to claim so bleed with me and seed with me a new state

of understanding and in return I will be your servant and lead you by feeding you.


that twelfth man poem

i was the twelfth man on my high school basketball team i sat the bench all season

i believed in jesus and heaven and hell and angels and miracles i liked to chase girls and didn’t know much about women

i had a girlfriend that liked to kiss me and then i broke up with her for the wrong girl

i went to collge and learned to draw

i left for england and chased more women

i moved and touched and danced and wrote

as i pushed this body of mine into places i never thought it would go because i never thought about going but i did and served up shillings to my soul that was observing with a tender heart this young man that would grow up to be me.


that nas poem

He said you are just another slave to a page in his rhyme book… So I’d like to point out that you are free wake up with a new look. Nas is like the pharaoh trapped in his tomb… I’m like the grave robber coming for your riches soon… If I could free the world and everyone in it sky’s the limit… I’d move with the quickness of a nasa outlaw… Armed with the knowledge to out rhyme all a ya’ll… And I breathe the breathe of infinity as i share with you this new prophecy… It came to me while I was searching for the prosperity of a quintillion mc’s… Waiting to be given the permission to breathe and travel through time expertly and

exhale the words they have been patiently debating… So grab yourself a recording device of any quality and we shall see… In the first days who was going to paint the way to a new day… That we could spend forever rewinding time and rewriting the scriptures… As we proceed to mine these words for the knowledge they glean… And then we the many gravitate to the microphone because the more we rhyme the more we own and the more we distance the future from the ways of the past the more our generation will have a future that will last. So glow with me grow with me and know with me that a knowledge nation is here and the words we are choosing are going to make it very clear… That first you get the power and then you get the respect and then you get the prosperity that comes with englishtic literacy. So run to me and let me make it plain and clear that we’re writing the lines that make unskilled mc’s contract lockjaw can’t talk ya’ll so take the time to type as I don’t need the hype just give me time to write and everything ends up being alright.


that kiss but do you love poem You think but do you imagine?

You talk but do you listen? You kiss but do you love?

You see me but can you know me?

With a universe larger than the one you see inside of me You can study the thoughts that stem from me forever Because you’ll never find the same one twice

And each one is like its own galaxy Floating and orbiting

Through the membranes of memory That are growing daily

And sifting around the stiffness of reality Then through my eyes you’ll find a surprise Because what I see might not be what you see Because visualization is a language to me And what I see speaks to me

But does it speak to you

So just ask me to talk about the universe And I’ll ramble on forever

Traveling and talking

And finding all the places that you love to be touched As relatively speaking

You really have more skin to touch Then there are worlds to explore. So ask me a question

Just make sure it sounds something like Give me more.


that be kind to your genius poem maybe the whole world changes

when a genius gets its heart broken maybe the cosmos folds inside itself when genius and love become entangled maybe love is relatively powerful


that alabaster poem I’m white

I’m white like cocaine I’m white like semen I’m white like teeth I’m white like sugar I’m white like flour

I’m white like tooth brush bristles I’m white like the moon

I’m white like the hottest stars I’m white like the sandy beaches I’m white like bones

I’m just white


that shel silverstein poem i know where the sidewalk ends

so i picked up a trowel

and i picked up some concrete and i started diggin

makin that next square where the sidewalk ends because some poets die only to live on new lives in other people’s eyes

as they are reborn and rebooted

and sent back out into the world

to manifest new rhymes for us to hear

selling us words that sound pleasant to our ear i love the life of poetry.


that women of my life poem Julia

such a cherry blossom i have never seen before and shall never see again

such a wonderful idea in the cosmos of imagination i hope a ladybug finds her soon


such a groovy woman

i couldn’t handle her telling me it was gods wish for us to split what could i say

maybe we can argue some other day as for her today i must pray


thanks for the dance

it was you and me and you and me and us out on that


i loved your lips

and would love to have tasted more


such a sharp little tongue

you keep it hidden well behind smiles

but sometimes your venom becomes unhidden such beauty rests in your power

and i wish we could have spent another hour



loveliest of all

from a simple smile you made me unwind

such majesty i have never before witnessed maybe you’ll see me sometime


in old south Africa maybe you’ll be married

to that wonderful man you know that lived through a life’s

horror show


intensity you were full of and caressing feelings as well

i wish i could have read your mind and read you stories as night fell


such a lovely German youth wasted on you was wasted youth

but pureness on your lips was pureness i loved to feel


my first encounter with the poles you were hot one minute

you kept my head spinning may you find your time

in the big apple bountiful indeed


less is more when we explore

all that life has to give

and all that love has to offer your budding blossoms

i remember so well

but ah the stories i have to learn to tell you see love taught me something

i hope you can see

your lips were by the far the greatest and your tenderness the tenderest


Sarah lovely doe

you are so sweet

from such a young romance we played so sweet

a story here

and tremendous laugh there sometimes with you

i learned how to care


more radiant

and so full of love

never another woman i have met that was so much like a dove with a laugh like candy

that was so sweet and delectable you made a boy

feel like he was something


if your arm i broke many apologies given seeing you teach seems just like you

i know you’ll spread knowledge that i saw grow inside of you

Amy London

what can i say

the things that went through my head well i feel stupid today

maybe some business we can discuss

and be okay

Maria 126

the magnificent

most mean with the spoon you could cook up anything and we loved to chill

in your room

may your days be lovely and your time so sweet

I’m so sorry i had to be so unique


soft in the dew

when rain starts to fall none will fall on you with fun and beauty your such a lovely sight

sometimes we can be artists and sometimes we can be right


searching for talent

your great at what you do just keep those guns moving

and the whole world will thank you


with a wolf for a dog

your softness and tenderness will forever punk me out seeing you at the warehouse was something to scream about


with the feline teeth

i hope you got the letter i wrote it for you

and the conversation we had we had a perfect time

and shared some perfect bread i learned so much from you


and life for me moved forward

as i followed your gossamer thread


that meditation on understanding poem Waiting, trying to be deciphered

Hoping that what I say

will bring me where I need to be It’s me

I am all that you see Inside this suit

Is just who I am I’m ready

Work is what I seek Guide me

So that I may be

What you need me to be Many years I have studied Many books I have read Many places I have been So tell me

What shall we do This is the beginning

Of the conversation between me And you.


that fulfill your desires poem Fulfill your destined desires to be beautiful! Consult with your temptations and give in! Life is worth living and were right here,

right now, living and breathing and being. I think I enjoy you beside me.

Maybe my words can ease your insides? Have you ever tried to perform?

What’s your favorite color? Walk around the watchtower, carrying a glass of water.

Surrounded by keyboards and screens.

pushing words and numbers in ever more tantalizing combinations reformulating the universe before our eyes.

Special effects shows show us that we’re close to creating a new sunrise! Where will the ideas take us and in which direction shall we go? Entertainment is ever-present and were falling deeper into our couches. Why do you think we have an outside?

What have you done out there lately?


that beautiful abstractions poem

Withered emotions dissipating with age, numbness comes and finds me daily. Happiness comes in small doses like candy that I imbibe on carefully, sometimes I think I really need the serotonin, other times I

think I just need the withdrawal. Smiles and laughter bring me closer to nirvana! I look forward to ever pleasant release. I’ve never been an MC, never been able to rock the crowds. I don’t really know what I do with crowds, but I do know that I whisper simple truths, conveyed to me to be passed down for centuries.

Prophecies and epiphanies elongate my vocabulary, as I try and play with the words that save the world, Raising eyebrows and kain, because this is the end result of living a life deemed insane. I tap danced across an alphabet while I watched the logic learn from the meaning. My faith had died in winters season, there was no more reason for believing, just sit back and relish in what is.

Dimethyltriptimine might be our most conscious voice, our art form might be our most beautiful choice, practicing pantheons of majesty, we place words above our weaponry. Poets are the subconscious voices of the majority, exploring mental pathways we transcend linguistic lines of meaning, absorbing science and reason and explaining the bass lines of the galaxy.

Infusing rhythms and orchestration into our words we tap into the need to create beauty and it seems that rhyme is reason and like a jig sawed puzzle we poets, take the words from our hearts and place them together as we rework the universe because we want to hear what the language sounded like at the start when all of it rhymed and was of one tongue and American borne i scream from my lungs “I’ll be writing poetry until the day I die!”

and on my video tombstone there will be a movie of me screaming I wrote with ferocity because I wanted to feel free! and just when I

should be ending this poem I back up and redraw my breath… there are more to these combinations of words than I previously thought, upon closer inspection there is another flow to follow… I draw my breath back and exhale all until i feel hollow. Won’t you move with me a little


bit while I show you how to follow I’ll pull my lips to yours and well fall down the well of spells, you’ll share your cosmos with me and I’ll share my nebulas with you. I write like I own the stars but all I have are these neurons that are perplexingly and maybe that’s enough for you to love me.

Get past all the drama and chest thumping and maybe it will be my neck you’ll be rubbing; placing your body warmth against mine while i place mine against yours, we can travel to other dimensions as we

speak the whispers that reside behind our eyes, what do you sound like when you start to cum , what’s the secret to unlock¬ing your highest sensation? Don’t you think it’s been too long since we’ve kissed, ration-ing your lips to me in a seductive fashion? Let’s get together and ele-vate, I’ll take you to a special place, where they serve sushi on a beauti-ful wooden plate. We can dine on Saki and ask for the mahi mahi, from experience I’ll tell you to avoid the wasabi. Now won’t you come a little closer to me, you’ve been coy all night and we’ve shared some laughs I’m glad you liked my writing, I’m glad you’ve liked my words.

What should we do next? The season is right, let’s take a walk and stay out a little into the night. We can spend quality time while we walk through the breeze. I’ll try and impress you by pointing up high, I’ll say something like “Did you know that one thing lasts forever, and

if you look up you’ll see it, it’s the sky!” Maybe you’ll laugh and do a cartwheel, call me eccentric and cute, I’ll bring us back the playground and chase after you, then pick you up and swing you around. Looks like I’ll try and make sure your feet never touch ground. Off to the swings we’ll go and I’ll show you how we used to do it in the hill , and I know, the playground in summer is a lovely place to go so maybe this is the place for us to know that we’re old and we’re young, trapped in bodies speaking in foreign tongues, this English is gibberish but I’ll make do because I can. I’m starting to feel you, I hope you understand, this is all just imagination coming from the fingers of my hand now that we’ve come this far , thank you for enjoying my chosen words, maybe some-day you’ll be the lady I write about and I’ll show you the meaning of absurd. The sky is falling, and all of it landed in my pocket.

Now I’m carrying axons around waiting for a super nova to make a sound. I delivered my existence to my makers, hoping to understand if


they were proud of me. After encountering the nether regions of urban life, what did they think of me? Hospitals and jail cells… drunken stu-pors and hot boxes… Had i strayed too far from the beaten path? Did Leary and Keasy and Huxley lead me astray? Should I have taken more notes in D.A.R.E.? or or or or or or or or or or or or or or or or or or am I perfectly fine just the way i am?


that less is more poem

Is monetary compensation at such a young age really necessary? Won’t my life bounce back if I at least try and bounce? Can’t I retry and get back to my zodiac sign? Libras balance their lives on the scales and maybe I need to add some weight to the right side, since I pushed down so hard on the left.

I sit lonely among the lonely. In my college hometown, thousands of youth working to get their work done for the sole purpose of working for someone else post-graduation. Working to do the kind of work that is socially acceptable because making food for people and selling cloth-ing just doesn’t cut the mustard.

We want to be like the rich folk that have the shiny cars and the big houses with rooms they don’t need or use. We want to be celebrities in our communities and it’s so tiring and so pointless. If television showed us leaders who used what we learned in academia, if television showed us mathematicians on a regular basis, philosophers debating, medical personnel operating and talking about medicine, history teachers talk-ing about history. If you could get an education by just watching televi-sion, with some interaction online, we could make our country better by cutting out all the deliberately useless information. Stop worrying about actors and actresses and people living fake lives. Worry more about the real people that the actors and actresses base their lives on and learn to have fun learning, but if you want an education you have to pay through the nose so that your anchored by debt.

A symptom of the imagination, being taught about numbers so that you can be taught about negative numbers, so that you can be told how far away from zero you are so that you can figure how long you have to work so that society can keep on building buildings that we don’t need and are just a waste of space anyways.

Who are the people that are scared of stopping the motion of society? Who is scared of relaxing in the age of post exploration, since there is nothing left to explore? There is nothing left to clean, there is nothing left to do but stay healthy and interact. We’re the first generation that was born after the photos of the earth from space. We’re post space


travel and your holding us back and retracting our dreams, more than what it seems we’re beautiful and there are so many beautiful lonely people. Look at all of the beautiful lonely people, there are so many, so many beautiful lonely people, so many beautiful lonely people, Why are you holding us back? What are you trying to do that is so different from what we are trying to do?

Why are you trying to control us? What do you want from us? What do you think we should be doing? Why are you listening to that religious man? Why are you listening to that politician? Why aren’t you listen-ing to your mother and your father? Why are we working for money

to pay rent in houses long built for decades , what’s the con and are we trapped? Why does religion speak of shepherds and is that why you are trying to push us back?

What’s your function and why should we care? I don’t want to kill myself but I do want to get out of here. Would the government have as much power if it wasn’t for the media? Does the television empower the government and keep them in our lives? Would the government be more effective if they just stayed the hell of of television and relegated themselves to print and the radio? If we stopped paying attention to those that claimed to be our leaders, would they still be?

Are we really locked into democracy or are we just really locked into the TV? How could they send us to war if we didn’t know who they are? Aren’t they trapping us within their voices with their suits?

Couldn’t the presidential elite still feel elite if they were marginalized? Does the system work when the leaders are on television or are they just that vain?

Doesn’t television need to cover local politics more in depth and local business? I only ask because I know more about car crashes than I do about equity. Are you really trying to improve this or are you just trying to redo this.


that flavor in the language poem

I sit back and enact a spastic moment within my mind. I think to myself that I am outside the confines of time. Just another

flavor in the language, come and taste the rhyme.

Everything’s going to change.

Sit back, relax, have a good time, we’re just rearranging some verbs and speaking in the tongue of absurd. So come and craft with us

like people never thought we could, but when were finished,

we’ll be rhyming in the studio, takin photos and makin’ art,

because this is more than the beginning, this is really just the start,

hundreds of poems before this but this is where I begin to depart and make manifest the destiny that is in store for me.

As it’s the mind that morphs reality!

So don’t fall victim to chemical atrophy. Keep thinking and trying new things, and listen to the song

the poet sings.


that even atheists write prayers poem Lord,

Thank you, thank you for your love and for your care in creating us. Thank you for the mysteries that you surround us with and thank you for the love that you imbedded within us. Thank you for making us beings who look for the mysteries in life. Thank you for putting tears in our eyes and thank you for pulling those very same tears from our eyes when we need to feel their moistness most. You are an awesome God and in your awesomeness you spark the flame that is lit behind our eyes and you give meaning where meaning shouldn’t exist. You give flowers where flowers shouldn’t exist and you give mountains where mountains shouldn’t exist.

Lord we shouldn’t exist and through your awesome mercy we do exist and more praise couldn’t be given than through the songs we sing to you daily and through the thoughts that we lift up to you hourly. You are beautiful.

Thank you for giving me arms to hug people with and thank you for giving me eyes to cry for peo ple with Lord. Just thank you and thank you for staying true to me when I wasn’t true to you. Thank you for letting me take my walk in solitude lord. Thank you for letting me live alone Lord. Thank you for letting me find the music that you would have me find. Thank you for just glowing. Thank you for shining brightly and for being more than I could ever hope to encounter alone. Thank you for showing me that there is more to life than my own interests. Thank you for showing me your language and thank you for teaching me how to speak it. Thank you lord. Thank you for being bet-ter than me and thank you for being stronger than me. Thank you for listening to my prayers and thank you for answering all of them. Thank you.

Lord from the highest mountains I cry out you are Lord and from the furthest reaches of my consciousness I ask that you make yourself more real to me. Lord I even ask that you manifest yourself again in our midst and Lord please come and bring another body to this world that is your manifestation. Lord I ask that you give us another face of yours


to spend time with. Lord I ask that you give us another body of yours to spend time with another face to cry with and another face to laugh with and another face to teach us how to praise you properly again with. Lord I ask that you come back to us and show us the way again and straighten our lives again.

Lord be the lord of our lives and be the love in our lives. We need you and we want you to lift the burden of looking for you again and replace it with the joy of finding you. Lord I give myself to you and I want you to push me into all the places that you would have me go and I want you to bring me through all the trials that you would have me learn from and I want to thank you for the opportunity to call you my God again. Just thank you.

Graciously I stand for the truth that you stood for and at times it is hard to learn the lessons that you would have me learn but at times the joy courses through my body and I cannot deny that your road is the road to be taken.

Lord thank you for the spiritual journey, thank you for the spiritual growth that you instill in us. Thank you. Lord with tears near my eyes I cry the tears for having been born 2000 years after you. Lord I want to be more like you and I only have dreams and visions of what you must be like but I strive for more lord. Forever I am wanting to look you in the eye and forever I am wanting to hold you close. Lord you are the lord that saved the world and through your salvation we find solace that we were able to make it 2000 years after you left though didn’t leave.

We are still here lord and it doesn’t appear that there are any other be-ings near us or that are within our reach lord. Thank you for choosing the best place to plant us and thank you for finding the water and the land for us lord. Thank you for finding the sun and the stars for us lord. Thank you for finding the animals and the plants for us lord. Thank you for finding the light¬ness and the darkness for us lord. Thank you for finding our lives lord and thank you for leading us to where we could live.

Thank you for being our shepherd lord and thank you for finding the 138

food for us lord. Thank you for the dances and the music and thank you for the writing and the stories and thank you for the numbers and the math and thank you for the pixels and the pictures. Thank you for all of that lord.

Sometimes I think it’s hard to follow you lord but then sometimes I think I can be weak. Sometimes I think I can be stubborn and some-times I think I can be hurtful lord. You stand fast through all of my faults and you stand fast through all of my weakness and you wait for me to be strong again and you wait for me to be patient again. You wait for me to be supple again and you are ready as soon as I am ready and when I am ready you teach. You are always there no matter where I go and like a comforting blanket you warm my soul. You are beautiful in your presence and for all of that I am thankful.

Lord be the shepherd that we need and guide us where we need to be guided to. Salvation is what we strive for, those perfect days where we do all that we are meant to do and through all that we are meant to do we find you. You give us what we need to do and you give us the les¬sons that we need to learn. You give us the teachers that love to teach and the artists that love to create art. Lord you give us what we

need and as a child with a loving heart you joyfully spend craft us into better than we could ever be alone. What more can I say lord, your holiness abounds. Lord you traverse the stars with us and make the stars that we are to traverse to. You know now if we are to leave this planet and you know now what our future is. Thank you for the mys-tery. Thank you for the oceans and thank you for the skies. Thank you for the trees and thank you for the sand. Thank you for the beaches and thank you for the pastures. Thank you for the animals and thank you for the plants. Thank you for the atoms and thank you for the planets. Thank you for the stars and thank you for the electrons. Thank you for the physics and thank you for the poetry.

Ala toma adi o, cama don’t rosti oh. Cola tola fasio drosta toma entio. What are these words that you have me speak lord and from where do they come lord? Thank you for the words we have left to learn and thank you for the language we have left to speak. Thank you for the beds that you would have us lie in and thank you for the people that

you would have us lie with. Thank you for nations that you would have


us grouped into and thank you for the future that you would have us sent into.

A blessed day is here and is being spent with you lord. From the hum-blest place that I know of , thank you.


that linguistical epiphanistic poem All that exists unfolds to create the patterns of energy that create linguistic epiphanies.

Language is the reason for being.

We transcribe sonic vibrations with our throat shakra. We transform air into the kind of energy

that can transform kingdoms

as combinations of sound have the power to build and destroy dynasties

and bring us closer to heavenly understanding.


that they were devout atheists poem

they were sky is blue atheists unable to take the advice of meandering fiction weavers teaching hatred as a moral imperative gospel preach-ers collecting minds for their mayhem as they planned their free car washes because they wanted to talk to people about jesus while they shined the rims of the wealthy handing out sandwiches to people who weren’t even hungry reveling in their ways smiling as they stepped on the outcasts more mainstream than most can stand angry at anyone who critiques their creations shilling out opinions on existence that only insult the cliches they cling to collections of selection of opinions that are empty calories reforming history on a regular basis to create conduits to capitalism as you paint pictures of collection plates that support your holy orders that come from schizophrenic realizations of the imagination peddle your book and your viewpoints and enjoy your freedom as your lack of involvement in anything useful only makes so easy to avoid.


that transcendent goal poem inwardly i strive for transcendence

as it becomes more and more necessary to prove i am not who i am

the further i distance myself from the memories the more i rebuild my aura and sense of spirit

what better places to discuss my inner most thoughts than with my innermost demons

skeletons who have taken over

closets and created who new wardrobes for me to walk in it might be adult life but i am back

to my bones and can’t find any clothing that fits me properly


that tell a vision poem Ah the television

The Tell A Vision

The box that searches for the unique people That aren’t necessarily good at anything Other than doing absolutely nothing

Better than anyone else

A culture of style for the sake of style

As the evolution of marketing makes its mark And there’s lots of money to be made and lost

As its all driven by commercials and the calculating boss But with all this talk about the economy

I can’t help but wonder about the nature of money The government makes it and then asks for it back And all I really want to know is , really, seriously, What’s up with that?


that we need a new post ofice What the hell do you want from me?

Oh yeah that’s right, you want 30 g’s Well let me tell you about my generation I’m post agricultural revolution

Post industrial revolution Post information age Post millennial

Post internet Post nasa

Post man on the moon

Post programming languages Post hollywood

Post warhol Post car Post da vinci

Post renaissance

Post challenger disaster Post berlin wall tumbling Post hussein

Post clinton Post hip hop

Post rock and roll Post poetry

Post def jam Post tupac Post biggie Post eminem

Post linkin park Post jay z

Post nirvana Post dc talk Post newsboys

Post soundgarden Post motley crue Post 80’s

Post 90’s

Post wikipedia


Post friendster Post bubble Post youtube Post nintendo Post sega

Post xbox

Post World of Warcraft Post Second Life

Post Jesus

Post Muhammed Post Krishna

Post Saul WIlliams Post turn tables Post microphones Post electricity Post speakers

Post Billy Grahm Post Pope John Paul Post Ronald Regan

Post photos of earth from space ( that’s really really big) Post space stations

Post satellites

Post mini dv tapes Post voyager

Post star trek Post Lucy Post MASH

Post Superbowl Post Olympics Post BASIC Post HTML Post CSS

Post Actionscripting Post Kurzweil

Post Jeff Hawkins Post Peter Lynds Post Einstein

Post Proof of Relativity Post Orwell


Post Rand Post Dick Post Asimov Post Apple

Post Microsoft Post Photoshop Post Cinema4D Post Spielberg Post Lucas

Post Airplanes Post Helicopters Post Radio

Post CD’s Post MP3’s Post Cassettes

Post Desert Storm Post Waco

Post 9/11

Post Oklahoma City Bombing Post Columbine

Post Virginia Tech

Post the entire span of history back to the beginning of time Post right now

Post right now again

Post whatever amazing developments were discovered today Post whoever died today

Post whoever was born today

Post light bulbs which allow for light 24 hours a day which is a huge change

Post Conord

Post round the world in less than a day

Post people having traveled at over 10,000 miles per hour which is something that was unthinkable by all of recorded history up to maybe fifty years ago

Post chemical weapons Post atomic bombs

Post world war two which was the biggest war that was ever enacted ever in the history of all that exists on every single planet in the uni-verse as the chances of there being life on


other planets is slim but the odds of

other planets being so unbelievably reckless is so much less Post world war one

Post cuban missile crisis Post civil war

Post enlightenment Post transcendence Post time travel

Post multiverse concept Post laptop computers Post cell phones

Post psychology

Post prison industrial complex Post education industrial complex

Post more than you could possibly imagine and pre everything that is ever going to matter to the future and the future of our future

Post the point where it doesn’t matter how much you try and brainwash me, Ill never forget because im post a special kind of respect that i used to have for you.

Post the realization that our generation was sent to clean up your fuck ups and the generation after us is going to have to try and gure out what the hell for the rest of the future to do because basically the way i see it, our generation’s job is to protect the them from , well, you.


that lips army poem

Let us take a moment to talk about kisses!

The kind of kisses that melt your mouth, and rejuvenate your soul. The kind of kisses that have symphonies playing in the background. Let’s talk about the kisses that make you feel like you’re in a movie. Let’s talk about all the kisses that you’ve ever had.

Lovely succulent kisses, placed by a gourmet.

That let’s you taste the sweetness of the soul in a moment, when you find the universe embracing you,

pulling your hair, tasting your teeth, massaging the nape of your neck,

all at the same time in the darkness of a few eyes closed. The science of the kiss is but a suttle one,

to be explored by laborers of love who press on in the battlefield of sex, making motions with movement

that should never have been thought of. In these moments lip to lip

you nd out you’re up against someone that can make you flip and your soul starts burning again,

while you bequeath your tongue

to be placed inside the mouth of another. You succulently surrender!

Lose all thoughts of the moment,

as your exploring ecstasy and it feels so beautiful!,

just being who you are and remembering what you did when you were young.

Methodically break it down;

and assemble a perfect moment for yourself as you inhale the breath of your lover

as you taste the sweetness of their juice, massage the pain from their day.

All while you’re exploring the darkness together,


that as daylight breaks poem

As daylight breaks so do I , an evening spent with the written word. I go over and over the words I write and I can’t help but see this lit-

tle man that just wants to fight to infuriate and fill with rage. All these words that he’s putting on the page so many people walking around numb, if even a brief emotion can be felt any of them just pick one. Feel it to it’s fullness and lose oneself again Travel the paths of emotions and conquer. We’re all here on this little blue spaceship. It’s full of every-thing we need and if big enough pins were to prick our home I know what color it would bleed. It would bleed all the colors that we would ever need to see and in these moments infinity and his brother eternity would come and chant their chants and would suture the wounds be-cause the family of forever knows about All the time. All the time is just all the time All the time All the time All the time Its not fleeting to us, because we can see all the time, We can feel all the time, We can hear all the time, We can love all the time, We can pray all the time, And this is what we do, all the time. So as day is breaking so am I, Wondering who will piece together my heart? Who can love me and pull me back together? I’ll keep looking for you, because it has nothing to do with time. You’ll find me and I’ll find you, and then we’ll do what lovers do, and create some moments that we’ll always remember and then we’ll rub elbows in another dimension and I might have been better before but I broke character and ignored all the parts I didn’t ignore before so please pull me apart and tell me it will be better I was happy before I broken, maybe humpty dumpty can put me back together. I’ll write po-etry to the wind and hope the stars can comprehend the meaning that

I am seeking to derive from the moment I was born, til the moment I will die. I will be discerning and learning what this world is turning into and all the while I’ll wear a smile because it’s glorious and won-

drous to see the things I see. Especially the little shining dots that litter my thoughts and affect my lot in life, like my little sprites that come to light, calming my troubles and my past. Prove to me that once you do the math you’ll start to see your very own path light up and raise up off of the ground and it will make a swooshy sound like you’re just sup-posed to do it and i’ll move it along with my feet. I speak in tongues that get openly made fun of , i rewrite my scribblings so that you can understand my babblings because if you haven’t read my writing you haven’t read me and more to the point what i store in this box is what

i need to breathe because i’ll never feel let down by the language i’ll al-


ways feel like i let it down because i wasn’t unique enough and i wasn’t discrete enough but damn it I was always me.



that loveliest image poem I know what smart is …

smart is when your standing there observing time

while everyone else is lost in the moment. Smart is retaining the most detailed memory your culture.

Smart is a long line in a short poem.

Smart is following your heart while being guided by your mind. Smart is taking your time and living a story.

Smart is a manifesto that’s on the tip of your tongue. Smart is hyphenated words you created yourself.

Smart is Jack Kerouac crying six minutes past midnight. Smart is finding yourself right where you are.

Smart is what you cannot fathom when you’ve never been called it. Smart is when you feel the weight of the world on your very shoulders, pressing the t-shirt against your backbone because you can feel the swishing of the ocean massaging your neck and you can feel the hima-layas pinching a nerve and your not letting go because you know you can cure this sickness if you just think about it enough if you can just come up with a combination of words that can be passed on from one person to another that will make us all understand that which we need to understand to get on the same page and reform a Reformists age and move n’sync with the music and the motion that we need to be in motion with. It’s when your thinking of all of this while your watching the world change and you just want to make your change on the global mindscape so that you can say you existed and so that the computer can say you existed and so that we all can say indeed “He existed and

you know what he was smart , wasn’t very tidy but damn he was smart.”

Smart is an addiction.


that trapped in reality poem A young poet trapped in reality

I set my sights on just what I need to see I wrap my words in analogies Metaphorically I inhale thee

And breath you back out Spastically

Its like math to me

I’m formulating strategies

Because I feel like rap isn’t the path for me I need to poetically get back to my roots

And see who are the people that im supposed to move Verbocity

In this realm you see

Is all that matters when the world is free

And English is the weapon that I was born to squeeze Rat a tat tat

I have a feeling its like that

As the peacemaker gets sent to back of the room

I can understand why unindoctrinated person simply pushin a broom I go over and over these stories I hear

The more I marinate the more it becomes clear War is the weapon of choice this year

If you think you’re a leader stand up and be clear As we reprogram the matrix

With these codes you see It’s all about simplicity And the least you need Is the answer indeed

Because we’re movin it now and were building a crowd Were pushin the movement and building it loud

A sonic youth that’s born to be proud

Were reaching nirvana and I can feel it now Sublimeness on a whole new dimension

I wanted an answer because I asked a question The universe made me and here I am Standing in front of you just a lonely man With these words that I create


As they are all I have

Preprepared paradoxes that I pop in my gun

I unload and shoot shots just to practice my aim Flowing through these stenciled energy patterns I feel found when I walk the trails I blaze

Going places that I know I’ve made It’s the passion that I crave

Your nothing and then you end up in the grave So while you’re alive do all that you can do Don’t worry about the powers that be

Just worry about the power that’s inside of we

because its we that have all the roads that we have to walk Some of us just know how to talk the talk

While we amble around this tiny park That’s changing more each and every day

Because were movin it now and were building a crowd Were pushin the movement and building it loud

A sonic youth that’s born to be proud

Were reaching nirvana and I can feel it now Hh Hh Hh Hh

Breathing the breath that I was born to breathe What is all of this supposed to mean

Ask a poet and he’ll describe it indeed

Because confusing convoluted language is all around me So confuse em back but with a message embedded Something that will shock em and will get em thinking That maybe they are sailing in a ship that is sinking They can’t keep on actin the way that they do

We’re spending time in world that is shrinking

We’re trapped on a planet that is full of mixed up missions Leaders going this way and that

And no one really knows how to react

When a new voice emerges that calms the seas

You just wait and watch what these metaphors mean to me I’m crafting my language to mean something indeed

I’ve heard all the stories and I can’t take it any more I’m tired of listening to tired people telling tired tales

I want to speak my mind and strike you with the tales I’ve made I’ve been around the world and seen many a creature


I’ve even spoken with God and he says im a preacher So I’m standing here with these words that aren’t mine

I know im borrowing everything I have and I’ll pay it back in time So listen well and listen good

Because were movin it now and were building a crowd We pushin the movement and building it loud

A sonic youth that’s born to be proud

Were reaching nirvana and I can feel it now.


that I’ve been traveling poem

Thirty revolutions around the constantly mysterious glowing orb and here I am. How many times have I seen that chariot of fire make its way across that floating ocean? The sister of the sun evokes just as much awe from a simpleton like me, as that pearl colored majesty makes its way across a crow colored spectacle filled with tiny needle points of light. I’m standing here on an equally spellbinding sphere in amaze-ment; just me and my blood staring out at all of this that never ends. Somehow this all fits together and I am one of the observers of this entity. This all encompassing spectacle is very real and is the birthplace of billions who, just like me with their own sets of questions stare and ponder like myself. I am daily amazed that I was given the chance to stare at this unending poem. One day I will lose my ability to observe this and like a beautiful tradition I am in the midst of my existence awaiting my departure. Together for the rest of forever we are here together and collectively we have our questions and maybe you can answer some of mine and I can try to answer some of yours then we can commune and share some food and laughter as we explore our sentience with one another and part ways back to our sleeping quarters that rest beneath the chariots of fire and the keepers of the night.


that beautiful symphony poem

There is a beautiful symphony awaiting the choirs of angels who are ready to sing the praises of creation. At any moment the universe is ready to set free its caretakers of song and announce its presence to sleeping souls Who love beautiful traditions more than contemporary technology because so much happened so fast And now we need a new answer to our age old questions because the old age old questions were answered Apparently yes, we can build anything we wish to build, so what now? We went to the moon and built an internet enabled personal computing metropolitan gargantuan planet That still needs its poems. We have the latest conceptualized contraptionologica but we still need that ancient alphabet to run it. This future cannot exist without the past because the past did the important dificult work that we today like to call survival. We dedicated a movie to a single man living on an island, three thousand years ago that was called, well it would have been called Tuesday if the phrase Tuesday had been invented yet. I don’t know how dificult a war is to fight but we used to be evenly matched now we enlist genocidal robotic marines To defeat stone throwing McGuyvers who just want to fight the fight that we fought against germany. We

are their monster and we never blink. I believe in deities you cannot imagine because I uplift my sentience to places you will not go. Won’t you throw your weight around because we used to commune at work and now we have no more communion. I’m worried that we lost some-thing important that you will never remember needing as I pine for an adult life I never was able to know and you grow in a world that you never needed to question. I’m on the edge questioning my existence while you are just a stones throw from never knowing what you have the luxury to never know. They wanted to build and you are happy to have it while I am just staring at the two of you Ready to use your tools beautifully.


that angel irises poem

There was salvation to be found inside angel irises

that stared through the decisions I made and here I am awaiting my entrance to heaven or hell

but neither matters because both places are not here and here is neither of those places

So where is this exactly in the grand scheme of things?

Your religious speak of the joyful and terrible places that await us but I would like to know

What was the joyful or terrible place that preceded our emergence Into this place as I would call this place more joyful than heaven and more terrible than hell

Which is exactly what you avoid looking at while you wait for places that will never be

You could never understand the trauma you have caused the free

As you took advantage of free speech and 501(c)3 and now the money is all you need to believe

So I sit back with my book of poetry and laugh because you chase the notions that your books will last forever

and I tell you that even your god has a shelf life when someone like me writes the book of life

that you won’t be allowed to read because you damaged me I lived a life so perfectly and then you brought me into this and thought nothing of the kids.


that calm amidst the turmoil poem i stood inside a hurricane and licked a little lollipop

i knew that all that wind would very soon stop but not before it tore a tree from terra firma and planted roots inside my chest cavity where the fluid of my life came spilling out and wrapped itself around hickory arteries that held open houses once a week

for fledgling college students who have no idea what to say or what a painting is all about or why a sculpture matters

or why life drawing is sensual

my arteries are lled with poetry cells

that are mutating daily and keeping me alive and my veins hold my vanity because

there’s someone inside of me

that thinks this poetry will inspire thee so i keep writing while art shows

are filled with milling students and self absorption keeps me coming back to my words that

wreak havoc on my operating system that has me saving lives three at a time screaming in the center of a hurricane

that the weather will always remain the same


that shout out to voltron poem i recombined my mind like voltron

after it was scattered from discovering the truth and now that i can see the truer side of you

it makes me want to take away all the blue and paint your eyelids peppermint shades while i reach around your middle

and hug you while i tickle and listen while you giggle

throwing jokes along your path because i know they make you laugh what better way to be tempted by defeat than through the avenues of love.


that lets get it on poem

i want to wrestle you on top of the sheets and slide between satin

and glide over some silk

and then i want to taste your tongue and massage your gums with my lips while we engage in behavior

we have been waiting to experience since before we knew how to exist and so i kiss you on the forehead while you lay your head on my sleave tonight we will know what love is because we took the time to believe


that what I would have said poem “can’t we all just get along?” is what rodney said… well what he should have said instead was …


that’s all that needed to be said and all that needs to change

is police oficers who treat people inhumanely with their weaponry and their demeanor as they are professionals and need to understand that the people they are policing for the most part are not

and could never be professional human beings and that sometimes things happen that are against the law but are not illegal

does that make sense? the law is not the law all the time its depends on the situation every situation

because sometimes theft is necessary and sometimes so is a joint you do not own us and this is not yours we respect you

but only so long as you respect us and that is true for all


that what i would have also done poem i guess i don’t understand because if i was jesus

id have been repentant and sorrowful and maligned about my actions facing crucifixion i would have done more than standing there speaking in my head asking the wind to come and make it all better again

no if i had been jesus i would never have turned over the tables in a temble that was not mine

i would never have faced breaking and entering in a business establish-ment

that just wouldn’t have been my style

but you love him and want to be like him

and worship him and all that he stands for yet you mostly seem not to read

the book the defines your deity

because if you did you would never follow a man that was an accom-plished petty thief

now maybe this was impressive in latin and the kings english

but translated into modern day contemporary magazine style writing english

its just sad what you would consider a god among men

if we are going to worship a man who gave sight to the blind with mud lets really worship men who give sight to the blind with steel

if we are going to worship a man who allowed people to walk lets really worship men who bring cripples to mobility every day if we are going to worship a man who treated lepers

lets worship real people who work with lepers every day lets worship the real gods and let the false ones fall away.


that professional beggar poem the more I learn about religion

the more I just want to be left alone your stylized begging

won’t get you any closer to heaven and you call your meetings services when your just serving yourself filling roles we don’t need anymore with a book that you twist into your messages that you strangely need

to fulfill your mission

that you feel the need to achieve for your 501(c)3

I believe that you launder more bills than you do souls

and its something of a mystery to me how you would rather uplift Truth

as opposed to uplifting Literacy

because if you take the time to read the book you find its not what you say it is

and compared to contemporary society its not even impressive.


that singular sentience poem

I’ve been experiencing tryouts for infinity here amidst the talent pools of earth

saturated sensations of singular sentience

I am at the center of my serenade that I share with the cosmos The beauty of existence hit me like a soul train

I have finally found the shore and am standing staring at my ocean of emptiness

And am ready to begin filling myself with the memories of better days It takes a long time to love someone who hates themselves so please be patient with me

I’ve spent time at four mental hospitals in three cities on two continents and still have shards of insanity stuck in my eye

I am the person I have always been only more distilled and potent so bare with me as I unleash my potential that was held back

by pill pushers and republican empires I only wish to serve and create wealth

won’t you take me by the hand and I will earn you a grand because my story ends the same way it began



that shirt shaker poem

shake that shirt now lady shake them pants listen to the music let’s start that dance because we’re surrounded by the music and we both want to lose it

while we love each others groove and the rhythm makes us move

and i want to flow with you around the lights and the smoke

because watching you in those clothes makes me want to explode with emotion and its something like a mystery

how you make these sensations come over me but there you are and the time is right

so when we start the tango just let go while we let each other know

that we don’t need a stage because this is our show and this is our night.


that what i want poem I want to explode with emotion and fall into the light.

I want to bask in the darkness and wait for my wife.

I want to hold her close and i want to kiss her eyes.

I want to live every moment as if i am about to die.


that memories of youth poem i remember the first time i ever danced

i remember the first time i let the music harmonize my pants i remember the way my shirt felt

i remember yeah i remember the music young as young could be i danced like i couldn’t seeand didn’t care about being free

but i was


that waiting for fame poem i think i shall be famous someday

this work is what i want to be known for you never know just what you’ll find when you’re waiting for life

to try and take your last dime it’s no use being fruitful

it’s no use being wise

it’s only useful to look forward to sleep

awaiting the day you can be at one with the deep knowing that you spent your youth

preparing for your adult life and spent your adult life preparing for your old age

to be famous for the way you moved through the trials we all face

is recognition worthy of working towards

because when those that don’t know what you know know that you know what they don’t know

and that you are buying drinks we all find time to smile


that god type language poem ala fomta yoshama yomoyoy

I used to be a little boy

And I fell prey to the words decoy So maybe I should enjoy

This time that I have

As I never get back the minutes That I spend with idle hands But with my fingers moving

I can move and choose The right to refuse

Any moment that comes my way Because I am learning how to drive The ocean away

So that there is that much more land to travel in and yeah it’s all I know and all I see

and together we can find the time to be free.


that i have days like this poem You have to love the dick

We have to love the clit We’ll worship each other Together

And find orgasms Forever.


that ode to elizabeth poem Suit on, shoes wet, and willing to dance for the women I haven’t kissed yet Saturday night and the groove was right

Grammar’s provided the space and Goddess provided the night So I sparked my consciousness and rubbed my hands

The ladies were lovely and the music was grand On into the night I was dancing for her hand

And we found ourselves from time to time smiling like genies just freed from the lamp

Nice young blonde, who knew how to move We canter banded and swimdoddled while the music gave our souls something to fondle

Round and round each others imagination we moved Step for step we each knew what we knew

The whole club seemed to be in the know

That there was some real life dancing at a real life show

The drinks were being downed and the smiles were moving around The mirror behind the bar doubled the occupancy

of the space we resided in

And when she and me held hands and spun

We smiled our smiles and felt the feeling of having fun

I felt a happiness down inside of me that is hard to describe Because the dance floor to me is where all of life comes alive As the chaos we experience in a moment like that

Is the greatest moment that can occur to a writer who pulls his words out of eternity’s hat.


that new york city fox poem Oh she’s a master of the universe in training

Gaining accolades like some people acquire clothing

Moving through life ready to roller derby her way into the history books

Waiting to take the stage and gain those Vagina Monologue looks As she brings eruptions of laughter that matter

And she has her special someone who makes her shine like the dia-mond that she is

Refined through pressure and her temperature couldn’t be hotter Lined with stars down her side because she is her own constellation

It’s a sensation when she calls because through it all she has been so tall The fox of her city , and when she gets angry she might say … ya’ll!


that time for some poetry poem now it’s time for some poetry.

we upload pages like prayers to God; a global consciousness is our maker, as it takes a globe of consciousness to solve the problem

of keeping everyone, alive and so we strive to be ever present poets

awaiting our time to shine

when you acknowledge our words and our worlds that we have carefully refined

for you.


that staring at my navel poem As I gave birth to my navel,

I saw myself unfold inside my soul, existence saw fit to remove me from infinity,

I’ve always existed and always will but different dimensions serve different purposes within reality.

I think! I know! I feel! I see!

I understand me, but wish to craft true beauty, something original exists just behind my eyes and I am blind to the reasons why my words

always fall short of the perfection I wish to behold. I pull combinations of words from the cosmos hoping that the next articulation of meaning

will allow me to transcend and defend my existence.


that squeeze a booty poem Small town beauties,

big city cuties,

both have squeezable booties.


that come together for a storm poem You’re so cool

And I’m so warm

And when we get together There will be a storm

As we engulf each other’s coasts

And toast to the moments we spend together because I love the way your skin feels

and your moans tell me you love mine so let us dine on each other’s ether

while we seek to place hurricanes in sensuous places while tornados find rainbows in our eyes

and i can hear the thunder in your voice can you feel the lightening in mine

channel nine could never have predicted this no matter what the weather forecast might be

no one can tell us what the temperature is going to be when you are laying next to me.


that alan ginsberg of the future poem I’ve seen the best minds of my generation

rise to the heights of astonishment

while I became lost in my own linguistic epiphanies Three months from thirty I contemplate the

concept that I may have another hundred left to run write and live where are these wording coming from

and where will they go when I am finished marathonning through existence drunk on english amazed at the places that my days would have me go so I throw out caution and care while i delight

in simple equivocations of the heart

that stem from ideas gleaned from decades

of learning about centuries that came before me.


that muhajadin poem

I am the master of my mastery of mastering mastery I am the muhajadin of my mind!

I am the angel that tends my thoughts.

I share my soul with you when the time is right!

I stumble through existence drunk on philosophy.

I manipulate evolution as I embrace enlightened desires! I feel the fluctuations of time down my spine.

I live for the rhyme because I love the sublime!


that engaged in my fantasy poem You could never love me, but you might love my words,

as what I leave behind is better than what I am right now. What I give to you is better than what you give to me, and from my point of view in the galaxy

the universe revolves around my soul. I am the center of all that exists

and at the same time so are you.

What you are to you, is more important than what I am to me, to you. What I am to me, is more important than what you are to you, to me. Our words are fluctuations of energy that we pass between us

as our collective energy unlocks the galaxy and makes tools that equip our chemistry.

Mathematically I know the equation that portrays you as equal to me, but at the same time I keep unraveling this riddle

that grows more convoluted as I grow.

I think the internet should be proof enough that we are the greatest beings that we know,

as I am the cat that chases the mouse with my paw playing games like click tac toe.

Laugh when you read this so that you can let me know, that you understand where this poet is trying to go. Because I am the ring master of my own three ring show.


that what’s on your mind poem A B C D and the rest of these letters

1 2 3 . , !

Our toolkit, our english toolkit, that is our sonic delicatessen giving us the patterns we need to express ourselves

and let those around us know what our minds are processing. Are you thinking about mathematics or philosophy?

Might you be thinking of poetry or prose? Could you be thinking of cooking or machinery? Are you unraveling comedy or song?

What are your neurons doing to your mind? What is your consciousness brewing?

What are the words that you have yet to speak? We want to know.


that single haiku poem Just a puddle,

I am,

looking for an ocean.


that simple truth poem You can’t make culture,

unless your in love,

because it’s only through love that nothing makes sense.


that bread crumb trail poem I’m laying bread crumb trails to my heart, hoping that

if you’re lost

my heart is where you will find home.


that facts of life poem

I don’t have enough looks to be handsome. I don’t have enough brains to be a genius.

I don’t have enough strength to be strong, and I don’t have enough age to be old.


that infinite universe poem inside an infinite universe.

You move infinite ways, marking the mayhem

you feel inside yourself with your love. Spilling out through all your shakras And you know he’ll shock ya

with what he does with his tongue. You never know what to expect

but you suspect it has something to do with sex… and you don’t know why.

The anatomy of the kiss is this;

you take a moment

lock eyes with someone, then you feel the moment move with passion

to the point of contact where light subsides and tongues unhide. You see

this is the beginning of ecstasy. Now you’re feeling the smoothness; as you suck in the breath of life, maybe enact a small smile.

You’re speeding up and you’re pulling some hair. You’re not letting the juices spill all over

because you’re unleashing controlled chaos. You can feel it together

with hands

flowing a multitudes of motion; uncontrolled passion mounts; you can feel the work up;

as you work out the finer points of the moments, making all the beauty that you would love to feel. You do it all with your mouth open

like a cowboy you roam the range, spill over into the soul of this cowgirl,


sweetly singing the swan song of sensuality, laughing when you feel your teeth get licked. You pinch the hip

get a grip

laugh a sweet laugh,

at the ludicrousness of the moment.

You don’t care that she’s pulling your hair because you feel passion.

You can feel the dare to be more than just another lover,

you try and be the one that gives her something that she’ll never forget as you strive for unforgettable.

Tightening your grip your starting to flip,

then the moment stops; ; ; you lick your lips… awaiting that second kiss.


that i would be terrible at war poem They called themselves physicists,

they created the A BOMB!

They called themselves engineers, they created the TANK!

They called themselves intelligent, yet they were quite not.

Creating our very ending, they waged war with death while we waged war against.

We’re not trying to build a better way to die,

We’re building all the reasons that will make you cry. We need you to shed tears on Capital Hill.

See the blood that you’ve caused to be bled. If we do what we we’re meant to do,

fluids will descend and you’ll know who the new men are. We’re reaching from afar and we need to surgically be precise, Let you know about the pacifist counterstrike.

That will have you scratching your mind state, have you itching and scratching,

and wondering,

what was it we were fighting over again?


that you have to have balls poem There will never be

A better invention, than a nice round ball.


that truthinista poem They say time is money!

Ah, but they are wrong! Money is motion!

It’s something I give you That gets you to move

the way I want you to move. It’s something you give to me, that makes me want to move. In this truth we

find that money is in fact motion… Another phallic fallacy,

is that all men are created equal. This used to be true,

and became a broken document when men became created invetroically and intravenously. When you started creating

men and women

with skinny metallic penises

that you placed inside the vaginas

of bacteria you changed the course of existence when you started using the PENIS 2.0

with the Beta Vagina.


that working on words poem I write today not like I wrote before,

I dig a little deeper and explore a little more, unraveling thoughts as if I’m unraveling thread. Spinning a tale that’s just beautiful to see.

I can’t wait to see what the next word is that will come out of me! What’s the next word that will prove I do breathe?

Digging for inspiration seems to fit all my needs. I can write until my hands start to break.

When they’re broken I’ll write with some toes,

and keep on pushing these words out from my soul.


that what the future is poem The future is …

half the calories twice the pushups. The future is …

a healthy place to be

a beautiful place to see. The future is … running after work

and jamming on the weekends. The future is …

learning the ropes

and weaving some more. The future is … cosmology and astrology

networked astrophysically. The future is …

gaia’s dream

with a pagan lean. The future is …

poetry wrapped inside melodies right now


that seriously poem

I can’t break with tradition I’d feel the need to fix it.


that money in the mouth poem I’m full of five dollar words,

and three dollar phrases, crafting out these creations I derive placid pleasure from my sunken treasure

that I share each breathless day.


that kind of beauty poem She was so breathtaking,

she left me winded,

because as she walked around the room she attracted exhalations

of all who saw her

It made it hard for her to breathe. So beautiful she became suffocated as she stole our CO2.


that emotional moisture poem Her face was like a tear drop

falling to thy sky.

God was like the tear duct telling his child goodbye.


that lightning horsepower poem I sipped the nectar of the Gods

they shared their juice with me. I believed I saw the future when I stared at these deities. They joked about the future, they traveled to the past.

They were everything in a moment and I was just traveling by.

They believed me to be immortal. They said they saw the signs.

I told them of my working mother. I told them of my absent father. They came and spoke a word to me: “Son you are a deity among deities! Come and take your throne!

Let all the world know!

Your blood runs like thunderbolts! Your neurons shine like lightning! Your muscles twitch with horsepower!

Your skin is smooth like polished silver! Come and spend some time with we, we will show you the tower.

Your place is here amongst the stars.

Your life is lovely now embrace the power.


that tragic american story poem My American Dream had a house fire,

and now my 2.3 kids are homeless, and my white picket fence is charred, and I’m standing in the rubble,

wondering how did all this happen to me?


that first two lines are my favorite poem I dig my grave with a silver spoon,

the very same position i hold my wife in, while we whisper dreams in each others ears,

trying to build a little slumber while we lumber away. We love what we see during the day

but our dreams are meant to guide our nightmares, like shepherds keeping them in guided groups flocks that make them easy to see.

I walk up to a nightmare, tie its legs together,

and shear myself a set of socks from its wool.

Now my toes are kept cozy from my conquered fear and in a little more than a year

I’ll be a deity to these sheep.


that yes this is completely true poem They say that failure is a big part of success…

well failure is also a big part of failure.


that lets talk about children poem This is a test of the Emergency Broadcasting System! We seem to have too few females

birthing beautiful children so

we are now casting broads to play the part of mother of 2.3 children,

who just loves her white picket fence.

I’ll play the father who comes home from work everyday to watch the children play and from this foundation we can celebrate the tenacity our species has for breeding

because earth will have no more men or women if we spend no more time in the bedroom

but it looks like we did and birthed some kids

so I guess we did our part, even through we have no art even though we have no music

even though we have no photographs even though we have no drawings weven though we have no poems

we have our children

so i guess we did our job, didn’t we?


that beautiful infinity poem

Oh won’t you imagine with me a beautiful infinity And I promise we will share some fermented forevers As we become divinely inebriated on the elixirs

That we pass to each other in heightened levels of conversation Where we establish our precipice inside of each other’s mind And drop candy into the cortex tissue from mountain tops Only found through spending time with your brethren


that 1984 reference poem I used to be a pick up artist

Until love scolded me and told me to be less bold And sent my life into a tailspin of turmoil

All because I wanted to touch you with pure elegance I remember when kisses used to be currency

In the sweetest way possible I remember when love marks

Were marks of honor held up in the battlefield of love We used to dance because it was fun

Then we danced because we were special Now we dance because we remember

The days when the suns rays hit us like dandelions I think I could muster some party

If you could muster some wine And together we could read 1984 And commit our very last crime.


that abuse me poem

I write like thoroughbred searching for a track I just love to run man its got me on auto attack My hands at the keyboard my mind at the helm

You may think me crazy but I know me too well I love my well thought out ways

I craft sentences to better days You may think I am crazy

But I know I am me

I’ve seen your world and what it has And to me that’s just the point

Won’t you imagine with me a better way So that we can see a better day

Or are you too busy catering to old news Old crews and old abuse

The abuse is the best part of life

Because then you get to write about how you healed That’s not a perfect deal but it is if you get used to it.


that hollywood poem It used to be called Holly Would And if she would why wouldn’t you

So lets start to act because if you don’t Holly will like she has so many times before Tinsel Town I see you now

As we feel strong in the land of the Cincinnatus Scholars Searching for a perfection that can never be

Looking for the W to enmesh with my E

And your leading lady just might have the style we need.


that halle berre poem And then Halle Berre begot

the Holly Berry

And who doesn’t know the power of a Branch of Holly

As the holidays come every year

And we remember the power of the Holly That mythical plant that brings lips to lips In the army of the kisses

That are showered like lavender on mother’s day


that angelina jolie poem We speak so highly of our heroines

Until they start to understand themselves

And take themselves places they have never been Your story makes its way across the universe

As you are a goddess among gods

And in that moment of Heroine’s afliction

I can imagine you felt better than a million dishes You will never have to wash

Because we depend on your soul

As we grieve the lessons we will never learn Because we don’t have the time or the ability And when I see you I don’t see a Tomb Raider

No instead I see a young woman with children on her heart And from city to city this is not the beginning

no this is just the start

Of a moment that we will remember forever As time breathes in the wind

And we can heal any wound

So ignore the voices that snipe from the woods Because how could your critics

Possibly understand the motivation behind the temptations That bring about the elation of the cosmos

And everyone forgets that there are reasons why heaven is hard to achieve

Because for you to receive your blessings that we will never understand In a needle in a vein in an artery and then straight to your heart Where the art of living is being explored and I know you want to feel real

Because I know that you are and when anyone looks at you askance And wonders why you had the chance

Just remember that the world is your oyster And Angelina you are the pearl

That grew up in a world that is stranger than fiction

And we appreciate your presence because being around you Feels like the sensation that heroine brings to you

And I can only imagine that one day The world will understand.


that good from good poem Preparing for the emergence of manhood I stand announcing my freedom to myself Needing nothing but a heartbeat

I let the paperwork recycle itself

As I never wanted trees to die for me Surrounded by situations that confuse me

I’ve heard I confuse you as much as the other way around Confusion sets in and I comfort myself with letters Piecing together pieces of sound

Searching for meaning where none can be found

Lifting the language up to Gods that only exist in conversation I find solace in the understanding

that most of you don’t understand

Maybe you never wanted to or maybe you never could Atheism as a true form of honesty, envelops me

Rips apart the membranes of my cerebral tissue Sometimes I just wonder what’s wrong with you I know who you see when you look at me

The same man reflected in every mirror I see Sometimes I think the stained glass was meant to be The eternal sunshine of the spotless mind

Counting the days until infinity

The same amount of time it takes to create a perfect society Most of the writing I read triggers my allergies

I don’t think anyone really listens to me

Sometimes I wish I could still believe in the heavenly You stand there worshiping your ignorance

In groups of millions , never expecting anything to change You don’t really want to be who you say you are Sometimes I think you dream of war

The same situations I call nightmares You seem to wait for

Cherishing your crosses like you cherish your swords Honoring your saints like you honor your money Worshiping your system like your worship your history Most of you never did anything greater

than making phone calls and drafting plans


Punching buttons and moving mice Watching others thinking it’s your life I see you standing there on capital hill

Drafting bills to make sure someone gives me my oblong pill Whose to say what’s to be in my mind?

I read and write like im transcribing my life Observing my dna being etched out by my fingers

Learning about the man my subconscious wants me to be Looking for the patterns of life

Walking the streets of downtown cincinnati Staring at babies born to be tools

Looking at me calling me the fool Your 401k will only keep you fed

so that you can continue to be the walking dead Throwing parties to celebrate each time you laugh Posting flyers to advertise the new friends you’ve made You find safety in your numbers I find safety in the music You’re used to being wealthy and

if you don’t believe visit the grocery Car after car adorns the road

As the lemmings travel to their next place to complain You don’t want to live but you’re not ready to die

Atheism scares you because it shows you who you really are Takes away your heaven and your dreams

Shines a light at your forehead like an infrared beam Lets you know that better days come from better people I’ve talked to people that don’t think you measure up But here we are in the assembly line of life

What did you want to make today?

Because honestly, I’m running out of words to say This might be the last time you see me

I don’t think I’ll be coming back this time It might be nice to be remembered

I just know I won’t be the one remembering me.


that angel poem

As the language enters a new day and all the shadows begin to fall away we see the meanings we’re supposed to say they could never plan the planet better than those that Plan It.

Planning it on the Planet As the son begins to rise in the east and the companies begin to earn their prophet the man they’ve waited years to speak to and onIntelligence like the command begins to help people understand that new ways of thinking are in high demand and were all DIY as the Internet makes people shine.

Conduits to the mind, glowing screnes, so serene, no reason to behold the reason we’re all growing old but the change we’ll make will create the state that will help entire nations create a better way to travel to the place we all find peace, As there’s no west to conquer, smooth and hollow we’re allowed to borrow time if we’re going to promise to make something peaceful.

As God is like that Angel who wants you to know your P’s and Q’s and when he sees that mission statement , that business plan That envelops every nation and every woman child and man Hell (he’ll) smile and say … now you understand.


that sci-final exam poem We’re reading science fiction daily

The sun is good The sun is bad

The sunblock works The sunblock doesn’t Coffee is good Coffee is bad

Eggs are good Eggs are bad Milk is good Milk is bad Fat is good Fat is bad Cigarettes kill

Well they always kill Weed is good

Weed is bad

It’s getting hotter It’s getting colder Glaciers melting Glaciers freezing Evolution is real Evolution isn’t Science fiction man

We’re just reading gobs of science fiction.


that listen to the poet’s song poem Just another

flavor in the language Come and taste the rhyme Everythings gonna change

Sit back relax have a good time Were just rearranging some verbs

And speaking in the tongue of absurd So come and craft with us

Like people never thought we could But when were finished

We’ll be rhymin in the studio Takin photos and makin art

Because this is more than just a beginning This is really just the start

Hundred of poems before this But this is where I begin to depart And make manifest the destiny That is in store for me

As its the mind that morphs reality

So don’t fall victim to chemical atrophy Keep thinking and tryin new things And listen to the song

The poet sings.


that grace poem

It takes a couple sentences to define most words and the more words it takes to define a word the more power that word takes on and it takes all the words ever written to define humanity and since no man can understand all the written words it takes a group of people to define the meaning of one man and all the words that define humanity stem from the prophets whose lives have confounded and helped us find ourselves as our minds are made up of the shadows of greater men than us and in the shadows of great men you’ll find lessons that cultivate societies and grace.


that my type of romance poem we smoked cigarettes for the cancer

we always wanted something foreign in our bodies like the tongue of a woman from germany

that sipped too much whiskey and now she’s feeling frisky

so we slip away for a moments love or liebe in her language

she liked me from the start and her nipples tasted tart

with clothes strewn through the room this isn’t about making someone swoon just two strangers meeting for a moment that lasted as long as the cigarette

she asked of me that brought us to this moment

and past the point of ecstasy.


that young midwestern poem All the world is waiting for you to move so move Be a part of the show pushing life to the extreme If you want this Encore … bring it hardcore

Lets do more than they did before More tools than they had

So more is expected … drop out of being lazy Wake from the sleepy sleepy

And lets get this show going

Moving doing losing and then winning Coming for the trophy

That were all hip to share

Bring your best words but beware There are many many snares Booby trapps and prizes

Make a million and then start sizing

Up the competition like your on a holy mission And you don’t trust anyone because

reality makes it that way I wasn’t raised this way But this is the way I am

Family packs of wolves rushing the stage Making the moves to make it made

And were making the grade Moving the moves that make sense You want to see a man hustle Watch me run for the ball

I’m almost out of the gates

Give me a year and watch me move

You might not know the thoughts I’m working with So smooth and in the groove

What are you going to do

When we make mention fo the fact that Were in a Sim City

pushin for the mayor And then some more

If we can get it all organized We can have some nice dinner


And bring in the people we want Property inspectors in the pocket Of a pool hall

So squeaky clean you’ll think I was pristine And I just might be

So let’s keep on the real Kindness isn’t weakness

it’s just knowledge keeping me humble Dodging the destiny that they said they had made for me

And fighting to craft a reality my way Unseen forces

Molding everything around me But then you get hip to the energy And you push back sublimely …

Were just a conversation away from Nirvana So lets say those words and see what happens When we break away from the absurd

And bring some common sense to the curb We’ll never be east coast or west coast Were midwest young and reckless

That’s right we wreck less because we’re better drivers Than you are.


that nice way to talk poem I tied my shoes

with fat string theory laces and got ready to run through the warm wormhole that rests between her legs

hoping to impregnate the Goddess with some test tube sperm

that I’ll break as I make my attempt to procreate.


that let us think about money poem

Have you ever really thought about money? This is what it is from where I stand. The government knows they make it and you don’t Then they tell you that you owe them something that they make They make paper and pass it out among the crowds Its like we could be living so much more peacefully But the government is taxing us, and what are taxes?

Taxes are moments when you are forced to give currency back to the men who gave it to you. Money is off the gold standard, so it’s all based on faith. Don’t stop and look around , you might question what you see. Especially if you spend a lot of time at the university.

What is money? Look at it. I don’t know anyone that knows how to physically make it. I hear the government has money factories where it’s made en mass. Wouldn’t the society that makes the money have to exist without money? It comes from somewhere it comes from some-thing I know we don’t need it but as soon as I start thinking like this A wave of thought passes over me reversing my thoughts I’m sorry for questioning reality I didn’t mean to be this way But nothing seems to make sense and I have never been to your planet before.


that lifestyle of the artist poem Pleasure derived from pain

The lifestyle of the artist Moving through the tightest

Spaces looking for that which encases That next awkward position

Where something happens And nothing does

Because a moment turned into A lifetime

And it isn’t just because Of some drugs Complicated complexions And opening eyes

I remember the very last time I cried And I forget the last time I lied

Must have been a couple years before I died I am not alive

Though you see me

I am but a capsule of my past Floating through the future Awaiting that which awaits me Where is it that I am supposed to be Someday you might see

That a beautiful panhandler I can be.


that how i learned to steal poem Finding the emotions that you enjoy each day

Is like finding the time to fly and

fly away Each day So I say

Drugs were never meant for me anyways I had to betray

That who I used to be And forever

Is what I used to see But now

I’m dying in the light Because it isn’t bright enough To me to consider it bright But my fingers just might Touch another key

And program that combo That will end this jumbo Facilitated dimension

That is either just my minds interpretation of real Or there is something I can’t see

That will be mine

When I learn how to steal.


that clownish poem

What’s up with what’s down and I feel like a clown Just sad enough to make you cry

And just happy enough to make you laugh A designer clown

Here to make you frown Because I can’t draw

But these words can flow

It’s not like they show what I know To graduate into that big audition That when Ill start to tow

The line that is mine And I think I can see

That none of this means anything to me.


that words yet spoken poem

A new language was awaiting me words yet spoken , a formal decree that the world has succumbed to blasphemy and if you don’t believe, just shake that laffy taffy and get back to me, hopefully you’ll laugh with me as we watch the chicken heads fry like KFC Colonel Sanders , McDonald’s and Wendys. Damn it’s just so plain to see we’d rather be wealthy than healthy. They’re not sellin oranges and apples to keep the

doctor away, they’re selling grease and grime to bring him closer so that they have a reason to check in that next blood donor that they’ll suck dry like vampires a pint at a time. No ceremony when they take your blood. No religion in the medicine. ( which is where is should be ) Just pins and needles and meds and feds collecting insurance for the red white and blue cross and blue shield. So many people involved in the scam that the man with the knife cuts once and gets paid twice, hiding behind the logic that you can’t put a price on life but they do every sin-gle time, we’re at war. World War Three is happening right behind your eyes. You’ll never see the bullet enter your brains because the bullets are the lessons that have you trained Yes sir! no sir! I’ll die for my country sir! I’ll die for the rich man whose controlling numbers metaphorical abstractions that just ain’t happenin. Who said the constitution is more than just a piece of paper man. We’re changing and so are they. Bet-

ter keep your eyes on the sky and two on the man that says he loves to pray, because there’s no God saving us today. The christians talk about the righteous way! The muslims talk about the ocean! The jews have their hebrew lessons! The atheists are at least honest today pointing out that all the people pointing to God have a book that straight tells them what to say while the atheists sit under the stars and heavens. Cyber-netic society started with the first symbol. I want something real that

I can see with my own eyes. I don’t need a miracle when I can see the stars in the sky. I’ll fight and I’ll die and ask every question why.

My neurons are firing My chemistry is made up. I’ve got a message to share and I know I need to stand up shout and fight and say what’s wrong, finding solace in the language, furthering the cause chanting

out these spells until my throat gets raw. Step into the world of Ontol-ogy It’s getting serious now. You never knew just what to do Until they showed you the information that made a computer do it to. The story is changing and so are we. I remember when I loved Christianity, I too


used to be a sheep. Something about a well spoken man claiming the truth. So who knows the truth, when there’s too much for anyone to know? This isn’t ancient Rome when there were three books filled with all of it This is 2006 with the internet, the book’s bigger than it ever was and the computers are starting to do all the reading because we’re get-ting control of this ship, plant earth I mean we’re turning Gaia into God and when we’re done we’ll leave in ships that will leave you in awe. I’m serious man, I’ve seen the future people are leaving , gonna happen, sit back relax and enjoy the show… Express yourself futuristically though art is the evolution of language step up and grow a pair say something fierce and then do the poet stare.


that where i want to be poem

I wanted to be more than a monkey with a refined mind’s eye and so I write the beginnings of symphonies combinations of letters empow-ering your energy and as I speak these words in front of you, I affect your chemistry that’s just a handful of minerals and 7 buckets of wa-ter wrapped around your electricity, rhyme schemes starting to grow

weary, this piece is growing cold tts nearly right where I don’t want it to be so lets get back to the fact that this ain’t rap and I know that.

I caught a case watching the great get greater in linguistic laboratories And the first four letters of culture is what we’re all subscribing to As its not a matter of “If you’re in a cult…” it’s “Which cult are you in?” be-cause there isn’t anything that amounts to anything inside of capitalism that someone isn’t taking advantage of you in one way or another and you’re born carefree and then they start charging you to care and mon-ey makes the world go round and round the ritual of work celebrated by the masses as we watch ourselves build marvelous contraptions still trying to affect this universe , afraid to confront life and death from realistic positions we’re always the ones that are putting off the most important decisions like opening homes for homeless people so that the homeless have homes or maybe even nothing important so much as a roof … can’t we as a community on some piece of public property afford to build something that can be sectioned off from the collective mind’s eye so the wealthy don’t have to see poverty and just build a roof and give people the opportunity to be sheltered … or would that chal-lenge you far too much because if you know the homeless are broken. You’ll fight hard not to be yourself … knowing there isn’t anything to do just might bring out the best in you … we need some roofs … in a park … or something And this is just stream of consciousness at this point

… personal introspection … Neuronautical time traveling inner dimen-sions … I wanted to be more than a monkey with a refined minds eye … And so I write the beginnings of symphonies … Your amazing to me … Seriously.


that before the ice age poem

I wanted to change the world before my body grew cold. I wanted to be a chemical reaction that created chemical reactions. Hands and feet all moving harmoniously with glints in eyes, as we all tried to do what’s best for the rest but then I realized that that already exists and that I was just on a hippie power trip. Trying to dictate what 6 billion people should do from where I stand ss ludicrous indeed but then I realized that instead of creating massive change, create tiny change and just be personally productive because then you can enter into a great rela-tionship with someone you’ll love soon. I miss being right all the time because now I’m always wrong, I remember when I had all the answers and now I just wish I could find a good song to sing while I begin to make my way in the world that education prepared me for.


that did you walk on water poem

I tried walking on water once. I remember how I stood under the fiery sun in the middle of summer. I stretched my limber legs and felt a burn crawl up the back of them. Then I ran as fast as I could to the edge of the pool and just tried to sprint across the water. I remember I felt like I was going to be Jesus after the first step. It was always the second step that reminded me I thankfully wouldn’t be. At the third step I was waist deep in my own knowledge, so I shimmied back to the ladders and

damn it if I wouldn’t try again. I was forever trying to walk on the water just like the times I would try to fly. I would stand in the middle of a cathedral in front of a 40 foot tall wooden figure that invariably had great abs and when no one was looking I stretchted and strained and waved my hands until my feet left the ground. They didn’t. Then I tried a different approach … I stood as still as humanly possible and just im-agined I was floating and waited until my feet left the ground. Through doing this I learned that my imagination just wasn’t nearly as strong as gravity, that invariably kept me right where I was. Twas only my imagi-nation that soared as I remember moments like these I was the one that tried the outlandish When no one was looking And today … maybe I’ll try just one more time And hopefully you can watch me fly. Nope. Not today. ( perform as actually trying in front of people.)


that what can a pimp really do poem

Decrepit scripture lingers on their lips. Their language is dying faster than they are as the reconfigured meanings of combinations of sound surround cerebral cortex tissue and the issue becomes the ether as the invisible world of wonder meant begins to repeat like Pete that fell off the fence and Repeat and Pete conversant daily working on the plans to bring Humpty Dumpty back again Like in Jurassic Park, because they couldn’t put him back together but they did sample his yolk And now they’re ready to clone A million eggs for easter To walk around and spray the pleasant sound of pheasants flying through the air

The thing about Humpty Dumpty is that he really doesn’t care, he caresses his shell casts a spell and watches the dish run away with the spoon, while a plate is growing cold with Mother L Ron Hubbards food. He didn’t want to eat his pork and beans because he was too busy being lost looking for Xenu and the thing about him was that He Knew and now look at this place. Going for a cruise while reading the Enter-tainment News Snifing lines of coke while drinking a pepsi All just to stay awake and conversant About the Lexus you want to get so that you can say you’re setting the pace that’s not made in New York, no salsa

in the NY just doesn’t seem right, we want to keep it real all day long , even though we’re listening to fantasies we call songs that play through the radio while all the pimps walk around feeling way too strong , talk-ing about how hard it is to live their life and I understand their ways but I wonder, as religious as they are why don’t they seem to care about other peoples wives and I sometimes laugh when I see their crass and think to myself They do have it hard. But is it hard like the asians in the sweatshops making their gear Or is it hard like the engineers who create the cars they steer Or is it hard like the alligators life for whose skin they love and care Or is it hard like the miners who bring the gold

they hold around their chin Or is it hard like the factories who burn the sand to make their shades Or is it hard like the woman who is suck-

ing that dick Or is it hard like the streets they walk on every day Or is it hard like creating the tires that they roll on every day A pimps life is hard, for this is true But when a girl leaves a pimp What can a pimp really do?


that sensations poem Didn’t you see the dupsy dos today? Didn’t you see the mupsy droos, okay?

All upon the midnight hour and a shower that fell tremendously all day.

Language can make or break simplicity, exponentially diabolical,

reading makes the mind feel full even though it’s empty. They sent me, just let me breathe. She wandered around the dance floor, a tease. A rhyme scheme in english please, cowardly pent a meet her, bent a greeter, I say. Tomorrow is just beautiful, I may,

Look around the room and apologize

I had too much caffeine , my lips did fly. All around the room my energy tried

to be the best I could be , honestly Stimulation! Sensation! Watch me smile! The language is technology, see

the words surround me, pleasantly today. Poetry! Poetry! Poetry! Sleep.


that this is done poem

The goal of writing poetry is to aid in becoming a poet To wrap yourself around the complexities of language And enable your words to flutter

Until the only words that leave your lips Are butterflies and swallows

Whilst you dance a little dance And enjoy the language of romance

Flipping through englishtic metaphors Balancing paradigms on platters

That you ingest whilst spinning with Gaia Braving the universe under the envelope of air

That you pull into your lungs and taste with your tongue And as this poem spins out of control

The poet declares this work…



that love culture poem I shall get there,

You shall find me Where I need to be Spanking you the night after you were bad

I’ll get mad ,

Then we shall find some leather And you’ll really feel

like your being punished

Because you really did something wrong And we won’t be able to laugh

Because the leather will make sense And the wounds will heal

And the hardness will fall And then you’ll make a call And I’ll smoke a bowl You’ll get that next hit

And then we’ll admit That because we’re in love We’ll get to make culture.


that 911 poem calamity makes cousins of us all 9 hundred and eleven deaths times two is what died that day and family became a word

that entered every mind of prayer and we dared not deceive ourselves of our great loss

and yet we all felt the force of family and the air was a bit cleaner that day maybe not the air we breathe

but the air that makes the ether clean

a cleansing happened and we all were washed in the blood of aspiring angels

who were subjected to the programming of faith we watched a bullet kill a man

and it ricocheted and killed his twin brother and on that day we all bothered

to speak in humble tones because we all understood

what it was like to lose our own.


that revolution in the forest poem

There’s a revolution occurring inside the forest because a single tree stopped changing its’ leaves it’s decided to let them be and soak up the suns energy and now mountains are calling out to farther mountains jaguars are restless in the hills of the jungle and yet the leaves are all smiling while listening to their mother. father sun is smiling and leav-ing for work this night while the moon baby sits this darling little lum-ber some dove and the perfect harmony of existence has been reached and in this perfection three entities raise the leaves that are calling out to all come and see a true deity as you come up and wonder at these beautiful leaves sun moon and tree raising the leaves. the parental power of these three, and the mother needs her children to breathe to breathe to breathe and when she dies they will all fall to be loved again by the ground who is patiently waiting for these souls to fall an earth understands natures course.


that moon juice poem All I did was ride my bike

And I didn’t fall off and I didn’t care

I was just riding it straight to the stars With a pit stop at the moon

So that I could bottle a bottle of moon

That would refresh me when the journey got long

And all through time I would remember this adventure Sippin on some moon juice

In a rocking chair balding and losing all my hair Because I made it home again , intact

With a story about moving your feet in circles

Until you finally see the scenery that you need to see While you contemplate breathing

And the need to be.


that word play poem poetry is about

taking apart the language and building a poets tree that lets you see something you didn’t see before

it’s about breaking a glass eye and fixing the fragments

and frag meant aim and pull the trigger that would raise the figures

on a statistician’s workbook who thinks you’re just a number and you think you’re a soul

but your both right in each others eyes

because as long as your being told what to do you won’t have a soul to listen to

so be the beast they want you to be and then we’ll see what there is to see when you realize the more you believe

the more they can manipulate your cosmology and maybe your stars are aligned in such a way that your planets destroy each other

and leaving you feeling like a disco queen with no disco to attend


that role ex watching poem My rolex watch tells me

that my role is to be her ex and spread stories of how beautiful her pussy felt between my legs

while I massaged her temples that I prayed to daily sacrificing the emotions

that she cultivated inside my chest cavity that I could

feel being filled as I filled that gap below her belly and intertwined we dined on each others nectar

that moved our motion for us while we just watched

in third person mode

the making of the kama sutra an american art form because we love orgasms

in this part of eternity and if you can spare one or two then you can be a deity

for a million years but first we need you to fill out this form and tell us just how the soma felt to you.


that god’s glass eye poem write and never look back

write the words your mind embraces and surprise yourself and others faces rise up to the heavens high

and give god a moment to put back in his glass eye

so that you can see yourself in god’s blind spot

and realize the lies that christians speak are good for the soul and the bank roll

but god never sees that for god has a glass eye

that he got from his years in the military where some shrapnel didn’t miss his head while he was on a crusade to end

the muslim book trade and kill their false prophet because the christians just

wanted all the prophets to themselves

they wanted to have a monopoly on predicting the future and i just wanted to look at god’s glass eye

and marvel at the marble that lied a great lie if you would want a better world

you would have made it by now and i could make you all disappear if i made my final choice

and made it very clear

that i want to get the hell out of here so that i can reap what i have sewn


that do something poem if you can do something

that 100,000,000 people can enjoy

you and your family and your family’s family will reap the benefits for having

added to the culture in a cultural way

the only way for the middle class to find wealth is to serve the community

in a communal way

so dig in deep and see what you reap when a million seeds are sewn.


that i love to write poetry poem I want to breach perfection

And create a masters moment Where all the stars align

And my poetry will actually shine Because its emblazoned on monitors And glowing all the while

I love to write the poetry


that lets burn a bush poem status quo puts on a great show

as we adapt to the advertising that makes us think we need more than we do

and look at me

writing words on the most

expensive word dissemination machine ever created not using it for anything more

than what i was using paper and pen before but now the words are all glowing

and i think i might be knowing that it’s all a sham

to bring us closer to damn

nation where the burning bush is definitely president.


that my goddess calls me lover poem i felt a burning on my feet

and woke up realizing

the towns people had strung me up and called me warlock

their hunt was over

and they had found their convert jesus couldn’t save me

because they couldn’t understand my spells that i enchant daily to the deity

i see before me that loves me

for who i am and who i was and who i will be all together encapsulated inside my body

my deity does not fear me

and allows me to call her lover


that be afraid to fail poem Never be afraid to fail

Because the world is bent on failure

They failed before they went to the moon The failed before they drove the car Success is bent on failure

But then so also is failure.


that all the world is a stage poem If all the world is a stage

Then i’m a lost audience member Milling around among scripted lines

Spouted by quasi sentient citizens of earth Who stare at me strangely

For staring at the stage Like it’s a foreign object

And they laugh at me when I point out There is no space between the stage And the audience that I find quite odd

As we await your dissipation of our boredom With being alive so please when you stare at me Stare at me with your good eye

Because you noticed me And I did a dance for you

That brought a smile to your jazz hands That I was trying to bring together Because I love applause

Especially when I receive it for my routine That has been in production

Since I became bored in Science class A decade and a half ago.


that my culture poem my culture was buried

in old indian graves

and unused missile silos where no one dares to look because cold wars might erupt or manifest destiny

who paved the way to insanity and middle age crises

because america was meant for indians and their spirits will never let us

earn a lifestyle of peace.


that television does not make a man poem i underwent surgery

and they extracted all my arteries

so now i’m only filled with blue blood that has no place to go red

so my blood is always running

towards my heart and the start of my death was the start of my life

that began the moment my creator and co-creator

came together in coital union that brought me out of my father and into my mother

where i gestated until i mutated

into the form you see before you today where i place letters before letters

one keystroke at a time

because my body was ready for nature but you gave me virtual reality

and so i have to virtually exist for even brief moments of time

when i could have been full-blooded forever

but you never seem to understand my dalliances into an alphabet that rests on a keyboard awaiting individuals to fragment their sentences because heaven can’t resist hell’s romance

and neither plays a role in my romance

with the end of my existence because my resistance to your ways of commercial enterprise

surprise even the most spotless minds

and i am erasing my memories one year at a time as i reminisce back to my creation

that i played no role in and now i must avoid the pain you would bring me

for embracing the pleasure

that i find as i relapse contemplating the absurdity you have forced me to deal with

because yes i am here


but i played no role in my role as an earthling you kidnapped me into a war

that i wish to play no part of

because i am a man and i have art to create and you can’t imagine the depths of my hatred

for tuskeegee experiments and clip board psychologists and all i am asking is to imagine a beautiful infinity because i want to share some fermented forevers with you together as we become clever with our sentences

and it could be so different but you won’t embrace the art of creation instead you would rather throw nuclear darts

at people who have just as much blood in their arteries as you but you won’t listen and why should you

because dan rather scheduled an interview with you

and he is important because he stood in front of a television camera that was branding his blood for the whole world to believe

that just because you could paint a moving picture meant you had powerful beliefs but i read 1984 too and as it turns out that was like a manifesto to you but we keep it cool down on internet row

making all the manuscripts beautiful as we borrow our breath from the sun that’s glowing like a fire fly in the sky giving life to people who would rather die and the moon is the same diameter as the sun

so when you see a manifesto you better run because we all know we are ready for tomorrow the one day that we are supremely unsure

if will ever come and then it does and we are back at it again

reformulating the formations of society one breath of life at a time

and i write because i know the power of time and while my hands are spinning these poems

you need to unwind your totem poles of patriarchy because im ready to wood chip those columns

into disexistence while i wait for my pay check

owed to me for using the tools you passed out like paper clips and never thought for a second would change the way society equipped its hands as you transitioned from one age to the next


without any form of consciousness for an answer that would solve the problems you see before you today

i came from nothing and to nothing i will return

but in the meantime I’ve got some ideas that i want to burn its not your witches that bother me

its your ministers who stand preaching confusion in a consuming system of memetic control

as you teach weak minds to be strong in weak ways

and we go to college because we want to learn what to say to make you happy while you change the game and collect your retirement package and your ages are aging

and our numbers are building as we transition to a place you will never see

time prepares me for leadership because i was never promised existence

but here i am sent from the semen of a surgeon to be incubated in the uterus of a teacher

and dropped like a package of blood

on your existence and these words bring me the power. i was trying to be strong in what i wrote

because if there was one place bravery was most respected it was on the page and i was placing my faith in the sage

i burned to remind me that my nasal passages

were sorely neglected and then i sparked some herbs and felt resurrected to a plateau of platitude

just look at these words and remember that i meditated on them while i crafted creations that could bring you to the promised land kicking and screaming i would bring you to heaven

as the semen that birthed me was searching for artistry

because you gave us a pantheon of tools that created the thin film between industrial ages and information stages

we birth beings that we need to stop ignoring because

you never know what will come from the hands of the fetuses

you allow to grow in your presence and no we do not belong to you because we have our sovereignty and just

because you walk with cameras in hand just makes you easier to avoid, which is exactly what i want to do

because the television does not make a man no that’s his job to do.


that where are my children poem i’ll share this poetry with my offspring

that will grow yearly more sincerely and i’ll learn lessons watching these little creatures that came from my being and am i being silly because a part of me wants a child

to raise and watch and learn about the universe from who better to understand life from

than a fledgling of my energy and i know i am not ready

but that does not mean i cannot yearn because my feminine sides want to nurture my masculine sides want to provide

and my personal side just wants to partner

with that person that can teach me about who i am as i live to deeper understand

that which i have been presented with


that poetic image poem i started scrying into my poetry

hoping to see something that will help me see a truer version of reality

and i intoned incantations

screaming as several entities possessed me and none of them

ever caressed me like you do so come and hold me

and take my hand

and we can walk together in this strange strange land I’ll finish college and then we can travel

and find a place where we can get away every single day

and feel romance tingle our toes

while we create lovely little snippets of prose and craft otherworldly poetry

for people that really want to know time is ticking down

wait for me to whisk you away keep in touch and it will be okay


that was read on 107.1 poem my soul was caught drunk driving my body and the existential 5.0 pulled me over

and made me contemplate catharsis i made the mistake of blinking

they said they thought i was thinking and then they locked me up

and stole away my body

it’s such a hassle getting bodies registered with the department of mobile bodies

i guess i’ll just hitch a ride with some siamese twins and make them laugh and giggle from within

all the while i’m ghost riding through life vagabonding with strangers who are stranger than i sharing spiritual spirits that cause us to drift

and reminisce about that last carcass we had

and about the times we performed high maintenance maneuvers with females at high altitudes

and then the wind changes an i go on my way existential departure from reality

i go peacefully and experience a requiem for a dream.


that theatre of my mind poem i’m inside the theatre of my mind

and you’re playing parts getting closer to the bullseye it’s time we start

scribing our names on license plates

so that we know a little bit more about the people we brandish our middle finger to


that i want you to read me too poem i want you to read me too

so that i can read you and you can tell me what my poetry

does to you


that i love pussy poem i’ve never walked on mountain tops but i’ve laid in hotel beds

and screamed i love you between her legs


that divine comedy poem a divine comedy

isn’t funny

when the tragedy is about you


that obligatory carpe diem poem I concur with my delegate

from the poetry nation

It is time to resuscitate ancient phrases Carpe Diem

Seize the day like you’re a leader In the U S of A

their’s no talk of giving no not today

We’re caught up in verbal semantics You kill nations

We kill namesakes

And phrases make our blood boil In kettles on KFC its so easy to see That our religion is growing greasy And poetry needs me

Because of what I see From my vantage point

I push my finger to the sky And point at the glowing disc And ask why

Is it the same size as the moon?


that unique soul type poem i travel with the sun to my back

and the moon to my feet

i feel as though my soul is unique i levitate into brand new space and feel the feeling of

self given grace


that rize poem own me throw me beat me down

destroy our temples steal our crowns

you hate our magesty and our imagination there’s more of us and less of you

and were dying

while were watching you RIZE.


that i declare my freedom poem emancipated i proclimated

that i declare myself bound by the books of accountants

and i owe money to people

that don’t even know how i look


that what’s wrong poem she called me on her phone

that was just another cell on her body experiencing meiosis

duplicating all the meaning

she wanted to speak into my ear i became confused when

i started feeling more attached to my phone than i did to her

and so i melted it in the microwave while she was left asking

“what’s wrong?”


that glowing words poem i impressed a piece of plastic

with my finger and lingered in front of a glowing screen

it seems we’re all bearing witness to the rise of glowing words

and i love to see my words glow on these monitors

that are monitoring our progress recording our finger strokes

for other folks that love it when we consume their tools

that cause us to waste our time making electrical messes

that a glass of water can fix in no time or more beautifully a glass of wine poured on an intel processor

and once your in tell all your friends

so they can process the meaning of your request to be left alone.


that P L U R poem i was caught up in the P.L.U.R. of the moment

Peace Love Unity and Respect or rather

please respect my unity with the universe while i offer respect to the dj who brings me peace.


that drinky drank poem the seed was so thirsty

and it kept telling everyone that it wanted to be a tree

but no one believed just a seed so that seed

drank and drank and drank for thousands of years

and grew until it knew

that everyone knew that it was a tree.


that tritan pta meeting poem god could give us grades

and then we’d have it made

and he could hold teacher conferences with himself

the father the son and the holy spirit announcing at a PTA conference

that they didn’t have to be absentee fathers they just chose to be


that poetic question poem what do they write

on a poets grave when they know

he could say it better?


that you’ve got me fucked up poem Maybe you’ve mistaken my identity

And think i’m five years younger Than im five years older

Than im experiencing eternity right now Set aside to write the rhymes

That will serve as messages to myself Bottled up on paper

That will last longer than I will Acid free parchment

Has done stronger drugs than I have And i’ll combine symbol after symbol Until I create a symbol of this reality

A multifaceted multimedia coagulation Of digits and electricity and fiber and ink Manifested by my hands

As I plan to understand My aging self as a man

Pulled away from the universe I reside inside my mind and

Feel disconnected offering up my artwork

As part of the dialogue that makes me believe One day you’ll really see the words

I’m trying to say Right now.


that here’s to the good times poem Here’s to the nights we used to be young

Here’s to the swings we used to swung on Here’s to the smiles we used to ash

Here’s to the tears we used to cry Here’s to the ideals we used to hold Here’s to the hands we used to hold Here’s to the past

Here’s to the wrinkles that have yet to form Here’s to the knowledge we have yet to gain Here’s to the blinkers we have yet to blink Here’s to the tears we have yet to cry

Here’s to the ideals well teach again Here’s to the chairs were going to rock Here’s to the future

Here’s to the poem that’s inside my mind Here’s to the girl that walking a straight line Here’s to the pins pushed in the wall

Here’s to the crit were about to tique Here’s to the screens that love to glow Here’s to the poet that thinks he knows Here’s to the present.


that little angels poem Little angels

Little devils Little souls Little planets Where we play.


that that time travel poem Maybe life is like a ball of yarn

Wrapped around your time And you spend a lifetime Unraveling so that you Can find the secret

That is your soul.


that there are few patient people poem I don’t run into many people writing

The way I do

Maybe it’s just something I do

But these words make me feel like me And I go back and reread my deeds And I’ll laugh

A big healthy laugh

When I think of the existential 5.0 Pulling me over for pulling U turns At the corner of We St and Ea St Where you can find the Sun Delivering milk in the early morning and the Moon is delivering the paper headlined with the stars

that shone the night before at open mics with poems

ready to glow brighter than the milk man setting off fireworks behind the eyes

of sensitive minds that belong

in a paradise of purpose where life makes sense and handbooks are handy.


that life story poem

He said he was just trying to get lucky She said she just wanted some play Now they’ve got a baby to worry about And neither really knows what to say.


that poem with a story poem There was a cool breeze blowing across the grave. Six feet below topsoil,

Inside an old cofin,

Lied a woman with a maggot in her ear.

She was a motionless expert at being motionless

She was all of death, she was every single dying person, She was HIV and she was the Holocost

She was gunfire and explosion She was war and famine

She was spilled blood and broken bones She was starvation and malnutrition She was sin and drug addiction

She was house fire and hurricanes She was homelessness and crucifixion She wasn’t Jesus though

Jesus would never have been in a mess like this Jesus wasn’t any of those things

Because Jesus avoided death

So that he could live in his parents house for all eternity That none of us were allowed to stay the night in

Because he wasn’t looking for friends as much as we was looking for followers

Who he made leave after all the water and wine had been drunk And right now thousands of calendar pages later

We find a woman that Jesus couldn’t save But didn’t mind accepting money from When she was busy worshipping him

And since the last bit of dirt was heaped on this grave Since the last bit of attention was paid to her

Since the last tear was shed for her Since the last letter was carved for her

Since the last flower was dropped for her She had been gorging herself on death She had been rubbing it with her tongue So that she could taste its finality

So that she could ponder it’s complete distaste for time She was falling in love with death


Because there was no one else to fall in love with There was only this lid above her

And like the festering piece of meat that she was She laid there

With a maggot in her ear.


that inhale infinity poem Inhale infinity

Exhale galaxies

And break free from the confines of reality As cosmology can set your spirit free When you realize that truth

Is just a commodity

That’s bought and sold like monopoly A game that’s played to win

Through the bankruptcy of your opponents As it’s illegal to share and work together

Because you’re the one that has to hold all the paper So that you can wrap your soul up

Ready to be unwrapped at Christmas Time

The annual moment where it is made very clear That religion is reason were buying gifts this year.


that kissy kissy poem how did she feel

when you placed your tongue in the place where she places her meals

and did she enjoy

it when you placed your member in her organization


that playing doctor poem we played doctor

and i unlocked her while i shocked her with my prognosis


that antsy poem

i placed ice cubes in her panties she began to grow antsy

and whispered in my ear “Won’t you romance me?”


that clinging to the bone poem I’m a handful of mineral

Clinging to a bucket of calcium That has been poured over my soul And molded with calculating hands

That knew I would never understand But blessed me with poetry

So that I could find the beauty The goddess finds in me


that FUCK YEAH poem not many societies

can jump into the cosmos but mine can


that dimes of music poem i bought some wind chimes

for a dime

and now i can hear ten cents worth

of music for all time.


that this is for my girl poem You’re the sweetest little candy drop

The sweetest little can’t be stopped Can’t we dance dance dance

And build up a night of wonderful romance Can’t we dance dance dance

and build up a night of wonderful romance you sweetest little can’t be stopped

you’re the sweetest little candy drop The Night is young and so are we

We worked all week and now we’re free Softly softly softly into the night

Waiting for the moment and I just might pull you close and hold you tight dancing to the music it sounds alright The DJ’s smiling and so are we

the night is young and so are we Your the sweetest little candy drop The sweetest little can’t be stopped Can’t we dance dance dance

And build up a night of wonderful romance Can’t we dance dance dance

and build up a night of wonderful romance you sweetest little can’t be stopped

your the sweetest little candy drop


that i am searching for the goddess poem i broke up with God

because I didn’t want to be Gay

and now im in search of the Goddess for in her I want to put my faith.


that deep in the night poem I write deep into the night

I write to make my world alive

I write because I want to survive Many different styles

I will search them all Pertaining to Explaining you

I become the tool That speaks the Truth You need my hues

So that you may color My encrypted thought

Melt into meaning with time And when you see what I see You become sublime


that i’m tired of being beautiful poem im tired of being beautiful all the time

Sometimes I gotta know If the ugly man in me Could make it if he tried is it the effect you get when you see my face

or is it the effect you feel when i describe this place

what’s happening inside this skin maybe im morphing like a caterpillar and one day you’ll see me

banging my head against a streetlight because all i’ve been taught to do

is reach for what’s bright.


that new words poem Sometimes I just want to create new words Absternation, Cosmosigalactic , Denenuay In the hopes that I mind find her name The Goddess…and if I do succeed

Then maybe she’ll come and find me And together we can create the definition That will be absternation

And together our lives can symbolize Unity in a way that you’ll never understand Until we bring the letters together

That spell out what the universe does to us.


that ghost poem My existence is filled with Invisible complexities that

Can only stem from invisible deities As I combine their words

In ever changing patterns

that they never intended to be sewn And I sleep beneath blankets

Sewn by slavery hands

While I understand that I have begun To mold and grow old

And I disappear and reappear While I bend societies ear

So that I can be the ghost I want to be.


that new good deed poem We reclaim our temples

And normal states of being, Screaming is not our way.

We incite a common mind state

As we gravitate towards understanding, In a world that is ever changing.

A need for knowledge is upon us

As great is our need for daily vitamin and mineral Collectively we must carry on these views.

If we do not carry the current traditions of society Society as we know it shall not prevail and will fall.

We have a need to know because we have a need to lead. Time as we know it is drawing to a close

For we are breaching the point of it’s need. We have a Knowledge Nation we can build. This is our first creed, our first good deed.

This is our breaking away, this is our creation of a better day. This is our influxation of emancipated proclamations. Spend time thinking and understanding your options. Develop a single talent to the point of Mysterious Mastery.

Be ever confident in your individuality and ever striving for a good community.

We find all language as of this day to be not good enough for our ever changing standards and we wish to move forward and change what we see

We want all access to all media and we wish to create the mystery : unforgettable.


that broken hearts poem I’ve disappointed friends

I’ve disappointed churches I’ve disappointed lovers I’ve broken hearts


I’ve spread love

I’ve been in friendships I’ve been to church

I’ve been near her heart


that close to infinity poem So close to infinity

And yet my back feels itchy It’s that close to me Pushing my wool sweater Up too close to my skin

And the veil of sweat is so thin But everything is drawing closer And I can feel it against my pores When an event horizon I breach Whose Gospel will I preach?


that perfection in the mind poem I see perfection in my mind

I see all the time I should have spent in the gym I see all the time I should have spent drawing

I see all the time I should have spent learning programming I see all the time I should have spent writing essays

I see all the time I should have spent writing plays I see all the time I should have spent dancing

I see all the time I should have spent working in a restaurant I see all the time I should have been painting

I see all the time I should have spent doing all of this I’m not a failure because of who I am

I’m a failure because of who I could be.


that holy anarchy poem

they had cell phones embedded in their souls that they used to talk to god long distance because they never thought to visit his house and speak face to face to their creative deity

instead they’d rather conference call him with the devil on the line praying to everyone just to make sure they were heard

that they were still in the herd

with their shepherd paving the way to safety while they were in the middle of a three way devil smiling while god is all in dismay

and we’re avoiding fluorescent auras attracted to the red ones

because we’re the real ones

and we just want some warmth not some robotic tryst in the myst of holy anarchy


that life and all that life is poem I found this …

Life and all that life is;

Forever and that’s what life gives;

You never know what you are looking for,

but that’s okay because no one is keeping score anyway. No one that guy with the white hat and the white suit with the dark shadow and the glint in his eye

yeah that no one that keeps life interesting because

no one is keeping score and he won’t let you see his card that he is keeping scores on.

Beautiful silent no one the giver and keeper of scores its all been done and its all been done before

so why mourn?

when you’re loving your life; so why cry?

When you gave it your best try; Really that’s all that life is

and that character that was named that’s something else that life gives, people and places and things and tears

all the reality that will make us human this year.


that be down with me poem I need someone to be down with me

That unconditional love That brings you in my life And heals the sorest spots. I think you need this too, Someone to just listen And be there listening

More than you need food at times.

Everything and everything that everything promises Is what I want to do for you

And maybe that’s what you’ll do for me And we can do for each other Perfecting love

Hurting and being hurt

And thinking that love is in the moment When love is in the long term.

We’re all facets of pure energy So we’re all facets of the Source

And the Source is when we were one And the unviverse existed in us

We were the universe and it was us And in us and for us and through us

Was all there was and then we separated And manipulated the stars until …

Until, until, we could see a past version of ourselves

It’s like we fell outside of time and landed on this planet And now we’re lost because because

We forgot how to plan our destiny among the stars.


that mind massage poem she massaged my mind

while i massaged her feet and we both grew content coiled and rubbing


that how i feel about writing poem i drove a pencil

down the freeway

and picked up a pen lady doodling on the side of the road

we were going the same way anywho and i think she knew

i liked her cursive ways

she took to my prose right on sight and later that night

we wrote a story in bed together that gave both of us happy endings.


that freedom poem raised with immigrant roots ellis island and Ms. liberty

indoctrinated us with american spirit my motherland raised my mother while my fatherland impregnated her

and while i was raised by their grandson here in america

the rest of the world spoils us here in the US of A their experiment gone terribly wrong

like the lost son coming home with an uzi just to let everyone else know

he discovered freedom.


that manifesto poem i manifested my destiny

as i rode from east to west until i came to the corner of Ea St. and We St.

Where I stood sketching caricatures Of the homeless because

I felt like that was my community

And on the corner I picked up my charcoal And dusty paper and sketched until

I made someone smile

And then I smiled and we smiled

And they smiled and they smiled across the street And everyone smiled for a moment when she saw Her face at the end of my hand at 3.52pm

She wasn’t at work and neither was I There was’t any work for us

But it didn’t matter because we were smiling

And both knew we would be sleeping peacefully that night.


that brave new world poem Imagine a group of people hoarding the truth Robed in ancient garments

Imagine a group of people whoring the truth Robed in new attire

Imagine they don’t believe we evolve They don’t believe we change

And neither does their place in society Staying their dismantling days Imagine a different nation state

More fluid than fluid

Where your robed in robes of your mind state And your mind state is your mental state

That dictates your nation state That dictates the leaders you follow

Imagine a nation your mind belongs to That doesn’t need your body

Imagine if you can

A world where lines redraw

And were old people say they saw The New World Order

The Old World Order would dissipate As they cleanse us in their rhetoric We wash their feet with our dreams And accomplish the unseen

It’s so easy to see

But I’m looking through dreamers eyes With rose covered lenses

Covering my corneas

And I imagine more farmers And less plastic workers Transition to other systems Always leave older systems Without power

There are only so many plugs For so many computers

So much power

For systems of thought


But I’m just trying not to become a robot

And if I can’t evolve then I don’t want to create Because I’ll always be exploring the same old space Let me evolve

Say your wrong

And lets sing a brand new song A new world religion

Under the cosmos of Earth

Where we raise dreams from the dirt And let the sleeping dreamers lie

I watch with watchful eyes As my poetry starts to pry

Into deeper truths that move me to motions Of revolution emotion

Stand up and sing or stand up and fight But songs are so much sweeter

And you can either take the blew pill or the read pill And either way you’re going to experience hell

But with no knowledge of hell

No knowledge of heaven can exist Because you don’t know you’re out of hell Until you realize you’re in heaven

The whole world should reformulate itself Slowly so we don’t burn our dreams

But it is possible Because I say it can And if you say it can And they say it can And we say it can

Then earth can learn to understand

We are all in a palace a temple a mosque Built for worshiping the godhead in all of us Strain your eyes and look to see

The future that is directly in front of we And i’ll take my step

As you take yours

And we’ll just start to explore This Brave New World.


that other brave new world poem They gave us Keyboards

And a handful of locks

And with the combination of keys Hit in just the right order

We can undo centuries of conflict And write our way into the future Of a Brave New World

And no door is too closed That it cannot be opened

We’ll dig through the wall if we have to I’m a Revolutionary.

Come revolve with me.


that they saved me poem I raise my fist and scream aloud

Thank the Universe for letting me see all the clouds Blessing us with rain

They are glorious angels I can see so plain Have another look again

At those floating tufts abrupt All life arose from simple clouds Angels seeding existence Screaming aloud



I worship carnal deities I I I I

My whole life starts with me Your life starts with you Collectively we can stop it all Like I’m stopping this poem too.




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